Chapter 26 Because of youth, he is frivolous

When Fan Fei walked to the corner of the corridor on the second floor, he leaned out and looked at Ding Shichen, who was entangling with Xu Jing on the floor.

Xu Jing is reluctant to torture Ding Shichen, which naturally includes several unique tricks such as the method of agitation, coercion and scratching the umbilical socket. It makes Ding Shichen, who has always been quiet and simple, unable to stop Xu Jing's offensive. In the end, she has to be frank and lenient and take the cause and consequences and the words just said to Fan Fei. My son told Xu Jing.

"From his last sentence, he may have known the truth, so he refused my help. He regarded it as... my sympathy and charity." Ding Shichen said with an aggrieved face, looking pitiful.

"This guy is really not a good person. No, he is a non-human who came up on Mars, and he doesn't know good or bad!"

After listening to this, Xu Jing immediately hugged Ding Shichen angrily. "Thank you for trying so hard to help him, it turned out to be completely wrong. This is called a dog biting Lv Dongbin. He doesn't know the hearts of good people!"

"Don't say that about him. He has his self-esteem! Ding Shichen suddenly felt a little annoyed and counterattacked with an unhappy face.

"Self-esteem? Can I have it as a meal? Yo, do you feel sad when I say that to him? Xu Jing widened her beautiful eyes and screamed in surprise.

"Fuck you! I have nothing to do with him!" Ding Shichen blushed and said, and at the same time stretched out her hand to scratch Xu Jing's itching. The two girls suddenly laughed.

Fan Fei quietly withdrew his head, took out a cigarette from his pocket to light it, took a deep breath, and then held it for about half a minute before gently spitting out a wisp of invisible smoke.

Although he was far away, with his extraordinary eyesight and hearing, he naturally saw the blush on Ding Shichen's face and heard these conversations between them.

Fan Fei suddenly felt a little guilty, but he did not regret it.

Regarding the words of urban people and rural people, what Ding Shichen just said is the truth, which is also the life path that Fan Fei has been designing for himself. However, Fan Fei has never forgotten that he is a rural child, and he has never regarded himself as an urban person.

The fact that urban people and rural people are born can't be changed because of other people's different opinions. Therefore, even if Ding Shichen regards Fan Fei as a cityman, Fan Fei still doesn't think so. He thought that only when he worked in the city and owned a house could he be regarded as a real city man, but now, he is obviously not.

So now when he faces Ding Shichen, he always feels this urban-rural gap.

Although Ding Shichen wears a relatively simple dress, often wears school uniforms and doesn't wear any jewelry. It seems that her family background is average, but Fan Fei knows that her family must be good. Because Ding Shichen occasionally uses a little perfume. Although it is so light that ordinary people can hardly smell it, Fan Fei, who has a particularly sensitive sense of smell, can still smell it clearly.

Perfume may be a kind of condiment or flirting for men, but most men can't tell the subtle difference between perfume. They just think there is a good smell. The difference is mainly in the strong grasp. And Fan Fei's nose can easily smell different types of perfume, even if it is a very light perfume. And he can hide the smell of these perfumes in his mind. As long as he smells a certain perfume, he knows which girl may be nearby, almost to the point of "smelling a woman".

In the final analysis, this is the sultry of a virgin who likes to look at beautiful girls but never dares to attack.

Once when Fan Fei went to the Bubugao shopping mall when he had nothing to do, he accidentally met a girl who was trying out perfume at the perfume counter, and the smell of a bottle of perfume in her hand was exactly the same as the perfume Ding Shichen used. Fan Fei came up and asked for the price. Only then did he know that this is a well-known brand perfume called Chanel No.5. The original product from Paris, France, costs 780 yuan for a small bottle of 50ML and more than 1,300 yuan for 100ML...

From that moment on, Fan Fei knew that Ding Shichen's family should be relatively superior, otherwise he could not afford such an expensive perfume. Although he felt that Ding Shichen didn't need to use this purely money-burning luxury at all, and deliberately despised her with words such as "rich second generation, prodigal son" in his heart, sometimes he had no choice but to admit that he was still a little ashamed in front of her, because the cost of casually buying a small perfume was his own for several months. Living expenses.

And this huge gap in family background makes Fan Fei stay away from Ding Shichen. Even if his affection for Ding Shichen occasionally gushed out in his heart, he tried his best to get rid of it.

In the final analysis, this is still a kind of inferiority complex - although Fan Fei is a top student envied by his classmates, he is still a little inferior because of his family situation. After all, "youth, rich and handsome" are the three magic weapons for picking up girls, while Fan Fei, who is not handsome, is so poor that he is only young...

There is some inferiority in the relationship between men and women because of family background problems, which may also be a common problem faced by most rural children. Poor boys and rich girls love each other regardless of the gap between the rich and the poor. This is often a plot that can only be seen in movies or novels, but in reality it is very rare. Just like now, few urban girls are willing to marry young farmers who plough and feed in the countryside. As for those children who can go out of the countryside by studying and don't become migrant workers, it depends on their own creation. But generally speaking, this kind of inferiority complex will at least affect them for a long time. Until an affectionate urban girl walks into his life and lets rural children completely eliminate this inferiority complex in a huge sense of achievement, this bitter youth will find its own position and fly again.

