Chapter 28, pure thought is to fly, pure love is fall

Fu Jiezi came back from drinking and felt that he was not drunk, but when he woke up, he found himself lying in the stream, and the star saint and Pan Youyun were helping to pull.

The star saint's arm was weak, but Pan Youyun had practiced martial arts. Her hand was much stronger and suddenly pulled him out of the water. It was this time that pulled Fu Jiezi up in pain.

The star saint cried. She just said a lot with Pan Youyun. She was very contradictory in her heart, so she came out to the edge of the stream to think about it. She happened to see Fu Jiezi's drunkenness coming back and pulled him without saying anything. Fu Jiezi seemed to be angry with herself. She didn't want her to help but fell straight down. When I got to the stream, I said a sentence in Chinese, "You don't have to pay attention to me."

The star saint suddenly felt aggrieved in her heart. When she was busy pulling Fu Jiezi, she didn't pull it. Instead, she pulled herself into the water. Under the urgency and grievance, she couldn't help crying. She fell into the water and was wet, but she helped Fu Jiezi not move. She was in a hurry. Pan Youyun came to pull her back, grabbed Fu Jiezi's belt with his right hand, and picked it up.

Fu Jiezi seemed to wake up and was twisted back to the house like a chicken, and he was so hard that he didn't know it.

The star saint stood outside and didn't go in. Pan Youyun threw Fu Jiezi into the room before coming out and said, "Gonia, are you thinking about what I told you?" The star saint said quietly, "Sister, I don't know what to do."

Pan Youyun smiled faintly and said, "You go and change your clothes first, and then change that person."

The star saint said suspiciously, "Sister, is it convenient for me to go?"

Pan Youyun smiled and said, "It's inconvenient for you. Do you still want me to go?"

The star saint was speechless, paused for a moment and said, "According to what my sister said."

When the star saint returned to the room, she did not change her clothes. She just wiped it a little and took Fu Jiezi's clothes to change it for him. She and Fu Jiezi had sex. It is reasonable that she was not too nervous, but the star saint still trembled a little.

She came to Fu Jiezi's room. Fu Jiezi's breathing sound was very heavy, not as even as usual. What's more, Fu Jiezi is a Taoist disciple. The most important thing is breathing and vomiting. These people breathe deeply and slowly, and there is no sound at all. These facts are known to the star saints. He is now Maybe it's too tired, but I haven't done anything very tired recently, and I haven't even been in a hurry. The only reason is that the burden in Fu Jiezi's heart is too heavy.

The star saint suddenly thought of what Pan Youyun said to her: The most terrible thing is the tolerance of men. They laugh at your usual temper, which doesn't mean that they won't beat you and scold you when they dream.

The star saint suddenly began to recall the past few months. He occasionally gave Fu Jiezi a good look, but most of them did not have a good attitude. She had been immersed in her entangled emotions and did not care about Fu Jiezi's feelings at all.

Thinking of what Fu Jiezi said when he was drunk just now, he must have had deep complaints in his heart.

In her heart, as Pan Youyun said, she was really scared. In the past, she always thought that this person would wait for her to love her. Subconsciously, she only thought about whether her heart could accept him, but now it's different. After Pan Youyun said, she couldn't help recalling that this person certainly loved herself and took care of herself. But have you really done what a lover or lover should do these days? He loves himself because he has cuteness. If his cuteness disappears one by one, he may keep his promise and never give up on himself, but will the feelings in his heart be bound by vows and promises and never fade?

Thinking of these star saints, she felt shudder. Fortunately, Pan Youyun reminded her that she did not pass by happiness. Before, she was still entangled in her heart. Thinking of the tragic appearance of high attachment, the two voices kept quarrelling in her heart, but now they suddenly stopped quarreling. She only hoped that this If he can accept himself, it is necessary for him to bear the sins he committed before. He only asks him not to become indifferent to himself.

