chapter 101

If his father hadn't mentioned it again, Rong Chengxian would have almost forgotten the previous agreement. That's probably... It was a long time ago. Xiaoli had just left Rong Cheng's family. The condition for his father to let go of Xiao Li was his unconditional contribution to Rong Cheng's family.

I drove out of the company aimlessly. After getting off work, the day was getting longer and longer, and the curtain of the night was not pulled down. The big orange round cake hung brightly in the slightly gray sky. I don't know how long it would take to sink.

People's mood will also rise and fall with the sun, so it is easy to rise during the day, and it will become a little low in the afternoon. If it is cloudy and rainy, it will be a little more depressed.

Parked the car near the park, and Rong Chengxian walked out of the car and slowly strolled on the cobblestone-filled path. At this off-duty time, the park is sparsely populated. People are either busy cooking or on the way to cooking.

I don't know how long to talk to my father, so I told Shu Xing not to wait for him to eat. I guess Shu Xing will still wait. Anyway, it's better to go back quickly, otherwise Shu Xing will be hungry with him.

That said... If you don't want to go back, it's better to tell yourself frankly that you are afraid to go back, afraid of returning to the home full of love and warmth, afraid of waking up, the person who lives with you, the person who can always see through his mind at a glance, is as sharp as an optical magnifying glass.

The swing was robbed endlessly during the holiday. At this moment, I was alone by two iron chains hanging on the iron shelf in the sky. When I was a child, I had never played with the swing. When I grew up, although I was free to a certain extent, I did not deliberately want to make up for the regret of my childhood. Speaking of Rong Chengxian Unfortunately, he did not have a special obsession. His mother died a few years after Xiaoli was born. Before his mother's death, as the eldest son of Rong Cheng's family and Rong Chengli's brother, he was called to the sickbed by his mother who was about to die and told him a lot.

At that time, he was not very old. There were many words that he just remembered, but he couldn't understand. Because he couldn't understand, he remembered them very deeply, just like being engraved in his memory. Even if he was cleaned with the most powerful detergent, he could not wipe them off, and he could not forget.

Gradually, his mother's entrustment became a part of his life. Taking care of Xiaoli and being a conscientious brother became his unshirkable responsibility.

'If you want to make that rebellious son safe, you have to support the foundation of a family!'

The awakened memory keeps appearing in my mind. If there is no error about memory, then this sentence is the first sentence I heard after entering my father's study.

Obviously, it's father and son, right? Relatives with the same blood can unswervingly threaten their lives.

There is only one desk lamp in the study, and the rather expensive chandelier on the roof has not been opened. Only the study with the lamp will inevitably look quite dim. You can't see your father's face clearly. You can only see your own shadow. You are lightly swept on the carpet. You are lonely and there is no other shadow to snuggle up.

'What does it mean?' At that time, that's what I should have asked.

'Abandon your own consciousness and live for a family, whether you want to or not. If you want the rebellious son to put down the family business at ease, you have to shoulder all the responsibilities. Even so, are you willing?'

'Good...'

He has no choice. It is impossible for Xiaoli to be bound by this family. Instead of both of them having difficulty breathing, it is better to let a person leave from the bound rope. Even if he is alone, he will feel lonely, that's good. Maybe the space in the rope will be easier. Even if it can't, Xiaoli can leave. This fact is also gratifying enough. It is incumbent on the deceased mother or his responsibility as a brother.

I remember correctly. At that time, I must have said 'good'. He can't let Xiaoli be hurt again and abandon his life. In fact, it's nothing. Born in such a family, life and so on have long been planned into a fixed shape.

What kind of shape do you look like? Square? Rectangle? Round? Or diamond?

Shaking his head, Rong Chengxian smiled. When he woke up, it must be an irregular shape. There are edges and corners in any direction. Probably no one can flatten those edges and corners. It is a completely different type from himself. In this way, it seems that Shuxing chose himself. It is really a strange thing.

Recently, his mind has been full of Shuwake. As long as something special happens, he will always think about what would happen if he wakes up. I heard that there will be a light return before he dies, so does his mind full of Shuwake all day also announce the end of him and Shuxing?

Finally...doesn't it work?

Where did we meet for the first time? By the way, he works in Xiaoli's school. Of course, he and Shu Xing are colleagues and are not very good at getting along with people they meet for the first time. They think Shu Xing is not easy to get along with, but thanks to him, otherwise they don't know when to find Xiaoli by themselves.

The second meeting... is in **. In short, it is indeed not wrong in **. It turned out that nothing happened. He was completely deceived by Shuxing, but his explanation was too touching, and there is always a sense of helplessness that he can't get angry with him at all.

