Chapter 10: The Strength of the Heart

"Puff..." He laughed after watching the scene under the desk.

"What are you looking at? Haven't you seen someone rubbing your hands to keep warm?" I ignored his unfriendly smile and continued to rub my hands under the desk.

He stretched out his hand from the loose school uniform pocket, and then grabbed my hand and put it back into his pocket. At that moment, I wanted to break free, but I was held by him.

"What are you doing?" I whispered.

"Why are your hands so cold? Don't move. Aren't you afraid of being seen?" He cooperated with me, but his voice was lower than mine.

His hands were not very big or so warm, but he twisted his body and clamped my hand tightly in the palm of his hand in a strange position. The warmth of the palm ignited the blood and slowly entered the heart.

I think I must be blushing now.

Although I don't want to pull my hand away from his palm, reason always reminds me that I can't do this. I can't let him lead my nose. I can't greedily accept too much.

"Okay, I'm not cold anymore. Let go of it."

"Then let go, I'll go in your pocket?" A boy's unique bad smile appeared at the corners of his mouth.

We whispered in a corner of the classroom like an underground party, and every time I wanted to get out of his pocket, he dragged me back.

Then he would threaten me with the teacher's misunderstanding, and then I found that he was so childish.

The door of the classroom was suddenly opened, and An ran came in. And I also took advantage of the door opening, and when he was not so focused, I twitched hard and successfully escaped from his clutches.

I looked at Angan, who seemed to have cried. He looked at Situ Lei with red eyes, and then turned to his seat and didn't know what he said to Han and Ya.

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Because Yuan Meng had something to do these days, Situ Lei was inexplicably dispatched to work with me for dinner.

In fact, I don't need anyone to accompany me. Eating is like a form for me every day. Because I sit all day, my digestion is naturally slower. Almost every time I have to eat before I feel hungry.

"Actually, I'm not hungry, why don't you eat it?" I said to him, 'Gollum...' and then my stomach made a long cry.

"Well, you're not hungry, it's hungry." He stared at my stomach with a serious face.

After class, Situ Lei pushed me downstairs. I asked him why he didn't use the elevator. Every time he walked the stumbling stairs, I didn't care if I was pushed by him, but I felt that he was looking for trouble.

When I asked him like this, he just answered 'I like it' indifferently.

“......”

is such a simple sentence that makes me so choked that I didn't know what to say.

We seldom talk. He is a cold and taciturn character, and I am not good at words. But that's it, and I have never felt embarrassed.

Maybe from the realization that we have always been like this, with few words, but we feel very down-to-earth and comfortable. And his silence is more like a silent companionship to me. Only peace of mind is in my heart.

"I want to eat spicy mix." After arriving at the canteen, I said to Situ Lei.

"Can you eat something nutritious and think you are not thin enough?" With that, Situ Lei pushed me away from the canteen and turned a blind eye to him no matter how I played tricks.

"Hey, where are you taking me? I don't want to eat anything else." I looked back at him.

He didn't say anything, but pressed his hand on my head and rubbed it randomly.

We crossed out of the school gate and entered a small restaurant called "Mingpei Xuanyi" not far from the school.

The decoration here is very elegant, but I can't understand its name. But from the facade, this should be an ordinary home-cooked restaurant.

The restaurant is not located on a busy street, but next to a community, surrounded by a large open space. It can be seen that it is a wasteland that is stopped halfway after half of the construction.

When we enter the restaurant, the interior decoration is simple and elegant, but it makes people feel clean and comfortable as soon as they come in, just like returning home.

There are many life photos hanging on the wall. It seems that they should have been taken by the restaurant owner casually. The mother is holding the child or the child is playing alone, and each of them is full of happy smiles.

Although it was noon, there were not many people coming to eat, so we casually found a seat. The waiter came quickly and handed us the menu.

I was not very hungry, so I gave him the menu. He seemed to be familiar with it. Maybe he often came here. Instead of looking at the menu, he got up and walked to the counter, said something to the boss and came back.

"Do you always come here for dinner?"

"Well, I will come over when I have time. It's not just for eating, but more to come and see. Situ Lei looked at the photos on the wall and said.

"Do you like these photos very much?"

"You will feel very warm when you look at it. I don't have a mother and have never enjoyed such happiness." He looked at the mother and child playing in the photo, but said lightly.

I feel that I asked something I shouldn't ask, and I don't know how to slow down. There was no sadness or miss for his mother on his face, just saying this, as if everything had nothing to do with him.

"Do you think I'm cold-blooded and emotionless?" When he saw that I stopped talking, he turned his head and looked at me.

"No, it's just that you always hide your emotions, so that even if you want to get warmth and love, no one can be sure if you need it. Just like when you looked at the photo just now, even if you try to hide it, you can't deceive yourself.

"Real?" He smiled.

At this time, the waiter brought the dishes.

"We, are we here for breakfast?" I stared at the sesame brown sugar porridge and two plates of light pickles on the table.

