Record the bits and pieces from dog to wolf

Note: Each has its own distinction between true and false, and I don't like to click XX in the upper right corner

When I was a child, I was very inferior and the shortest in the class. In addition, the poor face of the people and the family with poor foreign debts were rubbed. In the era of PK fighting all day in elementary school, in addition to PK all day, I found a boss as a dog and has always been a faithful lackey.

As a generation poisoned by cartoons, the ** in the brain that has been thinking about saving the world all day naturally chose the former. As the youngest, I always become a practicing partner every time I fight with the courseware. Of course, it is also a super laughing topic for girls.

A baby like me living in a ravine. Although the relationship between boys and girls did not want to be so open ten years ago, they were not formal. Then boys always find some ways to get close to girls. Of course, the best thing is to let girls come up. As for the way to achieve this effect, there are indeed many ways, such as using intermediaries. Of course, I am one of them, because I was a complete ** in that era. It's just that the more I am a middleman, the more I can set off the tallness of the trustee, so I'm sad that I have become the lowest in the whole class. Of course, all of this is because I didn't care at all when I was a child.

Don't care? No one can care anymore. When I was fed up with the days of being bullied, and when I was seen with evil eyes, I began to resist. I remember clearly that I fought many times that month. Although fighting was like eating when I was a child, that month was too frequent. Every day, I saw people around me wanted to do something and felt everyone. There was deep contempt in my eyes, so I became more and more inferior, and of course became more and more autistic.

With a typical poor and ugly like me, there must be a rich and handsome man. Of course, our class really has an absolute rich and handsome man according to the aesthetics of my childhood. Of course, a tall, rich and handsome man like him naturally refuses to bend down to bully me, because this will damage his image. Just as the hero Wang Baqi in the novel exudes a dog-blooded plot to save a lost young man, this kind of thing happened between me and him. Of course, the protagonist is not me.

After successfully becoming a loyal dog, under the guidance of the boss, I gradually regained my dignity. It was at this moment that I stood up with my stupid and harmonious thoughts at that time. At this time, there are fewer hangings around to bully me. Of course, there is still no girl. After all, no goddess likes a dog, even if his owner is rich and handsome.

But I do have the qualification to be a dog. At least I dare to bite whoever the owner asks me to bite has never been timid. Of course, this also lays the foundation for me to become a mad dog in the future....

In fact, no one wants to be a dog, and no one is willing to degenerate when they can choose to be a decent choice, but sometimes people unconsciously lie down, then forget the human language, and then get used to the life of being a dog, and then there is no more.

After being a dog for several years, I have gradually forgotten my identity, because there is never a sound of ridicule around, because you have a strong enough master, and beating a dog depends on the owner, right????

If there are no special circumstances, maybe I will be a dog longer, and even find a new owner after entering junior high school and continue to be a loyal lackey. It's just that when God also opened his (harmonious) mother's eyes, I remember clearly that it was a very ordinary day in my sixth grade career, but that day directly changed the traces of my future life. I can never forget that sentence. Maybe she was just an unintentional move, and maybe I was as lowly as she said at that time. Maybe I should thank her for awakening my self-esteem that has disappeared for many years, maybe... But too much may not be able to heal my heart at that time, and I still can't forget it until today.

If you are rich and handsome, you must be white, rich and beautiful, just like a princess and a prince. Of course, I naturally can't touch the high goddess, because I am a dog, a dog that knows how to bark and bite.

At noon that day, I went to school after lunch. In the class, the tall, rich and handsome man fell in love with his Bai Fumei, while I sat in a corner and read a book. There were several people scattered in the class, but I don't know why the rich and the rich and white rich and beautiful talked about unhappy topics, and then Bai Fumei resolutely prepared to leave. At that time, when I was reading, I immediately received the master's order to stop the goddess's retreat. In fact, I didn't have my own goddess in any boy's dream. At that time, I also had it, but it was not her, because she belonged to my master at that time.

It's as efficient as usual, and then it's over. I thought so, but...

