NO2. Floating Traces: The Beauty of Things

The first contact with BL was about four or five years ago, when I just touched the Internet. At that time, I didn't know that BL was written as boylove, but it was simply attracted by its literal meaning. BL, BL in beauty. Then, the words must be warm, and the description must also be a pleasant feeling. When I went in and took a look, I knew that the so-called BL turned out to be a text about men falling in love. However, those words do give people a beautiful feeling. At that time, the beauty was indeed the beauty, not the current H. And I don't have any disgust with BL.

In addition, I was also impressed by the relationship between Hehuan and Prince Hong after watching the TV series "Daming Palace Ci" before. What is particularly profound is that on the night of wind and thunder, Hehuan calmly walked to the front of the hall and openly stated his feelings for Hong in front of Li Zhi and his wife.

I still remember that the wind and mantle on the hall flew, and the lightning outside the hall pierced the sky and the earth. The scene was full of sadness and strength. And the pale face of Hehuan, the weak posture, and the calm expression are uncontrollable. The use of drama means in this makes the contrast between the fierceness of the storm and the unyielding of the soul so sharp and touching. Therefore, I fell in love with drama and this kind of symbolic expression. When Hehuan shouted "Please bury me and Hong in the same place" and was dragged out in such a shout, my heart was really shocked, and for the first time I respected and thought about this different feeling.

I think that whether it is between the opposite sex or the same sex, as long as it is a sincere and beautiful emotion, there is no need to despise and spit it because of different sexual orientations. I always believe that existence is reasonable. And this kind of emotion has actually existed from ancient times to the present. For the most ready-made examples, you can refer to A Dream of Red Mansions, which is written either darkly or clearly.

In addition, the movie Broken Arm Mountain more than a year ago was very public. There was also a movie "Lan Yu" in China. I haven't read the former, and I have read the novel of the latter. The novel, also known as Beijing Story, can be found on the Internet. There is a tear-jerking text in it, which is an inner monologue when Lan Yu died in a sudden car accident and Han Dong saw the body:

"Ah! Ah..." There was a sound in my throat, like a person who would be strangled to death. I feel that someone pulled me hard and said, "Handong, calm down." Get out of here!! You who are alive and dead, watch it!! I don't have to hide it anymore. I want to stay by his side!!! You can sing about your love in public and kiss your lover. Can't I even be sad for my dead lover?!! I looked at his chest, the wide chest, which I have kissed and touched countless times...

But until now, this kind of emotion still exists all the time, and I have only secretly drunk blood and tears alone. It is because it is unorthodox and unnatural for human children to continue. How many souls are struggling in loneliness, and the pain is really unimaginable by outsiders.

Recently, I have also seen an online article "Six Notes of Floating Life" and a related article "I Wait for You to be 35", which is the author's own real experience. When the ideal was finally disillusioned and his lover finally joined hands with a woman, he threw himself into the river. Now looking at the words, the beauty and happiness of the past, the pain and sadness after disillusionment, thinking about the lonely and emotional soul, it is really bitter and regrettable.

Nowadays, the Internet has long been very popular, and BL articles are everywhere. Although most of them are pseudo-BL, and most of them are the YY works of BL wolf girls, they have played a role in promoting the opening of the concept. Many people began to sympathize with them. Maybe one day in the future, they will not have to be so tortured.

The most fundamental basis for the choice of Boy's Beauty in Float is this kind of disgust and sympathy. If you can, why not show respect to it? As I wrote in the article: human emotions are the most difficult to restrain. They only need to be harmless to others and more pleasing to both sides. Why not? After all, for others, it's really "doing a good job".

There has always been a concept of attack and accept in BL. In my article, there is basically no such concept. I prefer to only recognize the mutual fit of the two souls, resulting in a rare true love. In my opinion, even if they are in love with the opposite sex, the two sides should be independent. Then the two men should be two independent and mutually attractive individuals. Spiritual interdependence and mutual trust should be reflected in all aspects of daily life, including sexual affairs. And the concept of attack and accept finally makes it rigidly unequal. So I ignored it. If someone asks me, Shen Yu, who is the top and who is the top, it is hard for me to answer.

So, what's the real reason why I wrote it in the form of BL?

I believe that those who have read Floating Trail carefully will find that this article is just a kind of thinking about how life should live in the world.

In order to facilitate this thinking, my characters are relatively pure, there is no entanglement between love and hate, and each emotion is very clear. Therefore, it has been commented by friends that the characterization is a little rough. I admit that whether it is Yu Qingcun, Shen Fang, or even Lin Zhijun and Juncheng, they are just spiritual characters in different states of life. They all have a certain detached thinking and detachment from the world. And what I have been thinking about is how people should survive after this detached state.

In a person's life, the biggest ** comes from fame and fortune. How many people have spent their lives, but which is more important, fame and fortune, love and the road? Should a person drift with the waves in the sea of dust, or even as the fish father who met Qu Yuan said, "The world is turbid, why not raise the waves with the mud", or should he keep a calm heart, not be moved by external things, and be at ease?

The conclusion is in the last chapter. It was not until this last chapter that I gathered all my thoughts and converged them into a more satisfactory conclusion: I was born with feelings, but I was comfortable with this life. I even suggest that my friends read the last two or three chapters directly.

And this conclusion is not a simple and timely fun. It is the real connotation to conform to nature and pursue beauty.

This article takes the form of an ancient text, although it is empty of history. In ancient times, it was my interest since I was a child. The ancient clothes and the high-crowned and long-breast of the ancients made me confused and happy. When I was a child, as long as it was an ancient costume movie, no matter whether I could understand it or not, I was all in love. In the past two years, I have been immersed in the atmosphere of ancient poetry, which naturally brings the atmosphere of classical Chinese. Therefore, the background is set in ancient times, one is because of my own preferences, and the other is because of the temperament of my own writing.

In ancient times, women had few achievements. Then it's natural to write two men. Therefore, choosing BL is the same as my pure treatment of the characters, which is nothing more than convenient for me to think about it.

After the article was written, some friends were surprised and questioned, including even a friend who was known to make friends. This friend was even more out of love. After leaving a comment that "the text is praiseworthy and readable", he refused to read it carefully. I'm sorry, because it includes my understanding of my life for nearly ten years, and it's only because of the word BL, and it's not because of her. This also aroused my vigilance of conceptual paranoia.

But it turns out that a normal heart is so rare. And I will try my best to keep a normal heart as always.

Whether it is BL or traditional romance, in front of a pure and true feeling, it is just a coat of different styles.

And all kinds of concepts in the human world, whether it is confrontation or inheritance, in front of the road, it is just an insignificant coat.