Chapter 178: You don't understand love at all

Seeing Zichu's silence, the expression on Jun Yuchen's face faded a little. He sighed and said to Zichu, "I know that I once concealed my identity from you and cheated you with my mother. Or, in your heart, it is difficult to forgive me. But... Ha, now I know that God's will to fool people is really unexplainable. I can only say sorry to you. I'm sorry that I did that to you. Don't worry, if you want to leave the capital, I will try my best to keep them safe.

After saying that, he saw that Zichu still didn't say anything, so he gently put down her hand. Then he turned around and said hoarsely, "I'm going to get off the boat at the dock in front of me. Zichu, take care..."

Hearing what he said, he actually wanted to leave. Zichu finally said unbearably, "Jun Yuchen!"

"What's wrong? I..."

Before Jun Yuchen finished his words, he turned around and was slapped and slapped by Zichu.

"Bang!" After a crisp sound, Jun Yuchen reached out and held Zichu's palm. His eyes were sad and full of pain. He only heard him say to her sadly, "I know I'm not good enough. I know it's wrong for me to deceive you before. But do you know how important I look at you in my heart! I can do anything to please you. I want to see you laugh, make you happy, and want you not to be bullied by anyone... Zichu, even if our acquaintance is just a mistake in your eyes, I want to tell you that you are the most regretless mistake in my life.

After saying that, he kissed uncontrollably. Zichu resisted his invasion at first, but later, his familiar and fragrant breath knocked open the door of her memory bit by bit through the entanglement between his lips and tongue.

There are cyan memories of that night, and the little bits and pieces of the two got along with each other. The first memory of love he once gave her rolled into her heart like a river.

So that later, but when Jun Yuchen tried to press her down on the bed, she did not resist. It was not until the hot place of his lower body approached her softness that she suddenly woke up, broke away from his hug, and shouted angrily, "Jun Yuchen, just like your big brother, you just want me to possess me! What on earth do you think of me? I'm a person, not the same thing, not at your mercy! You... I hate you!"

After saying that, she slapped him hard again. This time, Jun Yuchen did not grab her wrist or avoid it. After being slapped, he turned around with some embarrassment and punched the soft silk quilt.

Yes! I admit that there is nothing I can do when you are taken away by the eldest brother. Because I have Jun's blood, I can't disobey my father's will! But, do you know? At that moment, how much I hated myself, and I even resented that God should not have put me in the royal family. Otherwise, I can take you far away from the sky according to my own will! We can never come back, without worrying about worldly gossip or caring about anyone's joys and sorrows! But - I just can't! I hate myself. I hate that I want to do it but I can't do it. I love you in my heart, but I can only watch you being taken away by my eldest brother!"

Zichu turned over and sat up from **. She looked at Jun Yuchen coldly. I don't know why she was not very moved at this moment, because Jun Yuchen was a kind and filial man who was close to stupid and weak in her eyes.

Yes, he does have many advantages, and there is no denying that he is sincere and sincere to himself. However, once there is a conflict between the interests of himself and his parents and family, or even the high-ranking ruling class he represents, he will still choose to sacrifice himself.

Because, as he said, he has the blood of the Jun family, he can't go against his father's will, and he even has to worry about the identity of his eldest brother Jun Yu. Because he is the prince and the eldest brother, even if he steals the woman who originally belonged to him from his own hand, Jun Yuchen can only bear it. Even if he rescued her from Junyu's hand, he would use this sneaky way.

For the first time, she looked at Jun Yuchen with a nearly indifferent and sad look, which also hurt Jun Yuchen's heart. He knew that he could only lose her forever. Because her eyes were full of disappointment and ridicule.

Jun Yuchen finally turned his head and burst into tears.

"Let's go! I want to stay alone for a while, and Jun Yuchen, don't touch me again. Please forget everything in the past, forget that night, and forget that Song Zichu accidentally appeared in your life. As you said, everything is just a mistake. And I will forget you forever."

After Zichu finished speaking, she resolutely turned around. She didn't even want to look at his back and his figure again. Close your eyes, take a deep breath, tell yourself in your heart, forget all this, and forget all the clips about him and Junsultin. This life has just begun. She will never ruin this life given by God for such two men.

