Chapter 9

Chapter 9

This evening, Zhang Shiya did not start with tears. Maybe she found the long-lost warmth. Maybe she will never cry silently in the dark again.

At night, the two people lying in ** couldn't sleep.

In the eyes of others, I am a perfect person, but only I know that I am not perfect at all. I lack what others have, which is called love. Since I was a child, my father has been so busy that I don't go home. My mother only knows how to enjoy it every day. When the two of them finally get home, they only quarrel. I can't see their love for me. They will only give me more and more money, but money does not represent their love! I thought I was not good enough. I began to study hard. I didn't finish second. I began to dance and sing. I won so many awards, but I didn't get a compliment from them. Every day, I hope that they will end their war and care about me. They don't know that I am lonely to be served by more than a dozen servants alone. Finally, there was no quarrel at home. I killed my mother with my waywardness! When I saw my mother's body, I held my mother's body without body temperature. I knew that I felt the warmth. I used to have warmth, but I didn't like my mother to hug me, so I didn't feel it. How sorry I am to my mother! Dad hasn't seen him go home since his mother left. I know that in other places, he and another woman have their own home. All he gives me is the increasing number on the bank check. I want to see him is to go to the company, and only when he needs to show off my excellent daughter. At the moment my mother died, no one loved me anymore. I don't have friends. People around me hate me, maybe because of my identity and background, maybe because of my appearance, maybe because... Many people find trouble for me and say things that hurt me. I only have indifference and escape. I only have myself.

However, I met Song Chengbin. He said that he liked me. He was very handsome. Every girl liked him. He was excellent. I know that his family is no worse than me. The only difference is that he has love. His parents love him very much, and even servants like him and love him. But I dare not respond to his love. I'm afraid that I will hurt him if I don't love him. Indifference has become my habit. I don't want him to work too hard to warm me. He is so sunny and warm. I dare not accept him. I'm afraid that one day he will be like my father, then I will lose this hard-won warmth, and I still bear it. It's better to live coldly than to suffer.

Song Chengbin, forgive me, I'm not ready for you to break into my life.

————Zhang Shiya

I never lack love, and I also have the ability to love others, but she is different. She lacks someone who loves her. She doesn't have a mother, and her father doesn't care about her. She is afraid to love, and she is afraid of being hurt.

When she began to choose a seat on the first day, I fell in love with her. I longed for her to sit next to me and looked at her from time to time. In the end, she did not choose me, but sat behind me. I never understood her choice. Later, I knew that she liked the sky, and that seat could see a larger area. Sky, she said that only the sky understands her, which shows how lonely she is. She has no friends and is always alone. The next day when she saw her, she was in danger. The threat of bullying by several girls was not as good as those gangsters. In case something happened to her, she could only bear it alone. She didn't even have a person to talk to. She cried so sadly. She was really scared. She was so simple that she was afraid she had never encountered such a danger. She is eager to be protected, and she is still seeking comfort in her dream.

In fact, I've always been worried that she can't sleep well and sleeps lightly. I knew she got up, but I found that I was so shy and continued to pretend to sleep. I was afraid that I would get close to her and kiss her. Humph, I already kissed her at night. When you wake up, you will let me get close. I can't have that. Silly, only when you are quiet can I get close to you. You are a thorny rose, arming yourself so that others can't get close to you. I deliberately took you to the couple's street to buy clothes. I haven't been there at all. I just heard about it. I saw you choose clothes for me. Although it's still so cold and without temperature, I'm still very happy. You are a girl with high taste. I like clothes very much.

Looking at your foodie on S Street, I know how cute you are. I didn't expect that you would like to eat snacks as a young lady. You left your identity as a city spokesperson and played freely, regardless of the eyes of others. You also have a cheerful and lively side.

I'm sorry that in order to keep a joke, you accompanied me until my feet were swollen. When I saw your feet, I really hurt more than you. I'm afraid you haven't suffered this kind of pain. It's all my fault. I shouldn't take you to hang out with you for a few more minutes. I can't bear to let you go home early. I know there is no warmth in your home. But when night falls, I still want to send you back. I really love you and want to give you warmth.

Also, it was Wang Feifei who bothered you that day. Because your arrival took her edge, she wants to revenge on you. Don't worry, don't be afraid. With me, I will protect you. She will no longer appear in Shensga City.

Zhang Shiya, I'm waiting for you to accept me, I'm waiting for you...

————song Chengbin