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"Hey, Yu Shu." Lu Jingyan quickly connected the phone.

However, after waiting for a long time, the other party never spoke.

"Yi Shu, is that you? What happened?"

"Brother Jingyan, I'm divorced." Zhou Yushu just felt that she had a thousand words to say, and finally hesitated for a long time but just whispered this sentence.

"Yi Shu, where are you? Don't move. I'll pick you up right away. Lu Jingyan, who was on the other end of the phone, suddenly understood the situation and said anxiously.

To be honest, Zhou Yishu didn't know where she was going now. She looked up at the name of the building opposite, and then reported it to Lu Jingyan.

"Okay, I know. Just stand there and stay still. I'll be right there."

Lu Jingyan took her back to the apartment. Along the way, both of them were silent. Zhou Yishu didn't say anything, and Lu Jing didn't ask.

As soon as she entered the door, Zhou Yishu finally said, "I'm tired and want to take a shower."

"Okay, I'll get you some water."

The water slowly flowed on Zhou Yushu's body, washing away all her fatigue.

When he opened the door, Zhou Yishu walked out of the bathroom around the bath towel, and Lu Jingyan stood in front of her in a daze.

"Don't say anything, don't ask, okay? I'm really tired. I want to sleep quietly for a while.

Lu Jingyan just looked at her in a staring way, standing still.

"Don't worry, I won't be confused. He does stupid things. He doesn't deserve me to do that." Zhou Yishu smiled with a bleak smile on the corners of her lips.

Lu Jingyan opened the door of a room and said, "Then you can stay in this room. I won't disturb you. Have a good rest."

Although Zhou Yishu said she wanted to rest, she sat in ** without a trace of sleepiness.

I don't know how long it took. Lu Jingyan pushed the door and came in, still holding a cup of steaming milk in his hand.

"I knew you hadn't slept yet. Have a cup of hot milk. It may be more comfortable." Lu Jingyan sat down beside Zhou Yishu and handed over the milk.

Zhou Yishu sat there motionless as if her soul was out of her body.

Lu Jingyan gently pressed her head on his shoulder: "Yi Shu, don't do this. Now you make my heart hurt. I can only help but look at your pain. I beg you, don't do this, okay?"

"Brother Jingyan, am I bad?" Zhou Yushu suddenly asked.

"No, you will always be the best in my heart."

"However, I left him so cruelly when he needed me most. I also took advantage of our baby. He won't forgive me anymore. I really have no choice but to do this. My heart is so bitter..."

Zhou Yishu suddenly said too much, and Lu Jingyan couldn't react for a moment.

"Yi Shu, what are you talking about? Do you have a baby?" He asked in surprise.

Zhou Yishu nodded gently and replied, "Well, he came at a bad time. He was destined to have no father's love at birth. How can it be like me? How can it be like this? I fell in love with a man I shouldn't love..." Her hand unconsciously stroked her still flat abdomen and muttered.

"Didn't he want this baby?" Lu Jingyan asked carefully, lest she touch Zhou Yishu's fragile nerves.

"No, it's not that he doesn't want the baby, it's me and the baby who don't want him. He must hate me so much."

"What?" Lu Jingyan was stunned.

"Brother Jingyan, do you know? He had a brain tumor, and the doctor asked him to undergo surgery as soon as possible, but it may cause amnesia after the operation. He didn't want to forget me and everything between us, so he actually refused the operation. But I can't watch him give up the opportunity to survive like this. I love him so much. Even if he forgets me and everything in the future, he won't accept me and be with me again, but as long as I look at him from afar and know that he is doing well, it's enough..." With that, Zhou Yushu's tears are not The controlled fell down.

"Silly girl..." Lu Jingyan patted her on the shoulder sadly.

"You two are big fools who are falling in love. It's good for everyone to say something face to face. Why do you have to plan for each other and hurt each other?"

"Brother Jingyan, you want to keep this secret for me, okay? I'm afraid that if he knew about this before the operation, he would not accept the operation again. Zhou Yishu looked at him earnestly and said.

Lu Jingyan sighed helplessly, "Hey, what do you want me to say about you? I won't agree to see you in such pain now, but from childhood to age, as long as you propose it, I will not refuse. I promise you won't tell Song Chun, but you have to promise me that you can't go on like this anymore. You are not alone now. You still have a baby. Even for the sake of the baby, you can't suffer yourself, okay?

"Baby?" Yes, she is not alone now. Even if it's for the baby, she should take care of herself.

Zhou Yushu lowered her head, stroked her lower abdomen back and forth, and nodded gently.

"Well, now, you don't want to think about anything. Drink this glass of milk and go to bed, okay?" With that, Lu Jingyan handed over the milk.

This time, Zhou Yishu's obedient result cup and drank the milk inside clean.

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The next day, Zhou Yishu got up early in the morning and was ready to go out. Lu Jingyan was very worried and asked her where she was going. She just said, I went to see my mother.

When she came to her mother's grave, Zhou Yushu leaned against the tombstone, just like she used to lean against her mother's arms.

"Mom, I came to see you. I haven't come to see you for a year. Do you miss me? I miss you very much. Do you know? My heart is really bitter now. Do you remember the man who came with me last time? I hurt him deeply this time, and I'm afraid we can't go back in our lives. But what can I do? I have no choice. I just want him to live a good life.

"In the past, I didn't understand why Dad left us alone, but you still loved him and even waited for him all your life, but now I understand. That's a love that will never be cut off. You just want to be good for him from the bottom of your heart, and you just want to give for him. Mom, do you think we are all stupid, struggling to keep such a fruitless love? I'm really afraid that I won't be able to hold on. Mom, give me courage, okay?" Speaking of this, Zhou Yushu's tears fell down unconsciously.

Walking on the path that I often ran when I was a child, humming the nursery school songs taught by my mother, and the bitterness in my heart seemed to be farther and farther away from her.