The star saint herself doesn't understand why it is like this, and even Pan Youyun feels a little unreasonable. Since you like this person and are not afraid of anything, why do you think about those bad things?

She is a saint of fire religion. She may not be able to see it in small things, but in big things, she has a reason beyond ordinary people. The conflict between emotions and rationality makes her unable to distinguish what emotion is and principle rationality. And this rationality is difficult for ordinary women to have.

Now there is a big crisis. The two balance in her heart is suddenly broken, and her emotional needs are suddenly occupied. She can't leave this person who may leave her.

When the star saint thought of this, she did not blush and heartbeat any more, but looked extremely calm. She helped Fu Jiezi up, removed her clothes, scrubbed them with a towel, and changed into dry clothes.

Fu Jiezi did not wake up. The star saint was worried and didn't want to leave for a moment. She lay beside Fu Jiezi's couch and fell asleep on his arm. I don't know how long it took, the sky outside gradually darkened. Suddenly, she felt someone touching her head and woke up and saw that it was Fu Jiezi.

Fu Jiezi was so confused that he saw the star saint beside her and touched that her clothes were wet. He said muddle-headedly, "Why are you wet? Go and change it quickly. Be careful not to get sick. After saying that, he fell on the couch again, smashed the couch and continued to sleep.

The star saint's heart warmed when she heard this. She knew that he was just a dream, but she still hummed. Then she got up and went out to change her clothes. It seemed that the matter had not reached an irreparable point, and it was up to whether she cherished or not.

Before the star saint changed her clothes and didn't have time to come out, Pan Youyun came over and buttoned the door outside and said, "Gonia, the elders are back." The star saint came out in a hurry and said, "How's it going?"

Pan Youyun was quite happy to see her expression and said, "Have you thought about it?"

The star saint smiled at the corners of her mouth, hummed softly, and said, "Thank you for your guidance."

Pan Youyun smiled faintly and said, "Let's talk about these things later. I'll stop them outside. You go to see the elders and see how things go?"

As he spoke, Master Moke came over with the Elder and the Northern Saint.

The star saint couldn't help but be a little nervous and said, "Big elder, sister, how's it going?"

The elder looked at the northern saint and said with a smile, "It's going quite well. The king has agreed.

The star saint was stunned and said, "Are there any conditions?"

The Elder said, "Now that the Serb are attacking tightly, it is the time to rely on each other, and there are no conditions. The only requirement is to allow Buddhists to preach in peace and Daxia, and people in the fire religion should help as much as possible.

Fire religion is quite xenophobic, which is also the reason for its failure in the Central Plains. It is different from Buddhism and many teachings. Buddhism pays attention to obedience, while fire religion is rebellious and fighting for light and freedom. However, now that fire religion is in great trouble, the elders have agreed to the requirements of Buddhism.

The Northern Saint said, "According to the arrangement of the patriarch, my sister and I presided over the construction of the resurrection site, and the elder and Fu Han returned to the city to report the news." The star saint was a little disappointed when she heard this. She was about to open her mouth, but she saw that the northern saint was a little cunning and said, "However, the princess said that she still had something important to discuss with Fu Han, so she couldn't let him leave, so she sent a man and the elder to accompany her."

The star saint glanced at the northern saint, but she was really panicked. Seeing that the northern saint deliberately laughed at herself, she almost made herself ugly in front of the elder.

The Elder of Unan said, "You two are responsible for the construction of the resurrection field, and the workers are sent by the king and supervised by Master Moco."

The star saint said, "Where is the place?"

Master Moke smiled and said, "It's in the northeast of Lingguang Temple, where there are more than 100 mu of open space, which can be exposed to the sun all day long, which is the most suitable." The star saint heard that she was in Lingguang Temple and couldn't help but be a little surprised. Pan Youyun said, "That's good. You can continue to live here." Her words are quite lonely, and it is no wonder that she has no relatives in a poisonous country, especially no one looks like herself, and she is an alien wherever she goes.

