Chapter 171 The bitterness in the heart of the stars

When Xingchen was still at home, their family urged him to get married quickly, but at that time, he was unwilling to be restrained, so he refused to get married.

Of course, another very important reason is that he had not met a woman who could move him at that time. In his hometown, women seem to be just decorated like vases. Every day, they have nothing to do except their makeup or clothes.

But when he came to Qingshi Town, he found that the women here were more plain and real than the women in his hometown.

Although he still did not meet a woman who was enough to make him move, when he met Ziyi, he felt that maybe the hope of finding a woman who could make him move could be achieved. However, at that time, Ziyi was still too small, and he was already too big, so he had to My hopes are pinned to other women.

And it was also because of this transfer that he began to pay attention to the women around Ziyi. The first thing he saw was Mo Zhu, who always smiled calmly but was very kind. She seemed to regard Ziyi and their family as the whole of her life. She was always carefully maintaining it and seemed to want to give Ziyi is a happy family.

Such a woman, to be honest, actually makes Xingchen appreciate a little, but if it comes to heartbeat, it is still a little worse, so Xingchen has to transfer the target again.

This time, his eyes have come to Qingya.

Qingya is a woman who can't even see through the stars. When she first saw Qingya's alienation from him, Xingchen felt a little incredible. Not to mention that he was the only parent official hundreds of miles away, even he was not. In the face of such a "handsome man" like him, Qingya should not look like that. Thinking of this, Xingchen had already developed some interest in Qingya at that time.

But when he learned about Qingya's situation, he suppressed his inner interest for no other reason. What an excellent man Zi Wenkong is. Xingchen has heard of it for a long time. Even if he is proud of him, he can't deny that compared with Zi Wenkong, he is still a little inferior in some aspects. No wonder Qingya's face was so indifferent when she saw him.

And when he saw Qingya again, it was at their dining table. At that moment, Qingya's true love for Ziyi made Xingchen slightly moved. He also came out of a happy family. Later, he never went back for some reasons, but this did not prevent him from missing his mother.

My mother has always loved him very much and has never said a heavy word to him. Even when her father wants to punish him, she has a face of maintenance and heartache. In the face of such a mother, Xingchen knew from an early age that when he grew up, he must protect his mother well, but... Unfortunately... When he had the ability to protect his mother, his mother had left him first. In the face of such a fact, Xingchen's heart was very painful.

He couldn't wait to kneel in front of his mother's grave forever, as she deeply apologized, but the fact did not allow him to do so, so he could only stay away from his hometown and the city. When he came here, he thought that after coming here, he could gradually dilute his inner feelings for his mother. Missing, diluting the guilt in his heart.

But he was wrong...

When he saw the interaction between Ziyi and Qingya, he knew that his yearning and guilt for his mother had not decreased at all. Instead, it became deeper and deeper. Looking at Ziyi, Xingchen would almost remember his mother and the days he had spent with his mother, but the tree wanted to be quiet and the wind would not stop, and his son wanted to raise him. After all, he still can't save the biggest regret in his life.

Therefore, whenever Xingchen sees Ziyi's sweet smile, a deep envy will emerge in Xingchen's heart. Although he will not be jealous of such a child as Ziyi, Xingchen has a different emotion in his heart for Qingya.

Although he has met Qingya many times, Xingchen is the person who can understand Qingya's thoughts the most.

It can't be said that Xingchen is too conceited. He is a very careful and cautious person. In the face of Qingya, although he will be slightly distracted for a moment, from Ziyi's words and deeds and Mo Zhu's behavior, Xingchen can still see that Qingya, a woman, is absolutely the strongest and most in the world. Fragile heart.

She can give her children the most selfless and greatest love like all mothers in the world who love her children, but she can also show the deepest heartfelt hurt when facing the yearning for her husband like the most vulnerable woman in the world.

In the face of such a woman, it is impossible not to be moved, but at that time, there were too many obstacles between them, so that the words in Xingchen's heart could not be said. Until now, when Qingya is about to be forced to marry, the impulse in Xingchen's heart can't be suppressed.

Xingchen knew that Qingya's heart was always her husband, Zi Wenkong. She could not fall in love with him, but he still wanted to have a try. He wanted to hold Qingya's jade-like hands, looked at her watery eyes, and asked gently, "Are you willing to grow old with me?"

It's just... can he really do this?

The stars looked at the dark night and suddenly felt a little sad.

Zi has 100% trust in him. Xingchen doesn't want to break this trust, but if he gets together with her mother, will he still trust him as he is now? I'm not sure about the stars.

Ziyi is a very independent girl. Her intelligence, her perseverance, and even her changelessness are rare in the world, but now she is saddened by her mother's marriage. She is a girl with the deepest feelings and best heart. Although sometimes, she is indeed a little decisive, but If she is not cruel to the enemy, she will give the enemy a chance to hurt her relatives.

So in the face of Ziyi's approach, Xingchen has always been very supportive.

But now, if... she suddenly proposed to marry her mother at this time, what would she think? He will think of himself as a disciple who tries to approach her mother. She will think of herself as the worst villain in the world. If it really comes to that time, will the trust of his intimacy with Ziyi be separated because of his behavior?

No! He can't take this risk.

Xingchen said so in his heart, but Qingya's frown appeared in his heart again, thinking about her sadness and her Wan'er smile, Xingchen felt that his heart was burning.

It is not the first time he has begun to think about his marriage. Since he realized the warmth of Ziyi's family, he has begun to think about his marriage.

For so many years, he has gone from the east of the country to the west and from the north to the south. Now he finally meets a woman who can move him in this town. He really doesn't want to give up and can't give up.

The heart is the most wonderful thing in the world. When it is happy, it can make you happy to do anything, but when it is unhappy, it can destroy anything in your life and turn everything into a tragedy.

And that's what Xingchen is thinking about now.

Qingya is a woman who can't even understand it, and it is precisely because she doesn't understand, or understand, that the stars are moved and can't extricate themselves. Once he really struggled to give up, but in the end he could only end up in failure. In the days of eating at Ziyi's house, Xingchen has thought countless times whether Qingya would like to take a look at him more.

If she is willing, will she put aside everything, be desperate, and express all her feelings? Even if you hurt Ziyi, won't you hesitate to say it?

Unfortunately, Qingya has never been elegant. She just looked at him faintly and watched him fight with Ziyi, but she didn't stop looking at him once. He once also thought about whether there was a real fate between himself and Qingya? But whenever he thinks so, his heart hurts so much that he can't breathe.

So later, he simply refused to think so and simply left this possibility behind him. How much he hoped that Qingya liked him as much as he did, and wanted to live with him for a lifetime like him, but this was obviously impossible.

For so many years, since he met Ziyi, he has secretly liked her for so many years, but for so many years, her eyes have not even stopped on him once. Every time she just talked to him respectfully, as if she didn't want to go over it at all, and every time Xingchen saw her estrangement and the hidden wounds in her eyes.

He wanted to pour her into his arms. Unfortunately, it's a pity that every time they met, they could only end in silence. In the end, they still haven't taken any step until this moment.

Thinking of this, Xingchen's eyebrows have frowned tightly. He really doesn't want to. He really doesn't want to see Qingya leave his side in pain and throw himself into the arms of other men, but what can he do? Qingya doesn't like him, so how can she be willing to follow him? And if Qingya doesn't want to follow him? How can he stop her from leaving his side and throwing herself into the arms of others?