Chapter 342 Confession

The wind is quiet at night, and the lights are dim at night.

The weather in September is not cold, but the cold dew drops in the middle of the night, which is very cold.

After Gu Jinzhi took a bath, he called the palace people to come in to serve and change clothes.

The smell of the bath was so strong that the four little maids who came in all stiled their noses slightly.

Gu Jinzhi's eyes did not squint, allowing them to serve and put on their middle clothes and come out of the bath.

Her hair is wet.

Zhu Zhongjun has been bathed and waited for a long time.

Here, Aunt Cheng's big task had to be unloaded, and she took her people back to Kunning Palace to do the work. The Xilan Hall is quiet.

Seeing Gu Jinzhi coming out, Zhu Zhongjun smiled at her.

The palace man took a towel and wiped Gu Jinzhi's hair.

Gu Jinzhi took it over and said with a smile, "It's not early, you don't have to serve..."

The palace people obeyed and didn't dare to say a word, and even retreated to the outside of the hall.

The door was closed, and in the wide and tall inner hall, only Gu Jinzhi and Zhu Zhongjun were left.

The top of the hall is high, and the glazed tiles of the dome reveal a few rays of cold moonlight, which is reflected on the ground, connected with the moonlight through the window, quiet and condensed.

The cold air of the autumn night quietly climbed up.

Zhu Zhongjun got up and hugged Gu Jinzhi to **.

He took the handkerchief in her hand and said with a smile, "I'll wipe your hair."

Gu Jinzhi said good.

She sat with her back to Zhu Zhongjun, and the wet green silk hung down, all on her thin and delicate shoulders.

Zhu Zhongjun helped her wipe her hair gently.

After the two of them were silent, Zhu Zhongjun said, "Gu Jinzhi, I have a very serious problem..."

"I didn't describe myself that way." Gu Jinzhi replied, and his tone was calm without ups and downs, "How can anyone say that there is something wrong with him? This is a curse.

"I have a hidden disease." Zhu Zhongjun changed his statement, "Except for sexual diseases, other diseases that can't be told to anyone can also be called hidden diseases, right?"

Gu Jinzhi: "It should be okay."

Her voice is very shallow and she is not interested.

She felt that Zhu Zhongjun was talking nonsense.

The couple of them for so many years, Gu Jinzhi is also a doctor. Although the doctor will miss the accuracy when he consults his closest person, Gu Jinzhi can see the clues of the disease.

Zhu Zhongjun has no hidden disease at all.

"When I was studying outside, most of my classmates thought I was gay." Zhu Zhongjun said.

"At that time, our school also had this saying. Beautiful and good-looking boys were all gay, and there was no need to chase them. You are the best of good-looking. It's not surprising that others misunderstand you like this. Gu Jin's way.

Zhu Zhongjun smiled.

When they were young, the domestic atmosphere was relatively conservative. When he was in junior high school, he was full of girls who confessed to him.

When he went out to study in high school and confessed to him, most of them were boys. There are also girls, relatively few of whom are Asian girls.

At that time, girls always said that he had a gay temperament...

"...Have you ever dated a boy?" Gu Jinzhi asked, "Is this your hidden disease?"

The scarf in Zhu Zhongjun's hand tightened, and his voice couldn't help but be angry: "No! What you said is disgusting."

"You said it first." Gu Jin said, "It's not that I said you were..."

"I'm not!" Zhu Zhongjun immediately said, "We have been married for so many years, am I? Don't you know? Did I perfunctory you when I was with you?

"No." Gu Jin's fair way.

Zhu Zhongjun was satisfied.

The topic turned back to his hidden disease.

"When we separated, I was in my prime." Zhu Zhongjun said, "When men have sperm | insects | on the brain, I can't avoid it. Sometimes I'm in a hurry and want to find someone. I used to look for..."

Gu Jinzhi gently picked up his lips.

She never thought that Zhu Zhongjun would be a monk for the rest of his life.

This is unrealistic.

Their marriage is to be separated by Gu Jinzhi.

Gu Jinzhi doesn't care much about whether he is looking for a woman again.

Now, she still doesn't care much.

"I've looked for it twice..." Zhu Zhongjun stammered.

Gu Jinzhi said, "It doesn't matter. At that time, we were all separated. If you find someone else, it is not adultery. Besides, it's all about my previous life, and I didn't expect you not to look for it. Now, I want to marry you, because I want to marry you now. Just don't betray me in the future.

Zhu Zhongjun behind him was silent.

His hand to wipe Gu Jinzhi's hair also paused.

He coughed gently and looked very embarrassed.

"...I didn't make it." Zhu Zhongjun was silent for a long time.

Gu Jinzhi was also stunned.

"What's wrong?" Gu Jinzhi asked him.

"Disgusting." Zhu Zhongjun said, "The first time I went in, it was hot and wet, sticky and wet, like swallowing the pus spit out by others. I was so scared that I withdrew and went away in clothes. The second time, I obviously wanted to, but when I thought of the last feeling, it was even more disgusting. I didn't even do the prelude, so I let the woman go..."

Gu Jinzhi frowned.

She thought for a moment and said, "Do you feel sick when you do it with women?"

Zhu Zhongjun hummed softly.

"Are you not gay yet?" Gu Jin said, "Who are you lying to?"

