159 Give up

Housekeeper Qin's work efficiency was very high, and he soon sent me a large package of soft. The so-called "soft" is the silver tickets I earned from my "business" before, a lot of them. These silver tickets were all confiscated when I was caught by Yin Zhen. I thought all my "business" was in vain, and I was heartbroken about it, but I didn't expect that he would return all to me now.

There are also some rewards I received before, as well as the treasures and jewelry he gave me, including the black pearl I got at the New Year's Eve banquet, and the jade pendant he gave me, which is said to have been worn by Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty. Another one was stolen by me, and then he didn't take back the dagger with emeralds and a Western watch at the end of the handle. When I fled, I put this dagger in my bag and carried it with me, which shows my love for it. It is not only a self-defense weapon, but also can be used to see the time. It is not only beautiful, but also very practical.

Yin Zhen can think of giving it to me, which shows that he is spending time with me. But he enthusiastically implemented the agreement, meticulously followed the March period, and coldly let me go. I made the final decision for the hesitant me.

I don't understand what kind of feelings he has for me. Maybe as he said, his concern for me is just for the sake of my child's mother.

Xiao He silently helped me pack my bags. She put the clothes into different packages. The small clothes and coats were separated. The particularly expensive jewelry and general jewelry were packed in two different boxes, and the silver ticket and the bits of silver were stored in different packages...

Xiaohe has always been careful. Every time he put something, he will let me know so that it is easy to find when I use it.

She didn't sigh, but I could see the sigh in her eyes. She doesn't understand why Yin Zhen and I are fine in the morning. Why are we separated in the afternoon? Before Yin Zhen went out in the morning, he still held me in my ear and joked, which made me blush. It happened to be seen by Xiao He, and she retreated with a sneak smile at that time.

I can't explain it to her, because I don't even understand it myself. Maybe only Yinzhen can speak clearly, but after he said those words to me, he left the house and never came back.

Is he hiding from me?

I asked Mam Yang to take the two children to my room. I'm leaving tomorrow. Now every minute and every second I get along with them is precious to me. I don't want to lose this last opportunity to get close to them. I'm leaving tomorrow. I don't know if I can see them again in my lifetime.

Xiaomi said endlessly as usual, while waving small hands, as if strengthening the effect of "language". Sometimes he giggles alone. This sexually optimistic child is always so likable, but I don't know if Xiaomi, who has lost his forehead, will maintain this optimistic and cheerful personality?

The rice didn't make a sound, and his black eyes kept turning around the faces of several people in the room. Me, Xiaohe, Mother Yang, and Xiaomi. Does he feel the abnormal emotions of the adults? He turned his head and stared at Xiaomi's behavior for a while, then fixed his eyes on my face. When he looked at me, his eyes were not as bright as usual. I tried to relax the expression on my face and smile at him, but I know that my smile at this time is not infectious.

I looked at them with good eyes, trying to deeply imprint their every action, every cry, and every expression in my mind.

Rice suddenly burst into tears, which is really rare for him. He seldom cries.

I held him in my arms and coaxed him softly, but he didn't mean to stop at all. Being brought by him, Xiaomi also cried. It's true that children are most easily infected by other people's emotions.

I hugged both of them tightly in my arms and rubbed their little faces with my cheeks. My eyes were also blurred and my face was wet. I couldn't tell whether it was their tears or my own.

The two children finally cried and fell asleep. I lay beside them, staring at their lovely sleeping faces, and didn't dare to close my eyes. Every snoring and every snoring of them made me obsessed.

Deep greed, sad and unbearable.

Rice was still frowning in my sleep, and I reached out and gently smoothed him. There were still tears in the corners of Xiaomi's eyes, and I gently wiped it off. The rice's body trembled slightly. Is it a dream? I hugged him in my arms and patted him to comfort him. Xiaomi's little hand broke out the quilt, and I slowly put it back...

I spent the middle of the night like this. I don't know when I couldn't help falling asleep.