Fan Fei is no exception. As a rural child struggling for food and clothing, at first, when he entered the county's high school, he always had a little envy and jealousy about the well-off urban people. This is because the food and clothing, well-off and other things he strives to pursue are no longer rare for urban children. How much It's a tragedy. Because of this, Fan Fei has a little inferiority complex. He always feels that he is almost not as good as the people in the city in terms of vision, academic performance, family background, etc.

Because of the faculty in primary school and junior high school, even the simplest Mandarin, Fan Fei does not have the standard for children in the city, let alone speak the same spoken English as Zhao Lirong's "London accent" English. Therefore, in the first of high school, Fan Fei rarely even took the initiative to raise his hand to answer questions.

Therefore, when he first entered Wuzhao County No. 1 Middle School, Fan Fei deliberately kept his distance from other classmates with his strange self-esteem. He was not too close to them, but he was afraid that they would find his weaknesses. Even the small matter of inviting each other to dinner was rejected by Fan Fei, because at that time, he could hardly afford to buy a meal. Even if you can earn a little money by working later, it will be remitted to your family immediately.

In fact, this is a common phenomenon. In a class, those children who usually do not speak enthusiastically and do not take the initiative to make friends are often those from the countryside, because making friends with urban children means treating each other and means RMB, which is exactly what they lack. .

In this way, various circles will be formed in the class. Children from the countryside usually play together, and children in the city will naturally form another circle. Their life circle is obviously much better than that of rural children, and their consumption concept and consumption ability are also incompatible.

Over the decades of reform and opening up, cities have become richer and richer, and rural areas have become poorer, which is an indisputable fact. Therefore, many rural children with good grades have given up college and turned to migrant workers, just because their families can't pay expensive tuition fees, which is a tragedy of the times.

Although some capable people in rural areas can make a living by contracting orchards, growing medicinal herbs, pig farms and so on, they are still in the minority. Most farmers still live an embarrassing life of relying on the sky to eat and eating in an acre of land, which makes them unable to support the normal consumption of their children. So when the children in the city sing with the microphone in the KTV private room, most of the boarding rural children can only roar in the public bathroom, "He said that in the wind and rain, what is this pain"...

There are not many rural children in the class, only about ten, accounting for only one-fifth. It is also an alternative and vulnerable group, and Fan Fei is one of them.

Fortunately, this situation was quickly changed. When Fan Fei successfully developed his potential with self-hypnosis, he greatly improved his academic performance, even surpassing the vast majority of urban people, which gradually gained some confidence. However, the problem of his origin has been bothering him. Although he has good grades, it should be a matter of time before he goes to get a job in college and carp Yuelongmen. The villagers have long regarded him as an urban person, but in the eyes of the people in the city, Fan Fei is still just a countryman, and may always be. Because he is always reluctant to buy a dress for more than 100 yuan, and he is one of the few students in the class who still don't have a mobile phone, a typical poor scholar.

So when he heard what Ding Shichen just said, Fan Fei's heart was indeed a little shocked and moved, but he still threw down the inexplicable words, expressed his position with the sentence "self-esteem is more precious than life", and then turned away.

Naturally, there is a reason for this statement - in that eavesdropped conversation, Fan Fei has known the truth that Aunt Feng is willing to keep herself for another year: that is because Ding Shichen took 12,000 to Aunt Feng as a salary for Fan Fei, let Aunt Feng continue to hire Fan Fei for a year, and told Aunt Feng not to do this matter. Tell Fan Fei.

Aunt Feng originally refused to ask for this money, saying that she could hire Fan Fei to work for another year, and she could fully afford the money. Dante Shichen thought that this had increased the burden on Aunt Feng and refused. In the end, Aunt Feng couldn't resist Ding Shichen's persistent plea and did not want to obstruct the little beauty's heart for Fan Fei, so she had no choice but to accept the money.

twelve thousand, one thousand a month, the same as the original, no more than one point, no more than one piece, extra effort.

Ding Shichen even agreed with Aunt Feng that if Fan Fei asked for a raise, Aunt Feng would have to pay as much as he wanted. The money was also paid by Ding Shichen. Perhaps it was because of this that Han Long just wanted to retain Fan Fei with a monthly salary of 2,000 yuan.

Ding Shichen knew that Fan Fei's self-esteem was very high, so he deliberately helped him make money in this hidden way, so that he would not be used by the underworld or delayed his study because he went to another job.

Migrant workers don't have much self-esteem. They can do dirty work for the reward of dozens of yuan. This is helplessness and is forced by life. In Ding Shichen's mind, although Fan Fei is also working in the hall, he is completely different from migrant workers. He is just working and studying, and he has a good future. He belongs to a typical future phoenix man, so Ding Shichen always treats Fan Fei as a city person. After Fan Fei refused her way to help borrow money, she carefully maintained his self-esteem by using the way of saving the country by stuffing money to Aunt Feng, and was grateful to Fan Fei, who knew the truth.

But perhaps it is because the person who did this is Ding Shichen, the girl he has a good impression on, that Fan Fei can't accept her kindness.

He has his own pride.

This is like some boys who are bankrupt in entrepreneurship. They can beg all over the street, but they will never go to the door of their first lover to ask for help, let her see the most embarrassing moment of her life, and then accept the charity that will make her aggrieved for a lifetime.

So Fan Fei left the Longfeng Restaurant, went to a seemingly unreliable debt collection company, and went to the adventurous life of licking blood.

Although this is a very difficult decision, he has no hesitation.

He is still young. Even if he goes the wrong way, he still has time to walk again.

Because he is young, he is frivolous.