Chapter 5: Courage 1

In November, it was slightly cold. The weather in this place was too different from that of Xiaochuan's family. Even Xiaochuan began to not get used to it and began to miss the cold in his hometown. Here, the cold is the heart.

In November, the community was finally established. It was time to recruit new people. At that time, it was really late to recruit new people. Other clubs started activities. Few people came to ask, and even fewer people could do things. Ogawa used all possible relationships to attract a lot of children in their first-generation children. At that time, he was happy to be busy.

Xiaochuan is used to being strong and working hard. No one can rely on him. He has to work harder. He has a lot of work every day and is very tired. He often goes to bed at two or three o'clock in the morning. He has to go to class on time in the morning and do his best in everything. Xiaochuan at work seems to be tireless and doesn't know what tired is. In everyone's eyes, he only sees a powerful Xiaochuan. He is not afraid of anything, can't be afraid of anything, and can do anything. Xiaochuan is used by several people.

Is it to forget who? Ogawa occasionally thinks so. Is his memory in his mind blurred? The answer is no, because I will still miss, sad, or inexplicably sad.

In the weather in November, the city began to rain. The continuous rain made people upset and annoyed that they didn't want to do anything and didn't want to pay attention to anything.

In the cold November, Xiaochuan was also sick. It rained all day, but Xiaochuan was sick for a long time. It was just an ordinary cold. Because of poor rest, it suddenly became serious. With a cough and a fever, his whole body was about to collapse.

I had no choice but to go to the school hospital to hang water. Ogawa's blood vessels are very thin, that is, the kind of child who will be very troublesome to hang water. The needle can't find the blood vessels, and even the infusion is much slower than others.

After hurriedly dealing with the affairs of the club, Xiaochuan sat alone in the hospital, hanging quietly.

Normally, in late autumn, there are still many people who have colds. From 5:00 p.m. to 8:00 p.m., Xiaochuan was only halfway through, and the sky was completely dark. The doctor tried his best to tell funny stories in the hospital, so that these sick children would not be so lonely.

Xiaochuan just smiled slightly, and his heart was full of loneliness, a person's loneliness, a person's loneliness.

[Honey, I'm sick.] Xiaochuan sent a text message to the little bear.

[What's going on? Is it okay?]

[Ye�, it's okay, it's just hanging water.]

[It's so pitiful, it's really pitiful. Hug]

[Ehm, hug]

[I'm still busy]

[Go ahead] I don't know when Ogawa has learned to stop asking. If you can't, let it go. What you force is never good.

"What are you doing?" Ogawa's mother called.

"I..." Xiaochuan was speechless for a moment. He seemed to have grown up very early. In many things, he would not be coquettish to his parents. He didn't report good news or bad news. He was outside, so he didn't let them worry.

"What are you doing?" Mom heard Xiaochuan's hesitation and asked in a heavier tone.

"That... I'm in a meeting." Xiaochuan didn't want his mother to know that he was sick, so he told a little lie.

"Are you still in the meeting at ten o'clock?" Mom asked in surprise.

"Ye-huh, I'm having a meeting outside. I won't talk to you. I'm busy here." Ogawa explained in a panic.

"Okay." Mom complained dissatisfiedly and hung up the phone.

Orange actually came to accompany Xiaochuan, but Xiaochuan thought that Orange's dormitory could not go back too late, so he chased Orange back. I can do it alone. Xiaochuan said to everyone around him with a smile.

The whole hospital is gone, and Xiaochuan's hanging water is not over yet. The blood vessels in the hand are cold, which is what happens every time you have an infusion. It's just that this time it's a little more lonely, and the cold spreads the whole arm. The coldness is in the heart.

The mobile phone wandered between QQ and the blog, and I couldn't see their traces. I was left like this. Xiaochuan couldn't help thinking like this.

[I'm sick.] Xiaochuan saw a very familiar name on QQ. That person is Xiaochuan's hometown, and he is also Xiaochuan's brother - Xiaojie.

[What's wrong?]

[I have a cold and I'm hanging water.]

[hanging water? Where? One person?] There is no concern hidden in the words.

[Eh, one person.]

[I'll pick you up]

[Good] Ogawa was suddenly very happy. It turned out that he was still a person who cares about himself.

Xiaojie ran to pick up Xiaochuan, and there was a little more reproach and concern in his words. Xiaochuan's sadness suddenly broke out, and his coquettishness and unhappiness broke out to Xiaojie, and the two almost quarreled. Xiaojie seemed to be used to Xiaochuan's transmutation. The unhappiness on his face only hung for a few seconds, and then turned into a strong concern.

I only hung up for one day. On the second day, Xiaochuan refused to hang up again. He didn't want that kind of sadness. No matter how miserable he was, he didn't stay in the hospital every day. There were still too many things for me. Without me, I couldn't finish it. Ogawa smiled slightly, endured the pain, and continued to do the work he should do.

Maybe without him, I should be stronger. Ogawa smiled and said to himself in the mirror.

My strength and my stubbornness, Xiaochuan knocked on his mood in the computer.

"You all want your fairness... Who do you want my fairness?

I don't know why you left... I don't know why I left you

In fact, being tired is a good excuse... I know that no one will keep this excuse... I lost completely in love... It's just because of my strength and stubbornness

I can be strong and accept all your sorrows without regret, even if I accompany you through your heart

I can be a little woman, just a very good compliment for you...

I'm too strong, so I resist everything to reassure you, so I will only cry at you... Just for your warm words

I try my best to play my role. Whether it's a strong woman or a little woman, even if I play the whole world, I have never lived in your heart...

You choose to leave, and I will never let go. The two of them are handsome. I can't let go alone. I interpret my sadness alone. You don't know anything. I have never been free and easy. You have never loved me. Is this the best ending? It makes you feel that no one has ever loved anyone and no one is sad

Is it my strength that makes you deter me? If you say you are sorry for me, do you never love me... It's been so long, why do I have to pretend to be pitiful... It's like the whole world owes me,

My strength makes me never flinch, so that I am destined not to compete with anyone, let me always learn to compete with others, my stubbornness, destined that you will never know me, and I am destined to break up and I will not want anything

My strength and stubbornness and I are destined to move forward alone... never flinch...

I can never choose the person who loves me and the person I love

No one has ever loved, and it is you and me who let go... My strong and stubbornness and I let you stay away from me, and I am also far away from myself... Then, I have never had love, and I will not see anyone sad and sad...

I passed by like this... I didn't even look back... In the past, you were you, I was me... From then on, I was me, you were you...

Don't talk to me about fairness... I never asked for my fairness...

There is no one right or wrong on the road of love... Love is not a war... Whoever loves first... Whoever loses...

I will never be the only one who is entangled... I'm more strong and stubborn... so that I won't admit myself! In fact, it has already been a failure...

Maybe it's time to have a good talk... Let's give each other a reason to liberate... Or that's it... We'll still be friends after many years...

I can quit everything about you and me... What I can't quit is my heart and memories...

I never thought about amnesia. No matter how bitter it is, it is a beautiful memory

Wait until I can really have only memories... You're not you, I'm not me... It's just that I'm still strong and stubborn... Go my own way"