"If you want to continue to talk like this, you have to eat like this."

"Nonsense, pregnant women eat like this, and brown sugar porridge." I whispered, picked up the spoon and began to eat porridge.

This porridge tastes very good and is sweet. It seems that I haven't tried the taste of adding sugar to the porridge since I became sensible.

I tasted a spoonful of finely, and suddenly a particularly awkward feeling arose.

I raised my head. Sure enough, as I thought, Situ Lei looked at me eating with great interest.

I hate the feeling that someone is watching me eat, which makes me uncomfortable and I don't know how to open my mouth.

"Don't you eat?" I looked around and didn't know what to say. I just wanted him to stop looking at me.

"I'm not hungry."

Really, do you know it's impolite to watch people eat? I'm thinking to myself. But I can't say it.

At this time, a little girl ran in outside the door and quickly accelerated her pace when she saw Situ Lei, and a fierce man plunged into Situ Lei's arms: "Brother Situ." The little girl is crisp and coquettish.

"Xinxin is back." Situ Lei put away his expressionless face and touched the little girl's head with a loving face.

And I also found that this little girl was the child in the photo on the wall. It looks only 5-6 years old. A smile on his chubby face reveals two very cute dimples. At first glance, a small mushroom head looks like a small ball in the cartoon.

"Brother Situ, you haven't come to play with me for a long time." The little girl put her head on Situ Lei's body and couldn't help rubbing in his arms and acting coquettishly.

"Brother has a lot of things to do recently. Can you come to accompany Xinxin every day during the holiday?" Situ Lei said that he gently touched the little girl's nose with his finger.

"If you keep your word, it's a stinky dog." The girl kept talking to him with her little brain.

"Xinxin, why do you play a rogue as soon as you look at Xiaolei? Come down quickly." A grandmother slowly walked in and quickly stopped the little girl's coquettish behavior.

"Hello." I nodded politely and smiled at my grandmother, and then continued to eat with my head down.

"Xiao Lei, did you bring your girlfriend?"

Before Situ Lei could answer, the little girl took the lead and hugged Situ Lei's neck tightly: "No, Brother Situ is mine."

Situ Lei took Xinxin aside to play and chatted with his grandmother while playing. On the contrary, he was as close as his grandparents.

It was rare for me to see him so happy that I sat aside without saying a word. I just quietly enjoyed lunch and the slightly warm scene in front of me.

After dinner, Situ Lei and I left, and Xinxin reluctantly let him go.

"Ji, let's come with my sister next time. Xinxin, the person Brother Situ likes, also likes it." Before leaving, the little girl trotted all the way, kissed my face, and then invited me in a childish voice.

When he returned to school, he said that he wanted to find a place to sit for a while, so we came to the water sculpture in a daze, and then there was a half silence. He stared at the sculpture in the fountain, and I watched the columns of water spewing out, falling, spewing out, and falling. Naturally silent.

"You know that restaurant well, don't you?" I took the initiative to talk.

"Well, we have known each other for two years."

"No wonder the relationship is so good. Seeing that you chat with grandma makes you feel very close."

"Real?"

"Well, how did you know them?" I continue to ask.

"Xinxin's father died because she was involved in a fight. Her mother had no job and had to support her children and mother-in-law. So I paid to open this restaurant for their livelihood. They wanted to open it in a prosperous area, but they insisted on it, because it was the place where Xinxin's father had an accident. They said it could be closer to him.

He said quietly and slowly, without any expression on his face, nor too much emotional catharsis, just like holding a storybook and reading the text on it stiffly.

"I can't see that you are still so kind." Of course, I didn't mean that he was cold-blooded.

"You're wrong. You misread me from the beginning." Situ Lei's indifferent tone improved slightly.

"What's wrong?"

"He died because of me. He was supposed to work in the construction team there, but he was involved in some small things I caused and was accidentally injured to death. As a result, the construction was forced to stop and has not been restarted until now.

Hearing this, I didn't know what to say to comfort him or hesitate to make a statement, so I had to listen silently.

"In order to make my life reasonable, I found his address and family situation, and hypocritically helped them move and open a restaurant."

"Do they know?"

"If you know, do you think you will still accept my help?" He smiled bitterly.

"You know this time, I'm not what you think"

At this time, he was like an injured bear, with no luster in his eyes and lost his vitality in his tone. I'm just powerless to talk about the mistakes I've made before.

"You are not me. How can you know what I think of you?"

I saw what he wanted to say and quickly blocked him back. Then turn the direction of the wheelchair and face him. He put his hand on his head and gently stroked his soft hair.

He looked at me silently and was stunned there. He couldn't see whether he was happy or dissatisfied with my move.

"Whether it's hypocrisy or sincere, you just did what you think you should do. Even if they will hate you and blame you after knowing the truth, you have no regrets. Everyone is not perfect. Your tenderness is hidden in the place closest to you.

I gently stroked his head and comforted him.

Suddenly, he held me in his arms. Hold it tightly. I can even clearly feel his heartbeat.