Chapter 35 The past is unbearable
Tang Saier returned to the camp under the escort of the bodyguard. She had been waiting for him to come back in Yinren's camp and kept waiting.
Thinking that Yin Ren may be doing something with Mrs. Zhu at this moment, her heart is like being severely scratched by a sharp knife, and her internal organs are constantly rolling in her body.
Yin Ren... Why don't you come back...
You promised to come back...
She dares not think about it, nor does she want to think about it.
Why... I'm finally ready to forgive you... You have to do this to me...
Is it true... what the apprentice of the flower and half-immortal said in the mausoleum is true... Are you really a waste** Wuji who relies on his body to seize the throne...
Tang Saier sat in such a daze and sat in the camp until early morning.
In the early morning, Yin Ren finally came back drunk with the breath of alcohol.
Yinren walked into the camp as if he hadn't seen Tang Saier. He went straight to the bed, lay down, closed his eyes and fell asleep, as if he was very tired.
A line of tears slowly slid across Tang Saier's cheek. Tang Saier only felt that her heart was like a knife at this time. She walked to the bedside and looked at Yin Ren who was sleeping.
You said you would love me... You said you wanted me to believe you... But you are doing this to me now...
Tang Saier trembled her hands and pulled away Yin Ren's clothes. In an all moment, her whole body seemed to have been struck by lightning.
Yin Ren's strong chest and lower abdomen were covered with spotted red kiss marks, as if they were deliberately kissing. These kiss marks seemed to be engraved on Tang Saier's heart. There was no need to think about who kissed it. Tang Saier suddenly felt a roll in her stomach, and the unstoppable nausea made her want to vomit.
The hard-won hatred comes to my mind at this moment.
Why...why is it like this...
"You get up... Why are you still sleeping? Get up, get up."
Tang Saier beat Yin Ren's strong chest like crazy and scolded angrily.
"What are you doing?"
Yin Ren slowly opened his eyes, gently grabbed her hands, and said angrily.
"What are these? What is it?"
Tang Saier's haggard little face was covered with tears at this moment, and her whole body trembled slightly, looking like a depressed pedestrian wet in the heavy rain.
"I'm very tired. I want to rest."
Yin Ren sighed and said tiredly.
"I ask you, are these kisses by Mrs. Zhu?"
Tang Saier opened her eyes wide and stared straight at Yin Ren.
"Yes."
Yin Ren replied.
"How can you let an older woman who can be your mother kiss you? Do you have any shame?
Don Seer scolded angrily.
"Don Seer! Don't be unreasonable anymore, okay? I'll tell you! I have three thousand beauties in the harem. If you can't stand a Mrs. Zhu and you want to be angry like this, I'm afraid you will be angry every day in the future. As my woman, you have to learn to tolerate. You are not the only woman.
Yin Ren looked at Tang Saier angrily, turned around and lay down to continue to sleep.
"Get up, get up, I won't allow you to sleep!"
Tang Saier only felt that her heart was cut like a knife, and she cried and fought on Yin Ren.
"What on earth do you want me to do?"
Yinren looked at Tang Saier tiredly, and his eyes were full of fatigue.
"What do you think you did with that old woman last night?"
Don Saier asked.
"Why do you ask me when you know? Do you have to say it myself to make you feel more comfortable? Can't you pretend to know nothing like other women?
Yin Ren stared at Tang Saier tightly and said angrily.
"Why do I pretend not to know?"
Don Saier said hatefully.
"Okay, since you want me to say it, I'll tell you that I slept with Zhu Yangchen last night. Are you satisfied?"
Yin Ren said indifferently.
As if a thunder hit her body fiercely, Tang Saier was stunned, her brain was blank, and her heart was blank, leaving only tears flowing down stupidly.
Although they saw the kiss marks on his body, they still deceived themselves. Maybe they didn't go to bed, they were just drunk, and now they said this fact from his mouth.
He went to bed... He really slept with Mrs. Zhu... Why...
Why can he say so lightly... As if it's just a trivial matter...
Yinren... Do you know... the little things in your mouth... are enough to destroy my world...
"Why...why...why did you do this to me..."
Tang Saier stood by the bed in a daze, tears flowing down uncontrollably, and muttered.
