The furthest distance in the world. The whole book is complete

My name is Fang Ningyuan.

When her smile touched my soul, I finally realized that I had fallen in love with the kind and smiling girl next door. When did this happen? I can't say either. I thought, maybe when she smiled at me for the first time, I accidentally lost my heart in her smile...

She is the daughter of my landlord - two years older than me, sweet, lovely, kind and cheerful, the most beautiful girl I have ever seen... I always thought that meeting her was the luckiest thing in my life - even now, I have no doubt about it.

I have a broken family. I don't know the reason why my parents got married. All I know is that since I was sensible, I have been used to their quarrels.

Of course, a child who grew up in the quarrels of his parents will not be happy, so I seldom laugh, and my personality is also a little taciturn - from childhood to adulthood, teachers and classmates said that I was very lonely and discord, and I think they were right.

Maybe it was because of fate. After my parents divorced, I stubbornly insisted on living alone - so I moved next door to her house, so I met the only woman in the world that made me fall in love.

That year, I was 17 years old.

I think that at the beginning, my feelings about her can't be called love. At most, it's just a kind of love - like her to smile at me, like her to call me Brother Ningyuan, like her pestering me to ask me math questions, like the faint fragrance from her... I just like it for a long time and suddenly becomes "love".

On the contrary to me, she likes to laugh, and she looks very beautiful when she smiles - brilliant, innocent, and from the heart. Every time she smiles at me, I have a feeling of heartbeat... Under her kind smile, I often feel sorry for myself, so I try my best to make myself excellent-- I have heard her say several times that she hopes to enter the gate of "Peking University" one day, so "Peking University" has become the goal of my efforts.

I studied very hard and studied very hard. I thought it could narrow the distance between me and her. However, when I got the "Beijing University" admission notice, I found that she had fallen in love with a boy called "Breaking the Wave" - when she blushed and told me that she was in love, I was stunned. Wooden chicken.

I didn't think so before, but at that moment, when I heard her call me "Brother Ningyuan", the word "Brother" was so harsh.

Brother? In her heart, am I just a "brother"?

I feel like a mute who has been slapped twice but has unspeakable suffering - in my parents' quarrels, I learned what "pain" is, and at this moment, I understand what "heartache" is.

Since she met the boy named Bolang, she has become happier day by day - just looking at her who is getting happier and happier. While I am relieved, I can't control my heartache... However, she suddenly found me one day and told me that her "keratitis" recurred a few years ago and was in danger of blindness. ......

Then, she begged me to play a play with her. She said she didn't want to drag down the boy called Breaking the Wave. She said she wanted him to forget him - so, she asked me to pretend to be her boyfriend...

I couldn't refuse any of her requests, and I finally agreed - so I saw the waves.

At the seaside, I witnessed her abandoned love, the pain in the chest of the boy named Broken Waves - and the tears she shed when she broke the waves and left...

I found that I, who was next to her, could do nothing. I could only lend my shoulder to her, so that she, who could no longer see clearly, cried bitterly.

I helped her all the way to meet the waves - due to the recurrence of "keratitis", her eyes have been blurred and can't see anything, so she can only wear a pair of sunglasses and let me do her eyes...

Since then, I have never seen her smile again. The warm smile that used to infect others can no longer be found on her face - I know, not because I'm worried about the disease of my eyes, but because of the person called "Breaking the Waves"...

Originally, I thought that maybe after she broke up with the broken wave, I would have the opportunity to replace the broken wave. Originally, I thought that maybe I would stay by her side, take care of her with all my heart, and try my best to comfort her, and she would be happy... But I was wrong, and I sadly found that I couldn't help her fight for her broken heart- Because her heart lacks the last piece of jigsaw puzzle, the name of that jigsaw puzzle is broken waves...

I decided to find the waves and bring him back to her side... He may not be able to cure her eyes, but I believe that if he is by her side, at least her heart will be complete...

Sure enough, she gradually returned to her previous happiness, but there was always a haze that would climb on her face - although she tried her best not to let others find out. I know that she is worried about her eyes. I know, she is afraid of the dark...

Even if I make myself blind, I won't blind her. I know that her only chance of recovery is a corneal transplant, but the lack of "corner" makes her unsuffic. When I saw my bright eyes in the mirror, I made a decision.

I went to her attending doctor, Dr. Zhang, and begged him to let me donate my cornea to her, but he told me that it was impossible, because the state clearly stipulates that the cornea cannot be donated in live - unless the eye is blind and the cornea is still intact...

When I went to see Dr. Zhang for the second time, he finally agreed to my request and agreed to donate my cornea to her - because I blinded my left eye.

Dr. Zhang looked at me like looking at a monster. He asked me what should I do if I stabbed randomly and damaged my cornea and my eyes were blind again? I told him, it doesn't matter. I still have an eye that I can stab again...

What makes me gratified is that her operation was very successful. It is said that it won't take long to see the world again... But I had to leave - first, I didn't want her to see me now, so I was sad, and second, the long leave I had previously asked for her to go to school was almost used up...

I moved away and moved to a place far away from her - in the future, she doesn't need me anymore, the blind "brother" of me. What she needs is the last piece of her heart, the jigsaw puzzle that can make her face full of smile - the boy named Broken Waves...

After her eyes got better, I encountered a broken wave. It was a chance encounter on the bus - after he knew that my left eye was blind, he seemed to think of something. After I got out of the car, he leaned out of the window and asked me if I had donated the "corner" to her. I didn't answer him. Just smile - it's already important to be uneasy...

Shi Yun, a poet once said that the furthest distance in the world is not the ends of the earth, but I am by your side, and you don't know that I love you... However, when you understand that loving you by your side can't make you happy, I think the most important thing to do is to push you to a position that can make you happy... ...

I will collect all my love, and you, as long as you are happy...