The goddess is very angry, not because of me. Naturally, dogs like me will not enter the eyes of the goddess. Naturally, it was my master, the rich and handsome, who caused her to be angry, and the goddess who took it for granted would not take action against the rich and handsome, and I naturally became the object of the goddess.

The memory is very deep. The woman slapped me and then scolded me in a contemptuous tone, "Get out of here, you are a dog. His lackey, get out of my way!"

This sentence directly shattered my false self-esteem and broke it into powder. I looked at my master on the spot, but a few masters would bury the goddess because of a dog. At least my master was not at that time, and he didn't pay attention to my feelings at all. Then I stopped the woman's void and walked to her and began to explain their contradictions.

And I walked back to my seat as usual, picked up the extracurricular book on the table and continued to look.

People around will not keep this kind of thing in their hearts, just like no one will always remember the one who forgot to have breakfast today in the bottom of their hearts. Of course, the most "beneficiary" will never forget and can never forget...

Extra: Maybe what is written above is a little exaggerated and gives people a feeling that it is not true, but the girl is absolutely true. I know that sentence is unintentional, but it does hurt my self-esteem in those years. This girl and a girl in junior high school led to my mental growth, which is also exactly The two of them still make it difficult for me to communicate with girls today. It can be said that most of the female friends around me take the initiative to contact me.

Later, I hardly laughed with girls who didn't have a good relationship. Some girls even said that I was cold and arrogant, but I never refuted it, thinking that I didn't want to argue and disdain. Maybe I'm really like what girls say, but I'm still going my own way. None of the girls who have a good relationship with me have ever said that I'm arrogant, because they know that this is actually just my attitude towards life.

I still live like that in primary school, and my life has not changed anything because of that incident, but since then, the distance between me and the rich and handsome man has become bigger and bigger. In the sixth grade, everyone is working hard to get into a good school. At that time, I still read extracurricular books every day. Maybe the rich and rich and handsome think that I have become a pre-examination assault. One of them didn't care, so the goddess naturally wouldn't take this matter to heart.

I am still who I am, but at that time, I gradually became a stray dog. I just want to regain the dignity I have lost, for myself and for my mother.

My mother is a great person, at least in my eyes, only my father can compare with my mother.

Is the day of being a dog over? Yes, I also think so, because I began to realize that I began to regain my dignity, I began to know what I wanted to live for, and I also knew that the dignity of being a dog was as fragile as a bubble, but sometimes even if I knew that even if I made up my mind and took action, even if there were too many, it would eventually depend on this. God's mood. After baking in primary school, I naturally got into the worst school. It's not that I didn't study well. I was the first in the class in mathematics and passed the Chinese. As for English, it depends entirely on luck. Of course, this score became the most important capital for me to change from a mad dog to a wolf.

The rich and handsome man was still in the same school as me in junior high school, but from primary school to junior high school, he immediately became the first rich and handsome. Of course, I have to admit that he was indeed rich and handsome at that time. When I was promoted to junior high school, most of the people who knew me left, and those who didn't know me were full of me, so in this environment, I was determined to live openly. Just like at the beginning, even if I was injured all over, I would never accept the mercy of others, and even if a person stddled, I still moved forward bravely.

My first deskmate can be said to have forgotten his name, but I will never forget how we became friends. On the first day we came, we had a conflict, and then we fought, followed by crowd beatings. It can be said that I was never afraid of this situation when I was a dog in elementary school, but since I decided to find a very helpless fact from a new life. I can only fight alone. That night, four of me were beaten, but I didn't give in or want to call people, because I didn't want to live like before, without dignity and not under the shadow of others.

After that fight, my deskmate said that I was a man and was willing to be a friend with me. He seemed to be my first friend and took the initiative to ask my name. Although he had a fight, he didn't hold grudges like a villain. Maybe we became friends without fighting, but the good times didn't last long. A person who often fought learned Needless to say, it didn't take long for him to drop out of school. Maybe that's his best choice...

