036: jealous and reluctant to leave

In fact, for so many years, Hou Yunhai himself will also reflect on how he was with Yu Lan and how he lost her. If God gives him another chance, he will desperately stay with Lan.

But he has no chance. Yu Lan died and can't come back to life. Will he continue to be sad like this? This is something that Hou Yunhai will reflect on and ask himself every late at night.

Hou Yunhai can answer himself firmly, but he can't. He wants to return to a normal life and get rid of Lan's influence on him as soon as possible, but he really can't...

He didn't stubbornly tell himself that you loved Lan so much that you couldn't live without her. On the contrary, Hou Yunhai will often hint to himself that Yu Lan is dead and impossible. He should return to his former self very quickly. However, the more he thinks so, the more he can't do it.

My fair lady, a gentleman is good, I can't ask for it............

Looking at Shangguan Wanyun in front of her, when she refused herself, her expression was so resolute that she was no longer the obedient little woman before. This earth-shaking transformation made Hou Yunhai unable to figure out. He didn't know how this woman turned into this. Was it all caused by himself? Is it?

This is also the difference between Shangguan Wanyun and Yu Lan. Yu Lan is always so tempous, but Shangguan Wanyun always changes between water and ice. Sometimes she is as gentle as water and never refuses or resists, but sometimes it is like ice, ruthless and sharp, and there is no room for maneuver.

Thinking of his confession to Shangguan Wanyun, Hou Yunhai had a strange feeling in his heart. He didn't know why he had just done that, especially after being rejected by Shangguan Wanyun. He didn't understand what kind of mood and for what purpose he was doing this.

Hou Yunhai kept asking himself, did he really fall in love with Guan Wanyun? Do you really want to spend your life with her? Has she really replaced Lan's position in her heart?

He wanted to lie to himself and convince himself that someone could replace Lan. He was willing to believe this and had begun to do so, but he did not expect to get such a result. Such a firm refusal made him sigh more at Yu Lan's goodness, Yu Lan's gentleness and Yu Lan's understanding.

However, for Shangguan Wanyun, he has an indescribable feeling, as if it is so lingering.

In particular, her change, the transformation of her whole body, made Hou Yunhai miss Shangguan Wanyun's previous meditation, but began to feel deeply sorry for the transformation caused by his harm to her.

Sitting there, the sea of clouds is motionless, but in his heart, it seems to be the sea, the seemingly calm sea, and below is the most rough waves. He is so crazy and irritable that he can't even stand it.

After Yunhai found himself in a very difficult situation. He did not know where to go or how to choose. He didn't even know what he wanted. This was the most disgusting and horrible thing, and even he began to feel disgusted with himself.

He slowly felt that his mentality was not just because of Yu Lan - Shangguan Wanyun touched his heartstrings and made him not know what to do.

Unconsciously, Hou Yunhai found that the corners of his eyes were wet. He gently wiped it and pretended that nothing had happened.

However, Shangguan Wanyun took all this into view.

For no reason, Shangguan Wanyun felt that her nose was sore, and her heart ached that she couldn't stand it for a moment, as if an invisible big hand was pinching her heart hard, making her unable to breathe and almost dying of suffocation.

After so many years, Shangguan Wanyun found that she still had no resistance to Hou Yunhai. Shangguan Wanyun felt heartbroken, and her mind was always so easy to be affected by him, because his every move changed.

At this time, Shangguan Wanyun always fell into deep self-reproach. She began to despise herself and look down on herself.

Think about it, if it hadn't been for Hou Yunhai, she wouldn't have become like this. She used to be so happy. She was taken care of by her parents and brother, and lived an undisputed life. Maybe there would be a man who loved her very much, warm and clean, holding her hand for a lifetime.

But because of Hou Yunhai, his fate was completely changed.

Until today, Shangguan Wanyun didn't understand why Hou Yunhai treated him like that. He was so gentle and considerate that Shangguan Wanyun decided that he was his true son, and even secretly dated him without telling his family and died with him for the rest of his life.

However, Shangguan Wanyun never thought of it, and never thought that - she still thinks it was an incredible thing - Hou Yunhai actually hurt herself like that, let herself be his mistress, hurt herself, trample on her self-esteem, and insulted herself at the reception, making everyone misunderstand her. Finally, make yourself homeless.

From the beginning, he did something that he had never done and was not allowed by his family without telling his family for Hou Yunhai. Later, because of him, he was driven out of the house by his beloved family, and everything was because of him!

Shangguan Wanyun knows very well that there will be no possibility for herself and Hou Yunhai - she will not allow herself to do that!

Although Shangguan Wanyun knows very well that she still loves Hou Yunhai so deeply and wants to be with him, it is impossible. She can't do that for her dignity!

There are many men in the world. Why let Hou Yunhai feel that he is so superior and superior - a woman who has been deeply hurt by himself, and finally turns back to find himself, which makes every man feel his greatness. And for this, continue to hurt that woman without any bottom!