"If you want to know why, I will tell you that I had sex with Zhu Yangchen as early as ten years ago. At that time, I was only 17 years old. In order to survive, in order to compete for the throne, and in order not to be trampled on by others, I exchanged my body for the help of these powerful women. I know that Zhu Yangchen is a waste* ***, after her husband died, she raised a large group of beautiful men in Zhu's house. I went to seduce her and accompany her in Zhu's house for a whole month, drinking and having fun with her every day, trying to please her. Later, she was willing to use the power of the eight major families to help me ascend the throne.
Yin Ren smiled self-deprecatingly, as if he were laughing at himself.
Tang Saier looked at Yin Ren incredulously and looked at this familiar and strange man.
I finally got a little close to you... but now I feel that I'm far away from you in an instant...
"I have not only slept with one woman. I have slept with many women for this throne. Tang Saier, if you can't even stand this, there is nothing I can do!"
Yin Ren looked at Tang Saier tiredly, and his eyes were full of helplessness.
"Well, even if you slept with her out of helplessness, but today you are already the emperor of Southern Chu. You are powerful and hold heavy soldiers in your hands. Why do you still have sex with her?"
Tang Saier looked at Yin Ren angrily and asked word by word.
"What you see is just the scenery on my surface. You think I hold heavy military power, but you haven't seen Nanchu's internal and external troubles. Nanchu is now like a fragile baby. Only a small blow is enough to be fatal. What I have to do now is to eliminate Nanchu's internal worries first, and then calm down. For external troubles, if you want to eliminate internal worries, you must first start with the eight major families in the south.
Yin Ren stood up and gently hugged Tang Saier, as if he wanted to get a little comfort from Tang Saier.
"So, you have to go to bed with this old woman?"
Tang Saier gently pushed Yin Ren away, looked at Yin Ren contemptuously, and said coldly,
"I must accompany her, and I must let her know that now I am still the prince who was oppressed by her. I want to lie to her. I want to tell her that I don't have the ability to resist her now, and then I can give her a fatal blow and destroy the eight families in one fell swoop."
Yin Ren said softly.
"Yinren... I seem to understand you a little... But I can't convince myself... I just want you to have slept with her... I feel so sad."
Don Saier covered her face and cried bitterly.
"In order to survive, I have suffered a lot, suffered a lot, and slept with many women I don't like, but I have never regretted it. In the palace, everyone could step on our mother and son's head, and everyone can beat and scold our mother and son at will. I live like a tightrope every day. Son, I have had enough of it for a long time. I want to be the emperor. I want to let my mother live a good life. I am willing to pay any price, and I will never regret it.
Yin Ren looked closely at Tang Saier and said.
"In those years, I was like a dog, competing with other male pets to please Mrs. Zhu, because I know that this woman can give me the power I want. Now, I still have to go to bed with her, because I want to let her relax, so that I can have a chance to destroy the eight families."
Yin Ren said softly, as if recalling those unbearable past and those painful experiences.
Yin Ren... How much have you paid for this throne...
On the back of your scenery... how many unknown bitternesses are hidden...
I... seem to have no longer to hate you like this...
But I can't love you like this anymore...
I'm so tired... so tired... I really want to escape... far away from you... so... I don't have to think about those things... those things I don't want to think about...
"For so many years, I thought that I had been numb to women for a long time. I thought that I would no longer be moved by any woman, but I was moved by you. I haven't tried to believe in a person for many years."
Yinren muttered that there was fragility and fatigue that Tang Saier had never seen before.
Now he... is like a helpless child... wants to seek a little comfort from her...
Tang Saier gently hugged Yin Ren and his strong body. Who knows what kind of vulnerability there is in this strong body, and how many unknown bitter things are hidden behind this seemingly strong man.
Yin Ren... If I can... I hope to meet you earlier... In this way... I can comfort you earlier...
I used to think that you were a majestic king... but now I know that you are just a fragile man...
When you walk in front of others with a strong mask... your heart is always crying...
You just want to protect yourself...protect the people you care about...
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I shouldn't have said that..."
Don Saier hugged the man in front of him tightly and wanted to warm his cold heart with his body temperature.
"Sier, I... I'm so tired..."
Yinren hugged the little woman in his arms tightly and whispered that there was unbearable bitterness and fatigue in his words.
"If you are tired, hold me tightly."
Don Saier said softly.
Yes, he paid too much bitter blood and tears for survival and the throne.
Tang Saier can't give him any power. All she can give is to hold him tightly and tell him carefully that she will always stand behind him and silently support him.
This... is enough for him...