When I woke up, the sky was already bright. I was sleepy, but I suddenly remembered that today was the day I left. Rice, millet! I reached out my hand to the side of my body and groped... empty!

I was so shocked that I suddenly opened my eyes. I fixedly stared at the empty bed. No, they were not by my side!

I shouted, and Xiao He ran in.

"What's the matter? Master?"

"What about them? What about rice and millet? I asked in panic.

Xiao He lowered his head and whispered, "The ninth master asked someone to send the two little masters into the palace early in the morning, saying that he would stay with Princess Yi for a period of time."

Ah...

Rice, millet!

How can it be? How can you not let me see it for the last time? Is the fate of our mother and son so shallow?

I stroked the two Mickey Mouse plush toys designed by Mickey and Minnie, which I personally designed for rice millet, and burst into tears.

Yinzhen, do you hate me for leaving, so you punish me in this way so that I can't even see the last side of the child?

This punishment is so heavy that it makes me more heartbroken than any punishment you have imposed on me in the past!

I asked Xiaohe to go out, and I was stroking the child's cot, the sheepskin collar for swimming, the bedbell, the rattle...

I looked around everything in the room, and my thoughts drifted far away.

Qin Daoran's voice came from outside the door. He told me that the car was ready to start at any time.

Let's go. Everything here no longer belongs to me. Forget it, forget them all! Afternoon sunshine, children's laughter, warm look, ambiguous ear grinding...

The road out of the house is usually very long, and I almost walk impatiently, but today it is so short. One is not very good (to be continued, if you want to know what will happen, please log in., there are more chapters, support the author, support the genuine reading!)

The car with c eyes is parked in front of the house. I turned around step by step and walked out of the gate of the Nine Brother's Mansion, and finally sat up.

The car turned to the back door of the house and stopped, and Shang Yu stood in front of the car.

He is thinner, but his face is more handsome. His eyes, like a clear spring, staring at him gracefully, with a low and warm voice, swaying like a fairy voice.

"Let's go together? My cousin doesn't want to leave me!"

In the occasional bumpy car, Shang Yu sat opposite me and stared at me silently. With his company, it was a comfort to me, but the faint panic became more and more obvious as the car drifted away from the ninth brother's house. I only have to hold the two small clothes of rice and millet that I picked up when I went out. The eyes are gradually filled with water vapor.

The car is out of the gate, and not far ahead is the famous Taoran Pavilion in the southern suburbs of the capital. People in the capital are here to see off. After this, they are out of the boundaries of the capital.

Looking back at the tall gate, upstairs, the straight figures of the soldiers guarding the city are getting smaller and smaller, and finally there is only a dark blue shadow left.

In the blurred eyes of tears, it seemed to be a very handsome figure. As they became smaller and smaller, it seemed to become a small figure of rice and millet. They were looking at their foreheads leaving them from afar. There seemed to be the cry of rice and millet in my ears again, and the cry was hoarse, which made my heartbroken and tears rithe.

"Go back, don't go!" Shang Yu from the opposite side finally made a sound.

Go back? Yin Zhen took the initiative to let me go, and arranged everything so actively. Can he go back at this moment?

I held the clothes of rice and millet and said silently.

"Master Jiu, in fact, I don't want you to leave. He cares about you very much!" Shang Yu said slowly and said word by word. He seemed to speak very hard.

I raised my head and shook it again. He won't care about me!

"He went to drink with me yesterday. He told me to let you go, and he said that he couldn't keep your heart. Even if he kept you, he would lose his taste. He asked me to stay with you and take care of you all the way. He said that he was worried that you were alone. He, accompanied by rice and millet in his life, is enough to find your shadow on them..."

My tears burst out like a flood.

"... A man has tears. If a man shed tears for a woman, he must fall in love to the tip of his heart. Last night, he burst into tears..."

"Stop it, stop it!" I was hoarse and unable to cry.

He stopped, and the carriage immediately calmed down. Only my sob seemed so abrupt.