Shangguan Wanyun shook her head. She really wanted to live a normal life with Hou Yunhai, but she couldn't, no, no! She wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes. What has she endured for so many years? Just to live a good life with the baby. Their mother and son have never received a little care and care from Yunhai. At this time, can she still go back to Hou Yunhai and ignore the past? In that case, isn't it too cheap!

She kept reminding herself that she would fall if she was not careful.

After being silent for a long time, Hou Yunhai stood up. He didn't want to stay here anymore. He was wrapped in the memory of Yu Lan, which scared him. He was afraid that he would fall deeper.

Hou Yunhai left, and Shangguan Wanyun was also relieved. She was also afraid, and the reason was the same as Hou Yunhai.

In the corridor, a man saw that the door was opened and quickly hid aside. He saw Hou Yunhai leaving alone, and there seemed to be an indescribable pleasure in his heart. Then he sorted out his clothes, waited for about ten minutes, and entered Shangguan Wanyun's ward as if nothing had happened. "Shangguan Xiao Sister, are you feeling better?"

"Mr. Hou," Shangguan Wanyun saw that it was Hou Shaoyun, immediately wiped her face, and then squeezed out a smile to hide the sadness of her tears just now. "I'm really sorry to shock you all. In fact, I have no problem with me."

"Yes, I think Miss Shangguan seems to be much better, and her face is like a red apple." Hou Shaoyun said from the bottom of his heart that he found that he had been fascinated by Shangguan Wanyun. She was a 360-degree beauty. Whenever she saw her, she was so beautiful that Hou Shaoyun could not extricate herself.

Shangguan Wanyun smiled shyly, probably because she lived abroad for a long time, Hou Shaoyun sometimes showed extraordinary enthusiasm, but it was this kind of enthusiasm that made Shangguan Wanyun very uncomfortable - although she has been abroad for many years, it is undeniable that she still He is a very traditional person. Of course, this is very important for women. "Mr. Hou joked again."

"Speaking of this, how about telling you a story?"

"Good." Shangguan Wanyun nodded. Hou Shaoyun always didn't have time to make people feel kind, and he seemed to be very relaxed with him, which made her feel much more comfortable.

"Well, once upon a time, there was a taxi driver who specialized in driving late at night. His business was very bad that night. He happened to pass by a cross street where everyone said was often haunted, and he planned to leave quickly. But he saw a woman stopping the car behind him by the roadside. Thinking that the business was not good, he stopped the car and pulled the woman.

"And then? Didn't you say that it's often haunted street corners?

"Yes, that's right, so the taxi driver is very nervous," Hou Shaoyun said seriously. Seeing him telling stories seriously, it was quite attractive. Shangguan Wanyun has always felt that the most attractive appearance of men is when he is serious. "He has always told himself not to be afraid and don't panic. At this moment, the woman took out an apple from the back seat and handed it to the driver, saying, 'Sir, I'll treat you to an apple.'

"Is there something wrong with that apple?" Shangguan Wanyun was infected by the story, and with Hou Shaoyun's nervous and serious expression, she was also deeply attracted by the story.

"Listen to me first," Hou Shaoyun said an anxious child. "The man took the apple and ate two bites. The apple was really delicious. He was also very happy to think of taking guests and apples to eat, 'Thank you'. The woman smiled, 'How's it going? Are the apples delicious?' Yes, I like apples very much. Really? That's quite coincidental. I also liked to eat apples when I was alive!' As soon as the driver heard this, he was so scared that he quickly stopped the car and suddenly braked! He wanted to go back to see the woman, but he didn't dare. He didn't know what to do!"

Shangguan Wanyun couldn't help but be nervous, "Is that woman...?"

Hou Shaoyun immediately laughed, "Then, the woman said, 'After giving birth to a child, I don't like to eat it'."

"Oh," Shangguan Wanyun also laughed, "Mr. Hou really scared me to death when I just talked about it. I thought that woman was..."

"How's it going? Isn't it funny?"

"Is it good for you to take this as a joke? It sounds horrible!"

The two chatted a few words. Hou Shaoyun saw that Shangguan Wanyun was so happy, and he felt much more comfortable. He looked at his watch, and the time was almost time. Later, Thunder would come later. At that time, when he saw himself and Shangguan Wanyun together, he might be misunderstood. In addition, it was working time, so My behavior is obviously leaving without permission, and it's better to go back early.

"Miss Shangguan, just have a good rest. I won't disturb you." Hou Shaoyun said and stood up.

Shang Wanyun nodded and wanted to get out of bed to see him off, but when she got up, she was a little faster and almost fainted on the ground. Hou Shaoyun quickly went forward to help her up. The distance between the two was so close.

"No, I'm sorry." Shangguan Wanyun stammered and planned to hold the bed and stand up.

Hou Shaoyun did not let go of his hand, but helped Shangguan Wanyun to **, but he was also embarrassed to get up. "It's nothing. Miss Shangguan doesn't have to send me. You are very weak. You need to have a good rest."

After saying that, Hou Shaoyun made a grimace at her and left quickly. He was afraid that he would drag himself down and didn't want to leave.