Then he remembered something, turned around and looked at him, "Are you still like this now? Is it disgusting when you touch me?"

Zhu Zhongjun dropped the handkerchief in his hand, leaned over her turned body, and kissed her lips.

He held her hand and sucked her beard for a moment. He let go of Gu Jinzhi, took her hand, and touched himself.

The hot split is unwilling to stand up.

"If it's disgusting, can you have this reaction?" Zhu Zhongjun said, "I'll do it with you. It's not disgusting at all. When was our husband and wife more than ten years unhappy?

Gu Jinzhi quickly withdrew his hand.

Her attention turned to Zhu Zhongjun's problem, and she was not so disgusted with his touch.

Looking back on the happiness of the bed in the previous life, it seems to be perfect.

Zhu Zhongjun has never shown any disgust with women.

Gu Jinzhi took a look at him.

In the snowy candlelight, his eyebrows turned against the light, restrained the handsome and gorgeous, leaving only a deep outline, and looked at Gu Jinzhi so seriously.

Gu Jinzhi said, "You made those words up, didn't you?"

Zhu Zhongjun immediately stared: "I'm so despicable? It's true, I swear to you.

Gu Jinzhi's meditation.

She thought about it for a long time, recalled the medical knowledge in her mind, and said, "...You are probably a psychological problem. Have you been stimulated by any stimulation after we separated?

After they separated, Zhu Zhongjun was not stimulated.

But he really doesn't like girls.

This is the psychological shadow his mother gave him.

He has remembered his mother's appearance in his second uncle** all his life...

As long as he is not with Gu Jinzhi, he can think of his mother when he looks at other women. Then, he will feel sick.

"No." Zhu Zhongjun said.

"Then you are gay, don't quibble." Gu Jin said, "Zhu Zhongjun, do I look like a man?"

"... Homosexuality is not what you define." Zhu Zhongjun despised her, "In fact, those two things happened. I also felt that I might be, so I found a man to have a try."

Gu Jin frowned deeper.

"Then?" She asked.

"It's even more disgusting." Zhu Zhongjun said, "Just thinking about it, I want to vomit. At that time, I thought, will it change if there is contact? What's the use of thinking about it? You have to try it. I can't live the rest of my life by myself, can I? I am a normal person. I've never made out with a man, so I tried it. When I saw him take off his clothes, I didn't respond. He wanted to get close to me, and I punched him on the bridge of the nose.

Gu Jinzhi slowly breathed a sigh of relief.

It's okay, he's not.

Gu Jinzhi doesn't want to get married. She is not that great.

"Gu Jinzhi, although I have never told you, what I said is all true, I promise. If there is a little lie, it will make me die. Do you understand?" Zhu Zhongjun asked her, "Actually, I don't like men, and I don't like women. I just like you."

Gu Jinzhi's eyes suddenly opened and looked at him.

Zhu Zhongjun took her hand, put it on his chest, and said softly, "I only like you. You can find someone else without me. I don't have you, so I'm the only one left. Don't ignore me..."

Gu Jinzhi looked at him in a ston.

"...this is unscientific." She said, "Because of what?"

Zhu Zhongjun squeezed his lips.

Even now, the reason is still difficult for him to say.

The biological mother did something unbearable, and Zhu Zhongjun wanted to keep it as secret as possible.

He didn't want Gu Jinzhi to know those things.

It seems that he doesn't want Gu Jinzhi to see his ugliest side. Even if he loved her no matter how much he loved her, he didn't have the courage to reveal all the disgrace. Although he knew very well that Gu Jinzhi was not an inseparable person.

Zhu Zhongjun is Zhu Zhongjun, and his mother is his mother.

If you understand it, you can't say it.

Reason can't defeat emotions.

"You put so much pressure on me." Seeing that he was silent, Gu Jinzhi said, "You... do you like me? I never knew."

Zhu Zhongjun is silent again.

He felt very wronged.

"Can I take back those words?" Zhu Zhongjun let go of her hand and said, "Forget it, when I make up the story."

Then he touched her hair and said, "It's not early. Go to bed." There will be a 'morning meeting' in the early morning tomorrow morning, and it will be tossed around for another day.

After saying that, he slept in the bed and lay down sideways.

Gu Jinzhi did not move.

She looked at the man lying with her back to her, with mixed feelings.

Her heart, like a dry and tough piece of soil, needs a lot of emotional water to water, and slowly penetrate to soak her heart.

Zhu Zhongjun's water is very watered.

Although it was half a beat slower, Gu Jinzhi still understood.

She asked, "Have you ever loved me?"

Zhu Zhongjun was very angry.

He didn't get up, but still turned his back to her. He said in an aggrieved voice, "My heart is still the same, and it has never changed. I have always loved you. You don't have to feel pressured. It's good to like me a little.

Gu Jinzhi was stunned again.

It took her a long time before she lay down.

Zhu Zhongjun's great shoulder is next to her.

Her heart has rippled in the lake, and it has been difficult to dissipate for a long time.

She turned around, hugged Zhu Zhongjun's waist tightly, and put her face on his back.

The warmth of his skin spread to Gu Jinzhi's face through the thin middle clothes.

Her eyes were astringent and tears came out of her eyes.

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