The difficult elder said, "Where is General Fu? We have agreed to leave early tomorrow morning and leave the city tonight.

The star saint was stunned and said, "Is it so urgent?"

Elder Unan said, "It's also to get on the boat to the east early tomorrow morning. Our fire education is getting more and more urgent day by day, and the construction of your resurrection site has to be accelerated."

The star saint said, "We used to repair it in a month, but now if we speed it up, we can complete it in 20 days. Elder, please rest assured."

The elder said, "That's good. What about General Fu? The star saint lowered her head slightly and said, "General Fu just went out for a drink, and now he is asleep. I'll wake him up." The difficult elder thought for a moment and said, "Forget it. Gonia, everything here is up to you, including General Fu. You're not making any trouble here."

The star saint is still a little worried about Fu Jiezi and said, "I know the elder. I will be measured in Fu Jiezi's place. The elder who hummed and went back to his room to pack his luggage. The people sent from outside will arrive tomorrow morning.

The next day, when Fu Jiezi woke up, the elder who was difficult had already gone. Fu Jiezi regretted a little. When he was drunk, he didn't even send the difficult elder. The star saint did not blame him, but said like a little wife, "Don't drink if you have nothing to do in the future. You all fall into the ditch."

Fu Jiezi has this advantage. After drinking, most of what he did has a shadow. Although he can't remember it clearly, he has some impression. He thought that he fell into the stream after getting drunk yesterday and had a bad attitude towards the star saint. He humbly said, "Are you all right yesterday?"

The star saint smiled and said, "It's okay. I..." The star saint originally wanted to tell Fu Jiezi about her thoughts, but she took it back and felt a little unspeakable. It happened that the northern saint urged the fortifications, so she didn't say anything and said, "I have to go with Master Moke to prepare for the fortifications of the resurrection site. The resurrection site is forbidden, and you can't go. Let's rest here."

Hearing this, Fu Jiezi seemed to be out to work and her husband rested at home. He felt indescribably uncomfortable, but he really couldn't help. He couldn't help muttered and agreed.

The resurrection field covers an area of dozens of mu. The king sent 800 craftsmen to start. There is a ready-made topographic map of the fortifications. The star saint is the director, and the northern saint is the deputy. Master Moke is the guardian of the national Zen master Asdu to arrange specific affairs.

Fu Jiezi still stays in Lingguang Temple. What Pan Youyun wants to see most is Fu Jiezi. After all, only this person is from a foreign country like himself. Pan Youyun invited Fu Jiezi to eat pulp. After all, the pulp was not beef soju. He couldn't stand it. Besides, it was sweet. Fu Jiezi was a little far away from this thing, but Pan Youyun invited him and he still had to go.

When Pan Youyun came to his place, Pan Youyun did not prepare pulp at all. Fu Jiezi also knew that the drunken man's intention was not to drink, but he didn't beat one. It was still a little embarrassing to meet him. Pan Youyun smiled and said, "There are no outsiders here. I know you don't want to eat pulp, so I'm not prepared."

Fu Jiezi smiled and said, "If you know me, Pan Niangniang is also."

Pan Youyun said, "So, what about Gonia?"

Fu Jiezi couldn't help but be a little disappointing and said, "She is still angry with me. What can I do?" What can Pan Niangniang do? You have to teach me.

Pan Youyun smiled and said, "In Buddhist language, there is a saying that 'purity flies, pure love is depravity'. Gonia has been a saint since she was a child. It is inevitable that she wants to be more affectionate and much more rational than ordinary people. She will not pursue some low-level things such as desire. If you want to get his forgiveness, you have to get her understanding from the spiritual level. This is not an easy thing."