The first time he kissed and squeezed his mouth, Rong Chengxian's face showed a trace of rosy. The reason was that he could not waste food and moved out the hot African people. Shu Xing was really good at all kinds of truths and crookedness. After nearly a year of dating, he finally understood that he had been cheated by him at the beginning.

It's not bad to be cheated occasionally. I have never regretted meeting, knowing and falling in love with Shuxing. In this short time, less than a year, I can give myself a lifetime of memories and the best memories.

If you have a relaxed life, you will feel uncomfortable if you want to return to a depressing and dull life again, but people are originally a very adaptable animal. Slowly, they will always learn to forget, try to put the awakening in the deepest part of the heart, lock it in the box of memory, and not open it easily, as long as it is like that. Maybe there will be less pain.

You are getting married, right? And there is also a child who has not yet been born, but why can't he be happy at all? It's okay if you don't like An Qiong, but there is nothing wrong with the child. He obviously likes children the most, but why can't he have the joy of being a father at all?

Do you like children? I have never talked to him about this issue. How can two men have a child? If they know that they have a child, will Shu Xing be happy? Of course not. You don't have to think about it. How can he be happy for himself and other people's children?

When should I tell Shu Xing? Hidden from him? Impossible. Unless Shu Xing doesn't want to say it and doesn't ask himself, he will definitely be able to see that it is absolutely unrealistic to hide it from him, but... what is the reality?

Their only trip was at the seaside, facing the sea. He once proposed to Shu Xing that when the two were old, they would take their families to the seaside to see the sea. At that time, Shu Xing answered what? Rong Chengxian, who can't remember, suddenly became a little curious.

"That time?" Shu woke up, who was preparing dinner, suddenly received a call from Rong Chengxian, holding an egg in his hand: "Although you ask that, I can't remember."

"What a pity," Rong Chengxian smiled at the other end of the phone: "I thought you could remember."

"It's been too long," he stirred the eggs with an egg beater and thought desperately, but the impression was not very clear: "But if you think about it carefully, you must have never thought about bringing your family."

"Ah?"

"Because from then on, I plan to make Xian my person."

"You..." How can there be such a person in this world? There are no psychological obstacles when saying such words.

"When will you be back?" After flirting with his virtuous, Shu Xing changed to a gentle tone: "I'm waiting for you."

"I... won't go back."

The atmosphere was still very sweet, but it made Rong Chengxian's words feel a little stagnant. Shu Xing knew that he would not joke. As long as he said it, it represented the true meaning between words. During this period, he was always been attacked by various surprises. Shuxing heard such words, and it was not surprising.

"Why?"

"Anqiong has my child, and her father asked me to get married. If I get married, Xiaoli can also be forgiven by her father. Shu Xing, isn't this perfect?"

At the other end of the phone, it was just an embarrassing dullness, and Shu woke up and did not answer the question immediately.

The silence will not last as long as a century, but sadness can travel through the ages. The phone in his ear has been slightly hot, which is also the only source of heat that Rong Chengxian can feel.

The sky outside began to turn light gray. After a while, I'm afraid it will be dark. The call time on the mobile phone has been displayed to 59 minutes and 31 seconds. Except for the initial conversation, the person on the other end of the phone and the person on the other end of the phone did not speak again.

"I'm in the park where we used to come together," the long silence is actually not enough to make people's voice hoarse, but my heart has hurt to the point of unconsciousness. The sound from my throat seems to be dry and painfully sharpened by the sand: "Today's weather is good. I plan to rest here for a while, no If you come to me, I won't go back to my home.

"Where are you going too?"

"It's good everywhere. Just stay there. In the future, I don't want to go back." There are too many memories. If you see it once, you will be sad once.

"What," there was a soft laugh from the other end of the phone: "Is it the break-up fee for me?"

"How come," I don't know what he is talking about. Rong Chengxian just unconsciously talked to Shu Xing: "You don't care at all, do you?" Shu Xing has never cared about anything materialized that can be bought with money. There are many festivals now, and there are always opportunities to give gifts to lovers, but Every time you ask Shu Xing 'what do you want', the answer is the same 'want virtuous'.

It's you who clearly proposed to break up, but what's going on with this feeling that the heart is about to break? Try to keep your mind clear so that you won't miss Rong Chengxian, who is waking up and talking. He desperately reminds himself not to think about superfluous things, but no matter how you control it, the scenes of waking up life are vivid in front of you.

"The meal is ready," came from the other end of the phone. Rong Chengxian heard Shu Xing and continue to say, "I will leave dinner in the refrigerator. I can't eat it until it's hot. The key is in the same place. Remember to come back early at night. It will be windy at night."

"Are you leaving?"

"Yes."

"Wake up..."

"Xian," interrupted Rong Chengxian's words and sighed: "Actually, I've always wanted to know something."