It feels great to be a person, and it feels better to be respected, but the price paid for this is not small, but I'm happy. After the first deskmate left, the new deskmate appeared. Now I also forget his name, but I just remember that his surname is Wang, a northeaster. Just like the first classmate, I took the initiative to ask his name, and then became friends as usual. The days of becoming friends were very good. Later, we broke up because of one sentence. And this incident also made me gradually embark on the days of mad dogs....

That day, because of a little contradiction, a very small contradiction, and even I forgot what contradictions we quarreled. At that time, he said something, and now I believe that he is just unintentional, just like that woman...

He said that if I hadn't protected you in this school, you wouldn't know how many times you were beaten in a day. In fact, I wouldn't be beaten all day without him, because I'm still low-key...

I broke up with him only because of his words. Maybe he was unintentional, or maybe he felt inexplicable later, but that sentence directly shattered my gradually established self-esteem again. I don't believe that if you don't live under the wings of others, you can't live as someone else's dogs. That time, I broke up with a friend but a pride for me.

My friend disappeared... Then continue to live, and the contradiction between the two of us became bigger and bigger, which led to the teacher to know that. In the end, the teacher had to pick us away. I was at the same table with a girl, and this girl mentioned another girl who had a great influence on me...

That girl is very domineering, and the typical little sister is that these simple problems are that her grandfather's brother is our principal... Comedy, right? Really, her aunt is our biology teacher. In fact, her academic performance is also good, but she is absolutely domineering and often kicks me. If a boy treats me like this, he will naturally fight back even if he is beaten. After all, he has long been used to being beaten. I'm afraid that there are really few people who can do it. At least I couldn't do it back then, but now I'm glad to think about it. If I met men and women in high school, as long as long as they fight with me, I dare Hit, whether she is a girl or not, let's talk about it after the fight!

I'm afraid it hurts no matter who meets such a girl. After all, few boys dare to beat girls. This is not a question of whether they dare to beat girls, but whether they can... The more bullying, the more I care about the eyes around me. There is no doubt that no one will think that a boy bullied by girls is a man sweating! It happened that my self-esteem, which had just been formed at that time, was broken in an instant. That's why I changed from a stray dog to a mad dog, a mad dog that bit people completely by my own preferences. I have forgotten how many people I bit in junior high school, but at that time, I only remember that I lived without being a dog, and I didn't even know what to bite people for. The more crazy my deskmate saw me, the more she liked to bully me, and the more she bullied me, the more crazy I became... There will always be a day when the vicious circle will be resolved, and from that day on, I have officially ended my dog career....

I don't want to write that girl with too much ink, but that's the only way. She is still a big sister and I still live for myself. Her did affect me a lot of resistance to girls in my life, but that's all, I can't There is no need to find her and then retaliate against her. At that time, although I wanted to prove myself by biting like a mad dog, I forgot that it was the dog that biting people. People always hit your nose with those elegant hands!

In fact, the third year of junior high school is my calmest year, and the most important year. This year, I have regained my dignity for many years, because I am good at mathematics, but everyone's scores are almost the same in 120 in each exam, so it is not a specialty at all, but that time the teacher's questions are particularly painful. Many of them were super-analymous. As a result, I took the exam very well. Not to mention the second 20 points in the first place in the class, many people praised me that time. I was very proud and knew that my specialty was just not played... The third year of junior high school was originally a year of serious study, but I was completely wasted on Internet cafes. It was completely meaningless, but I lived a normal year, and I was also exposed to online novels in this year.

It can be said that I have read a lot of books since I was a child, from the four classics, to the left-turned historical records, from three * hands to Robinson Crusoe. Anyway, there are many, but the first contact with online novels was in the third year of junior high school. It was also the contact that made me insist on writing my own novels, creating my own world and living for myself today. zhuo....

In fact, at this time, we can look back at the history of humiliation in childhood. To put it simply, it is not the kind of life and death that everyone imagines, and there is no such thing related to survival. Being aggressive at a young age is the nature of everyone at a young age, and aggressiveness is naturally easy to form gangs. People like me who are short, have no specialty and are poor must become bullied. There is no reason why this is just people's nature. The younger people are, the closer they are to nature, so I can only struggle weakly under this nature.

