Chapter 13

Make life as gorgeous as summer flowers, and death as beautiful as autumn leaves.

-Tagore's Bird Collection

My name is Guan Bai. I was born on a white snowy night.

I was born into a big family. When I was a child, I was followed by two tall men. In the eyes of most people, I am the second generation of the rich. My childhood was living in a protected form.

I envy the children on the roadside who are held by their parents, not like me sitting in a noble car.

I asked where my father and mother are? At this time, my father told me in a serious tone, Bai, one day, you will inherit everything from me. I just know from most people that my mother died of illness. However, I saw faint tears in my father's eyes.

I will be so scared that I can't say a word by my father's serious tone.

Where is my mother? It was the biggest confusion in my childhood. I learned all the doubts from the mouth of my old housekeeper.

My father abandoned my biological mother for the sake of my career, and my father married a girl from a large family, that is, my nominal mother. Soon after, my nominal mother died of illness, and my father successfully became the first heir and inherited all the family's property. I also became the next legal heir.

So far, my father has not married in his life.

When I knew this fact, I was only 12 years old. I hit my father hard in the face with a small fist.

"Why did you abandon my mother, why..." I cried, and I slapped my father angrily.

My father stood silently, allowing my fist to hit him in the face.

Stopped my swinging fist, and my voice became hoarse under my roar. My father hugged me and said in my ear, Bai, one day you will inherit everything from me. I had the illusion that my father's tone was not as serious as before, and I actually heard choking in the tone.

Soon after, my father resigned from the old housekeeper who told the truth. I asked my father, are you guilty? Do I know what you have done?

My father didn't say anything and turned his back to me.

Where is my mother? You talk.

Silence.

When I was a child, no one dared to bully me. Every time I pass by, I hear whispers in a low voice.

Look, it's the young master of the Guan family.

Super rich, we can't afford to provoke.

Look at the two guys behind him, are their bodyguards?

Listening to these similar flattery words, I felt deeply disgusted. No matter which school, anyone in the school will brand me as a rich second generation.

I have no friends and no family. I tried to find my biological mother. In the vast sea of people, I couldn't find a trace of her mark.

On the day I graduated from high school, I told my father that I want to leave you. Please set me free. My father looked into my eyes and said it for a long time, and so did your mother. But I'm sorry for her.

For the application of the university, I filled in a university without my father's asylum. There is no past, no special treatment, no tall bodyguards around me.

I met Du Lele. That's a withered look. I know that her heart has the same withering and deadness as mine. Curiosity made me investigate her, and there was no resistance to using my family's power to investigate.

She didn't know that I knew everything about her. I confessed to her and told her that I loved her.

She readily agreed. I know she wants a love without regrets. That day, I entered with an unusual ferocity. Her nails sank into my back. We were like hungry children, greedily sucking each other's lips and touching every part of her body.

Lele, after graduating from college, I want to marry you.

When I said this, I saw tears in her eyes.

Guan Bai, I love you very much. However, I won't marry you.

Moving. This is how I feel at this moment. Du Lele, I don't care about your past. I don't care at all. I want you to be happy. I will give up everything for you, even if I give up my identity as the heir of the Guan family. I want to say that I know your past. But I didn't say that it would stab her deeply.

Why? I asked her like this. I don't care if it's not your first time.

Lele shook his head, and his messy hair fell on his pale forehead.

There is a song called 'The worst thing'. The lyrics say that the worst thing is that people who love each other are slowly getting old. If two people live and die. So what will be the worst thing?

Is it the worst thing to tie his shoelaces for the one he loves in the sunset?

After all, the matter between Du Lele and me did not escape from my father's eyes.

My father asked me, what's going on?

I said, that's it.

What does it mean? The father stared and said, "If you don't make it clear, you won't want to get out of this house."

I said, I love her. I want to marry her.

Presumptuous. The father patted the table angrily. What is she...

Speak up, you are not qualified to talk about her like that. I shouted, what you did back then... Don't think I don't know.

You......... My father pointed to me tremblingly and couldn't say a word.

Okay, okay. My father finally looked at me with desolate eyes. OK, Bai, just do what you like.

I glanced at my father with resentment and left without looking back.

In the aisle of the study, the housekeeper told me that my father was also guilty about what happened back then. I also spent a lot of money and effort to find my biological mother, but there has been no result. For this reason, my father contracted an incurable lung disease.

Cough...

My father's cough came from the study. I stopped, sighed, and stepped out of the house without looking back again.

I'm sorry. This is also a choice, and I must give happiness to Lele. You have owed a woman's life, and I must give my life back to a girl in the world for a lifetime.

Le Le, I have given you happiness. Did you see it? I will clean up all the filth in your track.

Make life as gorgeous as summer flowers, and death as beautiful as autumn leaves. This is my understanding of life and death, and I have always been.

With free from the shackles of ropes, I can eat cheap snacks on the roadside without caring. For the first time, I could squat on the ground and cry all day, because I don't care about the so-called heir.

I can do some tacky things that I used to ban, and I can say those tacky things. I'm just an ordinary college student. Some friends will dare to point at the joke and say, you are a pretender, you pretend to be a fork.

I can take Du Lele to travel the whole city and arrange my own itinerary as I like.

This is the life I should live. This is the real life, living like summer flowers, gorgeous and brilliant.