If all this is destined to be painful, then short-term pain is better than long pain. It will be better to have pain once!

After resting in the room for half an hour, Zichu changed his clothes, slightly changed his face, and then walked to the deck of the painting.

She plans to take a good look at the ship and then decide where to go.

Under the leadership of Mingyan, she quickly got a general idea of the whole ship. This is a three-storey luxury painting boat. Although its scale is not as luxurious and gorgeous as the palace painting boat, it is also full of vermilion green tiles, bead curtains, and carved columns and pavilions.

The whole painting boat is divided into three floors. At the bottom is the place where slurry and handymen go in and out. There are 16 upper rooms on the middle floor. The top floor is made of a semi-open inner concave design. When you go out, there is an open platform railing for standing on it for sightseeing.

After seeing the captain at the helm, Zichu roughly learned that Qinzhou took about five or six days to travel from the capital to the largest nearby city.

If you walk and stop along the road and enjoy the scenery, it will take longer. The rent of this painting is 300 taels of silver a day, and the daily expenses are simply a day's worth of money. It costs at least 2,000 silver for a trip. Ordinary people naturally dare not ask.

After the complete boat, she came to the platform of the boat and saw two wisteria on the flower bench, with a purple curtain and a sunshade round cover on it for VIPs to sit on.

Zichu looked at the beautiful scenery around him and thought that it was better to calm down and think about the way to go in the future, so he sat down on the lounge chair.

Because it is midsummer, the rising sky seems to be sprinkled with pearl fluorescent powder on the surface of the water. The sun is as golden and sparkling, and the water and mountains along the coast cast shadows in it.

There were cyan birds cutting through the clouds, and groups of ink spots sprinkled on the white silk. A "chirp" sound passed down from the sky.

I felt a little dizzy by the sun, and Zichu simply covered his eyes with his hands. She looked through the cracks of her fingers and raised her eyebrows and said, "This Jinjiang River is really magnificent. The great rivers and mountains are all in her chest. What a smooth expression! No wonder even kites yearn for the infinite world outside and don't want to be controlled by others.

As soon as her words fell, she heard Jun Yuchen behind her say quietly, "Everyone knows that the sky is let the birds fly, and the sea is wide and the fish jumps. However, some people are born involuntarily. Even if you think about it, you still have to be bound by fate. Zichu, I know that you are a person who wants freedom, so I will do my best and let you get what you want. Unfortunately, I don't have this blessing to accompany you. Therefore, thousands of words can only be turned into one sentence. I have defeated you in this life. Anyway, please don't hate me. Because being hated by the people you love is an insoluble torture.

Zichu thought quietly, and finally shook his head and said, "I just spoke too much. In fact, I shouldn't hate you. Because hating a person means that I can't forget his existence in my life, so if I want to forget you, I can only choose to let go of everything in the past. What's more, in fact, you are not sorry for me. You are just a poor person. Jun Yuchen, people like you don't deserve my love, let alone love.

As if stabbed by her words, Jun Yuchen stood there fixedly. In the cold wind, his figure seemed to tremble slightly. Then, he tried to say, "Zichu, is there only such a way of dialogue between us? You didn't do this before, you used to..."

Zichu interrupted him and said briefly and decisively, "Yujiu, whom I knew before, is a handsome teenager who is gentle, cute, simple and even a little scoundrel. At that time, I was willing to help you and even take the risk of stealing the day for you, because I felt that you could still feel love and warmth. I can see that you really followed me because you liked me a little at that time. But what about now? When your real identity was in front of me, and when I got into the imperial power struggle between you and your eldest brother, do you think you are still the same as before? In the Zichen Hall, when I was taken away by your eldest brother, you were in pain and I was embarrassed. But who can change this situation? Jun Yuchen, I'm not those simple and easy-to-coax little girls at 16 or 17 years old. I can even tell you bluntly that I'm not really Song Zichu. I'm deeply scheme. I won't be easily confused by the so-called feelings of men and women. I know how to choose. Because I know very well what I want. Therefore, Jun Yuchen, if you still want to get together with me, please don't say anything. Let's forget the world and preserve a rare peace for the past! I really don't want to talk to you in a sasive tone.