its 020: the past

(I'm sorry, I can't get on the Internet after going out for a day, so I'll send it all at once today)

The neon lights of the Ice Blue Bar flash in the night, shining on the red Chevrolet, constantly changing the curve of light on the streamlined body.

The bar is floated with soft music, soothing and calm, bringing a warm, romantic and quiet feeling.

Gong Ping and Jin Shanzi sat opposite each other at the small table in the depths of the bar. There were no one else around. Couples and twos in the distance sat scattered like them, whispering privately, and no one could interfere with anyone.

"You have known each other for a long time, haven't you?" Gong Ping stared into Jin Shanzi's eyes. Jin Shanzi was a little vague and lowered his head.

"Yes, I've known you for a long time."

"There has been between you for a long time..." Gong Ping wanted to stop talking.

Jin Shanzi raised his head and stared at Gong Ping for a long time. You know, no one cares about me like you like him except him. In fact, I don't have any friends in my life. You are one. That's why I care about what you just said."

"I don't have any friends either." Gong Ping said, "I had a few good friends in elementary school, but with the dispersion of graduation, they no longer see each other. When I was in college, I had only one friend, and now I have lost contact abroad. After entering the company, I didn't have any friends at all. You have been my first friend for so many years. Another one is the master who taught me massage. I only have two of you friends, so I cherish my friendship with you very much. Master is an elder, more like my uncle or uncle, and you are a true friend.

"Thank you." Jin Shanzi was a little moved and gently wiped his tears. However, if you have to ask me to say something, I'm afraid I will lose you as a friend.

"If I'm just that kind of friend, wouldn't it be a good thing to lose?" Gong Ping said. I think it's worth betting on real friendship.

"You know, I'm Korean, but I grew up here." Jin Shanzi took a sip of wine and swallowed it slowly, as if to swallow the long-standing pain together. My father died here, and my mother brought me to him, but finally ran aground on the shore like a whale on the beach. We have always been discriminated against here. From childhood to age, the children around me like to bully me, because I am a foreigner and do not speak fluent Chinese.

"So I have been trying my best to learn your culture and try to make myself like the people around me, but it's useless. They still treat me as a foreign devil. Fortunately, I met Zifeng later.

Jin Shanzi seemed to be trapped in memory and was silent for a long time. Gong Ping did not urge her, but looked at her quietly, waiting for her to take the initiative to open her heart.

"Zifeng is a good person. He has always protected me from being bullied by others. He is the first friend in my life and the first man I fell in love with... No, it should be said that he is the man I fell in love with. Before him, there was no one else; after him, there was no one else. But I dare not say love to him, because I am just a depressed foreigner, the child of a poor Korean woman, and he has a good family and the opportunity to go to the best university and get ahead.

"It's ridiculous." Jin Shanzi wiped his tears and then said, "I don't say I love him. I often deliberately alienate him in order not to drag him down, but in the end I still drag him down. I think if I hadn't deliberately avoided him at that time, our lives would not have become what it is now...

"At that time, there was an excellent man who pursued me. In order to make Zifeng give up, I pretended to fall in love with him. I didn't expect that man to be an asshole, put me..."

Speaking of this, Jin Shanzi's head hung lower, and Gong Ping knew that she was crying.

"Are you looking down on me?" Jin Shanzi lowered his head and seemed to be laughing.

"No." Gong Ping shook his head, "Why do you think so? You are still you, and you have not become someone else because of it. Those painful memories will always disappear with time.

"Yes." Jin Shanzi nodded, "It will not be seen for the time being, but it will not disappear."

"What happened later?" Gong Ping asked.

"Zifeng disabled the man." Jin Shanzi said, "He almost killed the man. If I hadn't pulled him desperately, he would have killed him... And after that, I did the stupidest stupid thing, the boring concept of reputation, which made me hide the bastard's orcism. As a result, Zifeng was sentenced to five years in prison..."

At this point, she cried, and Gong looked at her calmly without saying a word. At this time, any comfort is superfluous.

After a long time, she slowly stopped crying and took a big sip of wine. If I hadn't been so selfish at that time, Zifeng's crime would have been much lighter. Maybe it would only take a year or two, and maybe he could be exonerated. But now it makes no sense to think about this again. Zifeng's future has been ruined by me.

"After that, my mother took me away from the city for my life and wandered all the way here. Later, when my mother passed away, I opened a small hair salon with the savings of the two of us, which has slowly developed to this day. I will never forget Zifeng. I know I'm sorry for him and have no face to see him again, but I really can't fall in love with any man except him. For so many years, I have been alone...

