Chapter 4

How long is a person's life?

70 years? 80 years?

My name is Lin Sheng. I am 39 years old, and I have just passed most of my life.

In the past life, except for the years before entering kindergarten, there was always a person in life, named Du Yan.

I still remember that when I was in kindergarten, he sat quietly by himself, looking like what people said was autistic. In a good heart, I deliberately went to play with him.

This trouble will make me lose all my time in the future.

Later, I learned that he was not autistic. I just thought that those stupid children who could only play with sand were very dirty and disliked playing with them.

This pit has been going on for many years.

It took so long that I forgot how time was lost.

The man in the mirror has a wrinkled forehead, gray hair, and the vicissitudes between his eyebrows are a gift forced by time.

Dry the water on your face, endure the soreness and discomfort in your waist, walk into the kitchen and start a day's life.

The man in the room was still sleeping soundly. Thinking of this, the corners of his mouth bent slightly. This one was in a trance, and the oil exploded, and there was an instant red mark on the tiger's mouth.

Life is like this. When it is sweet, there will always be a pain to remind yourself that no one can always indulge in happiness. Especially in a relationship like ours, happiness is stolen.

It's a pity that I didn't understand this until later.

Now this tired and sweet cohabitation life is so sweet to me now.

After the other party finished breakfast, I helped him tie his tie. He went out, unlike other families. After he left, I also got dressed and went out to work.

This is the only thing I can convince myself that I am not a woman, although their parents will only treat me as a daughter-in-law.

I am a man, although I have never been a man's responsibility for my parents.

At noon, I hurriedly picked up a few mouthfuls of rice, and my mobile phone rang. It was a letter from my sister. She was the only one in the family who was willing to take care of my family.

Sometimes, if you want to get it, you have to give up something.

"My father had high blood pressure and was admitted to XX Hospital, Room 419."

The eyes pulled back from the mobile phone and turned to the window. The taxi drove very fast, and the scene outside the window retreated quickly.

In a roadside coffee shop, in the French window, there is the familiar figure, next to it is a smiling woman.

Before I could see it clearly, the car had already passed.

Is

him? At this critical time, I can't think about it carefully.

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For Du Yan, Lin Sheng is a burden, although this burden does not essentially require him to do very well.

Since Du Yan proposed dating that day, Lin Sheng took care of him for ten years until Du Yan fully recovered and left the hospital. After that, the two went straight to Lin Sheng's residence and lived together.

Lin Sheng is a good person who is good at housekeeping. He cleans up the housework properly. He can also cook good dishes, which completely satisfies Du Yan, a foodie. Sometimes Du Yan is sorry and will help, but because of his clumsiness, he will help more and more in the end

. The cohabitation began for a long time. Both of them slept in separate rooms. Du Yan could not immediately accept the two big men sleeping together, and Lin Sheng was also very understanding without hindrance.

Gradually, Du Yan fell in love with this quiet and comfortable life of being taken care of. They will always play like before, and often get angry in the middle of the noise, and then stop awkwardly.

Finally, once, the two finally lay on the floor. After looking at each other for a long time, they kissed and touched. The first time, Lin Sheng took the initiative to sit up. For Du Yan, this is not as disgusting as imagined. On the contrary, he feels very happy. A man's physical strength can make the other party exhausted, which may be the difference from a woman.

After that, Du Yan will secretly watch some GV films and learn the technology in them. For him who has always liked women, he is only allowed to be the insertion party. In order to make up, he also wants Lin Sheng to be happy.

Ten years of proof that Du Yan's parents accepted Lin Sheng, but Lin Sheng's parents did hold a grudge against Du Yan, and it was Du Yan who ruined their son's life. Du Yan didn't blame them. He only told them that if Lin Sheng wanted to leave, he would never stop him.

This calm and a little happy day was broken by a text message. Mu Yueyi, sent by Du Yan's former fiancee. Du Yan has never changed his phone number. Perhaps this is a nostalgia for his previous life. At that time, he had a beautiful wife and friends around him, instead of the current abnormal state.

Is it right or wrong for you to come out to see Mu Yueyi without Lin Sheng's knowledge? Du Yan looked up at the woman opposite. She was still as beautiful, but more mature than before.

"How are you and Gris doing?"

"It's okay. He is very kind to me and hasn't left me."

"Du Yan, I'm sorry, I thought you wouldn't wake up."

"Hmm. It was Lin Sheng who woke me up.

"I know."

After a while of silence, Mu Yueyi choked and opened her mouth. She divorced.

I don't know why Du Yan was a little happy. After a few words of comfort, I sent her home. He stayed downstairs of Mu Yueyi for a long time, looked at the light in her room, and suddenly felt that they might still have a chance or maybe be together. But when I think of Lin Sheng, my heart is stuffy. For him, Du Yan can't let him down.

Du Yan drove away. The night was very dark and devoured all his directions. He didn't know where to go.

And such a tryst is logical for the first time and the second time. With a phone call from Mu Yueyi, Du Yan can push the work at hand to the appointment. Every time, Du Yan just told himself that this was just a normal gathering between friends, but when Lin Sheng asked, he blurted out a lie.

Everything in their lives is the same as before, except for Du Yan's private date with Mu Yueyi. From occasional to frequent at the beginning, one or two text messages to phone calls, from late to night. Maybe Lin Sheng noticed something abnormal, but his father's illness made him have no time to take care of it.

For Du Yan, he took the initiative to break up with Lin Sheng. He couldn't do it. His relationship these days and Lin Sheng's feelings for him became unbearable. It can only be Lin Sheng's right to separate.

However, all this is just the calm of the storm, and Lin Sheng's father passed away. And his mother also became very old after his father left. He was not unconscious of his lover's betrayal, but he was used to it and couldn't take it back.

Watching his close relative leave and his mother's old and weak, Lin Sheng suddenly found that he had lost something when he was desperate to love. And what he pursued deteriorated sarcastically.

One day, when Du Yan returned home in the morning, Lin Sheng was no longer there, and his things and his traces disappeared.