Fu Jiezi didn't think about this aspect. He heard Pan Youyun say that he also understood a lot. He had never figured out that the star saint was clearly reluctant to part with her, but why couldn't she accept herself? Perhaps as Pan Youyun said, the spiritual level of the star saint is far more rational than that of ordinary people. She may be fascinated for a moment, but once she wakes up, she will become rational again, which is why she has agreed to forgive herself several times, but she regrets when it comes to time.

"According to Pan Niangniang, what should I do?"

Pan Youyun said, "She refused to accept you because you were addicted to killing. Of course, it changed this impression." After saying that, he got up and said, "That's all. Take your time to understand the Bodhisattva." After saying that, he picked up his skirt and got up.

Fu Jiezi sat in front of several bodhisattvas for a while and suddenly seemed to realize something. He got up and saluted several bodhisattvas respectfully and got up to pick up the brush. Pan Youyun only had two walls left, which had been painted by him. Now the other wall is also inevitable.

Fu Jiezi used the brush and also painted a series of plot murals on the wall, which are all things that he and the star saint know each other, such as the wasteland wolves, the elite army, Pu Li pregnant son, Yue's trip, etc. It's just that the focus is different from that painting Yin Yin.

That night, the star saint came back very late. Fu Jiezi called her to Pan Youyun's water house and said, "Come and see."

The star saint looked strange and said, "What are you doing?"

Fu Jiezi said, "Look at this mural." The star saint couldn't help but be stunned. She lowered her head silently. She frowned and said silently for a while, "Do you blame me in your heart?"

Fu Jiezi smiled faintly and said, "How can it be? I hate myself. I know that you are a saint's cultivation, and you have a great feeling in your heart to take care of the lives of the world. I have killed so many people all of a sudden, and I have been regretting these days. Master Moke has a very right sentence. He entered the knife and became a Buddha. King Ashoka committed heinous evil in the first half of his life, but practiced virtue and good deeds in the second half of his life. Now hundreds of years have passed, he is still well received by the world. In the future, I will do my best to save every suffering person around me, not to practice merit, but to atone for my sins. Would you like to supervise me?

Although the star saint did not forgive Fu Jiezi, she no longer hated him. Especially after listening to Pan Youyun's words, she only felt relaxed and raised her head and said, "I do." Fu Jiezi didn't say anything when he heard it, but nodded affectionately to him.

The star saint said, "What is written on it? Can you read it and listen to it?"

Fu Jiezi also nodded and said, "I don't understand your words. I will learn to write them to you again in the future." The star saint would be wrong and said urgently, "I need to know now."

Fu Jiezi didn't look at the mural. He looked at the star saint affectionately, held her little hand, and read it softly:

You see me or don't see me,

I'm right there,

No sadness or joy;

You read it or don't miss me,

Love is there,

No coming and not going;

You love me or don't love me,

Love is there,

No increase or decrease;

You follow me or not,

My hand is in your hand,

never give up.

Come to my arms,

or,

Let me live in your heart...

When she finished reading, the star saint cried. This is the second time he has cried in recent days.

The star saint buried her head deep in Fu Jiezi's arms, as the poem says, came to my arms, or let me live in your heart. Not only the star saint, but also Fu Jiezi himself has some feelings.

This is obviously a very bloody plot story, but it was very rare in the Han Dynasty, and even now some girls have forced their boyfriends to write love letters to her, and they don't have to write electronic files by hand, which shows their tenacious vitality.

The practice of love letters is very elegant. Even if there are some very discordant things written in it, there is also a kind of mood. There is no physical provocation, no desire temptation. It is purely a kind of spiritual talk, which just matches the heart of a woman who pursues spiritual love like the star saint.

From this moment, the star saint accepted Fu Jiezi, and there was no grudge in her heart. Her body trembled a little and said, "I'm really afraid that you will blame me." Fu Jiezi gently closed her temples and said, "How come? Didn't I say in it? No matter what you treat me, I will always love you, no more or less, never leave or give up."

Speaking of this, he kissed the girl deeply and cherished it.