Suddenly, Shang Yu flirted with the curtain and said angrily to the outside, "It seems that he is still reluctant to let you go. This guy who goes back on his will!"

Huh? Who is he talking about? I looked out as he could see. In the peerless and independent Taoran Pavilion, a long figure holding two babies stood alone.

In the blurred eyes of tears, I can't see the man's face clearly, but I know that it is him, the man who hides my heart - Yin Zhen.

Before the carriage stopped, I rushed down. My feet were numb, but I didn't care about this. I swayed and rushed to the father and son, leaving Shang Yu's cry behind me.

The people in the pavilion stood still, and only the rice and millet shouted happily. I rushed into the pavilion desperately and wanted to hug the father and son, but they staggered on the steps and fell at Yin Zhen's feet.

I hugged Yin Zhen's leg and sobbed, "Master, Taoer doesn't want to leave. Taoer can't leave rice and millet, and Taoer can't leave..."

"No way to go? Is it inseparable from rice and millet? Unexpectedly, his cold voice came from his head. According to our agreement, after giving birth, it has nothing to do with you and the child. From now on, we will take the Yangguan Road, and we will take our single-plank bridge..."

"Master, Taoer can't be separated. Not only rice and millet, but also Taoer can't be separated." He interrupted him eagerly and showed him his heart.

I raised my tearful eyes and looked at him hopefully, hoping that he could make a sound and let me stay.

Silence, a century of silence. Just when I thought he wouldn't open his mouth, he said, "Master, I want to leave you!"

Is it? What is he talking about? Why is it different from what Shang Yu just said?

"Yes, you heard it right. I'm going to leave you! Liu Chuntao, as soon as you entered the house, I wanted to leave my master. You never regard this place as your own home, but use my ninth brother's mansion as a cover to steal all the royal palaces in the capital. You use my lord's love for you, explore my lord's treasure secret room, and wait for the opportunity to rob my lord's house. No matter how much I spoil you and accommodate you, you have never thought of

"... After being captured by the master, the master has been holding back his anger, saving you from prison, and trying to help you escape the fate of being beheaded, but you have no feelings for the master's painstaking and want to escape again and again. You only saw that my grandfather hurt you. Why didn't you see how you hurt your grandfather fiercely? You always thought that you couldn't live without you, so you didn't take your sincerity seriously. The baby has been born, and you still want to leave! It's you who threw your true heart under your feet and trampled on it wantonly. You, I'm sorry, my lord..."

? Am I like this?

I listened to Yin Zhen's complaint in surprise. With his words, I recalled the kindness and resentment between the two of us.

In the past, I only cared about my freedom and pain, but I never thought about it. Because he has always forced me to stay, and because he has always been so strong, I never thought that Yin Zhen would be sad and lost. I always thought that being as strong as him would not be very painful in my heart. Even if it is a little unsatisfactory, he will soon find it for himself. Those deep pains that make people hurt into the bone marrow will have nothing to do with him.

But I ignored that Yin Zhen's strength is only superficial.

He also had a tough and cold heart, but it has been softened by me. I peeled off its hard shell, revealing the softest part inside. The soft heart can't help tingling and stinging. It's broken!

"... You are a ruthless woman. Your heart is cold and hard. No matter how I treat you, I can't empathize you. Therefore, I decided to give up on you and forget you. If it hadn't been for the two children crying and wanting to see you today, I wouldn't have come to see you for the last time. You'd better go! I want you to leave!" He paused for a moment, and then said the last two words were so shocking and suffocating!

I,

I hurt him!

I hurt him!

He doesn't want to see me again. He is driving me away. He will never forgive me again!

What should I do? What should I do?

I looked at him stupidly, speechless, and didn't know what to do.

He stepped back and said, "I have said everything I have to say, and the child has seen you. You and I have lost our fate, and we will go our separate ways. From now on, there will be no future!"

He turned around, and the silver-gray corner of the robe spiraled an elegant arc in front of me and moved out of the pavilion.