"But I never thought that the wind of the emperor would appear in front of me again. That day, as soon as his car stopped at the door of the hair salon, my heart jumped for a while for no reason. When he walked into the hair salon and saw me, I... I really couldn't describe how I felt at that moment.

"I have no face to face him, I have no face to face the love he wants to give me, but I can't let it go, I really can't let it go..."

Jin Shanzi took a big sip of wine, as if it could extinguish the bitter flame in her heart. Gong Ping looked at her silently and said after a long time, "He didn't blame you, did he?"

"But the more it is like this, the more painful I will be." Jin Shanzi shook his head.

"What's in the way between you?" Gong Ping poked his head forward and said, "Do you feel guilty? Regret? The concept of chastity? Sister Shanzi, you are no longer the little girl in those years. You are a mature woman, a successful businessman, and a person who can control your own destiny. And he obviously succeeded in getting out of the shadow brought to him by that incident and seemed to have become a successful person. So what are you worried about?"

"I can't say it clearly." Jin Shanzi shook his head, "At this age, no one will regard chastity as anything. However, maybe you are right, guilt and regret. This is something that stands between us. I have no face to face him. I'm sorry..."

"Nonsense." Gong Ping interrupted Jin Shanzi coldly, "I don't want to persuade you in terms of feelings or anything. I just want to say that he has paid for you for five years. In order to give up a future that may be better than now, what did you give him? What he asked for is just your love. Can't he exchange this love for five years in prison? In those years, you planted bitter fruits because of escape. Do you want to escape now? Are you going to hurt him again?"

Jin Shanzi looked at Gong Ping in a smit. She never thought about it from this perspective.

"You owe him, you should pay it back." Gong Ping said that he stared into Jin Shanzi's eyes, "Shouldn't it be returned?"

"I..." Jin Shanzi lowered her head, and she was trembling.

"It's that simple to pay off the debts owe him, give him happiness, and give yourself happiness." Gong Ping stood up and gently pressed Jin Shanzi's shoulder: "Think about it. I hope you tomorrow night will still be the same as before."

After saying that, he left like this, and Jin Shanzi sat there alone and fell into meditation.

"You are very touching me." After leaving the ice blue, Yun immediately said to Gong Ping. Gong Ping frowned, looked uneasy and had a strange luck. He asked, "What's wrong with you?"

"Why do so many people hate Xu Zifeng?" Gong Ping whispered, "Is he really a heinous person? Or is there another reason? My intuition tells me that he is not a bad person, but why do so many people hate him and want him to die? Is there anyone who really wants him to die?

"You are still worried about Jin Shanzi." Yun sighed, "Then why don't you grab her and hold her in your arms and take good care of her. It's useful..."

In an instant, Gong Ping looked at Yun with cold and slightly angry eyes. Yun felt that his ethereal body seemed to be frozen by something in an instant. It looked at Gong Ping with astonishment, and finally softened because of fear after a long time.

"I'm sorry... I'm just kidding." It smiled awkwardly.

"It's better to make less such jokes in the future." Gong Ping said indifferently.

"I see..."

"I should see Xu Zifeng." Gong Ping said to himself.

As soon as the voice fell, a gray Buick rushed up from behind and stopped diagonally in front of the palace plane, blocking his way. The door opened, and Xu Zifeng came down with a serious face, with aggressive eyes.

"It's really good luck." Gong Ping whispered, "As soon as I thought about it, someone arrived." He waved to Xu Zifeng: "Hello."

"I'm in the car." Xu Zifeng's voice was low, and there was an irresistible force in it.

"I'm very happy." Gong Ping nod his head and entered the co-pilot's seat. Xu Zifeng looked at him outside the car, also entered the car, started the car, and drove onto the ring road.

"Have you known He Shanzi for a long time?" Xu Zifeng asked while driving.

"For more than three months." Gong Ping said.

"It's not like that." Xu Zifeng's face was expressionless, "I think you are very close. Shanzi is not a person who easily opens his heart to others.

"That's right." Gong Ping nodded. He was about to bring the topic to the topic when Xu Zifeng suddenly said, "Do you like Shanzi?"

"Don't get me wrong." Gong Ping said, but Xu Zifeng quickly interrupted him: "I saw it just now. You wait for her outside, and you go to Ice Blue. Although I don't know what you are talking about, Shanzi seems to be able to open his heart in front of you, which makes me sigh.

"Actually..." Gong Ping opened his mouth, and Xu Zifeng interrupted him again: "Promise me to take good care of her and give her happiness."

"What?" Gong Ping frowned, "What do you mean?"

"I love her very much." Xu Zifeng said, "But I won't live long."