Maybe many people have looked for a backer when they were young. It's normal that dogs don't have any dignity as I wrote. Yes, they are not so exaggerated, but today, according to our point of view today, it is not too much. Maybe some people say that they naturally use childhood when they are young. Point of view to criticize, but I have no choice but to say that there is a kind of humiliation that cannot be reduced with the passage of time, and there is a kind of heartfelt cry that cannot be forgotten with the precipitation of memory.

Childhood: short, poor and ugly. In addition, in the years when I was a dog, my own temperament was a little obscene, without masculinity, and I didn't have that atmosphere, so I couldn't get the recognition of everyone, which led to the broken self-esteem and then a vicious circle. To put it simply, this is the general summary of childhood.

And when I entered high school, the year when I became a mad dog made my temperament more or less indifferent. In addition, people began to pay attention to correcting the edges after growing up. Knowing how to maintain my image made me feel less bad. Later, because of the gradual improvement of living standards, I also got out of poverty and finally A person can change. As the saying goes, women's eighteen changes. Although I am a boy, people will always grow up. After growing up, my face is also right for the majority of people. I am still short, but with that same tender cheek, I am naturally regarded as a Zhengtai party. Then when I was a child, those advantages that were not noticed at all gradually played its role, and a dog gradually turned into a wolf!

I said that I like reading books very much and read a lot of books. These were useless when I was a child, but when I entered high school, people's thoughts gradually matured. When I recalled the plots in the book, I gradually replaced my own thoughts and cognition, without pretentiously Every time I read a book, my spirit received more or less baptism.

There is no one around me who just entered high school, and no one knows my childhood. If it is common to fight in high school, then it is absolutely SB to fight in high school. Naturally, my family background can only be regarded as a medium level and won't bring me much superiority. Of course, I feel great. I thank my parents and they for giving me such a great home.

Without family background, you can only compete for personal ability, and personal ability is nothing more than learning, fighting, specialty, and games.

Although I didn't have so many advantages because of my figure, I didn't get too bad. In high school, I just played and played. I read a lot of books. Compared with the people around me, my sister was ten years older than me. It can be said that my sister who was in college began to buy books for me when I was in elementary school. Look, because I ran an Internet cafe for a year in the third year of junior high school, I can also play games. Of course, due to the problem of appearance and age, I have never been able to go to regular Internet cafes. When my sister went to the Internet cafe in college, she said that she was not old enough. At this time, I look back and see that the original disadvantage has gradually disappeared over time, and there is only one future that I need to master myself...

The counterattack of hanging silk is not as exaggerated as everyone thinks. There is no lottery, no earth-shaking appearance, and no natural and man-made disasters. It just begins to change in the plain. In fact, too many people are the same as me. Maybe they have also been hurt and their self-esteem is fragmented, and maybe they are also unwilling. Memories of childhood, but these will gradually fade away with the passage of time, and the real absolute future is still the surviving self.

There was a particularly bloody thing that happened in high school. Of course, I guess it is also a favorite kind of thing to see. The goddess who hurt me in my childhood also lived in the same school with me, and then met her once under the guidance of her classmates. Of course, she didn't know me and didn't want to know me, and I naturally knew the current affairs. Talking to him is as plain as two strangers. When she entered high school, she lost the name of the goddess, and I also took off my silk coat. The two of us continued to live like a meeting, and this incident completely changed me from a dog to a lonely night wolf.

When it comes to high school, I can't help but say my brother. He and I are in the same dormitory. Unlike my childhood, he can be said to live a completely handsome life. Of course, his family is very average, but I have to say that he is very handsome. Maybe he can't see it in the photos, but he knows by looking at the girls around him...

The way I make friends is very simple. I feel good and it is very similar to Brother Lian. When he first came to school, he dressed up as a girl, pink sheets and Pikachu's pillowcase, so I like it. Of course, our relationship was not so good in the first year. He has their brothers, and I also live in the ocean of novels. At that time, I was really not interested in girls. The reason was very simple. First, I took up too much time reading, and secondly, I still felt a little inferior in my heart. I didn't deserve to find a girlfriend. Now I'm also glad that I didn't find a girlfriend at that time, because it's really unnecessary

The turnaround happened at another sports meeting, where my cousin came back and took me to meet three girls. At that time, I generally said that I could still find photos at that time. Of course, I have them in Tieba. All three girls regard me as my little brother, but I'm not used to that feeling, I'm not used to the feeling of being treated as a little brother, and it's also because of that incident that I began to build my own pride

In my first year of high school, I began to write novels and poems. I have written many poems and occasionally wrote some dreams, but not many of them. Now most of them are lost, because the more I write, the more I think about unconsciously. I often imagine myself as the protagonist of the novel. Of course, I read not only Internet junk literature and many other scriptures. I have to say that after reading more classics, my thoughts gradually began to change. The most important point is that I changed from a slight trace of inferiority to indifference from the beginning to absolute indifference to girls. Maybe it's a hidden memory of that sad memory. Anyway, it's always difficult to find a smile on my face when facing girls. Of course, if it's a friend, I definitely talk and laugh. When I'm with female friends, I mostly take the initiative, because I don't want her to feel my indifference and lose a friend. Although I know I don't have to worry at all.....

I lived in high school, and there was almost no women's intervention. When my relationship with my brother gradually became solid in my sophomore year, I shuttled through the campus like two inseparable oil. Later, a man was added. Although my relationship with that person was not as good as my brother, he was also a good friend, so Three men on campus are very happy. No woman is still full of **. At the same time, other people in my dormitory gradually found their own girlfriend. Of course, the same has gradually separated. I have to say that their ending and process make me really feel that finding a girlfriend is really as perfect as in the Internet, so I have to protect her carefully. And enjoyment, although I don't reject it, I also lack a lot of ** with my brother's life.

Maybe I'm really not a good man. Even if I really find a girlfriend in the future, it will be difficult for me to support the responsibility of a man, but I still live so happily. If there is no woman in life, then I am used to it and like this deficiency, accompanied by laughter. Very happy.

Originally, there were many things I wanted to write, such as Meng San, such as novels, but now I think about these and become indifferent with the passage of time. In high school, there were also girls who hinted that they had a good impression on me, but they were still used to single life. I posted my photos on it to say that I didn't directly mean **. The reality is very simple. As I get older, I read more and more books, write deeper and deeper, and my feelings for women are getting weaker and weaker. I often talk about girls, but I really say that I don't like to change my current life. Maybe female friends like to make more, but lovers really don't need them.

From the initial inferiority to the final pride, there are not too many waves and setbacks, but it is very real. In fact, many people are like this, but their desire for the opposite sex is just like my attachment to my current life. Nothing right or wrong is completely a hobby, behavioral habit, simple and ordinary. Real and comfortable.

People living in the world are not only tall, rich, handsome and short and ugly, but also goddesses and triple faces. As ordinary people, we don't need to complain. Maybe the white, rich and beautiful don't belong to you. Maybe it's not suitable in the first place. Everyone's psychology has a goddess. I like the stars in Zhen San, and I also like the Shilan of Qin Shi Mingyue. They are my goddesses. Maybe there is such a girl in my life. I'll go back. After her, she may not choose me, but I will work hard. Maybe a beautiful girl appears in my life, but she is not the type I love. Maybe she is the goddess of many people, but she is not suitable for me after all. We have no future.

Be an ordinary person and live for yourself. Maybe your goddess doesn't like you at all. Maybe she is not as beautiful as you think. Maybe she doesn't belong to you. Maybe you are not suitable in the first place. Maybe the bitter pursuit has no final result, maybe the plain wait is empty in the end, maybe we have to fight when we live, maybe...

But let's not forget what it was for in the end. It's just that the sunset glow accompanied the lover's hand with the parents, always with a faint smile on the corners of the mouth, and then happily looked at the sunset. This is our most perfect life, isn't it?

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