Chapter 25 8

"It's not good." She refused if she didn't want to.

"Why?" Qin Qing's eyes darkened. She doesn't look shy, as if she really wants to refuse him.

Her emotions can't deceive people. She likes him, right? Since you like it, why can't you marry him?

"I don't want to marry." She is very serious, "And you can't get married. Maybe you will know later."

"I want the answer now." His expression was much more serious, "Is it because I think I'm poor and not worthy of you?"

"I have never had such a thought." Seeing the injury on his face, Jinglian's heart also followed the ashes. I really can't marry anyone... I can't marry anyone, not just you."

"Why on earth?" Qin Qing was a little anxious.

"I..." Jinglian almost blurted out that she was not a human. It took a lot of effort to suppress the impulse and took a deep breath and said, "Isn't it good for us to be like this?"

"It's not good." Qin Qing said, "But if you still don't want to get married, I'll wait for you. Five years and ten years, you will always want to get married. Isn't it?"

She choked.

Why is he so stubborn? Five years? Who knows if she will stay with him for so long, and who knows if he can really wait for her for so long?

He is not young. People with a slightly better family have become fathers, and he doesn't even have a family.

If five or ten years and he is still waiting for her, won't she lose his life?

"Don't wait for me." She said, "It's useless to wait. I can't marry anyone."

Qin Qing didn't understand why she said that she couldn't marry anyone. How can an ordinary girl not get married? Or does she really think he is not worthy of her?

Born in poverty, he has encountered many ups and downs on his way to grow up. In fact, he is quite lack of confidence. He feels that Jinglian may not want to marry because of his poor background, which inevitably makes him feel a little more inferior.

He laughed at himself and said, "Well, I know."

The smile, like a needle peneting into Jinglian's heart, was so painful.

"I'm going to write." Qin Qing turned to the desk. Jinglian looked at his lonely figure, and the pain in her chest was a little deeper.

Isn't it too much for her to do this?

Jinglian couldn't help asking herself. Qin Qing has always treated her well... Every time she sees him alone, she is also a little distressed.

But is this love?

This is just an ordinary friendship. She can't marry him because of this friendship. Maybe one day she will go back to heaven. Isn't that going to leave him and make him lonely?

Instead of being decisive at that time, it's better to go now.

She stepped out of Shengyuanzhai, and the sun outside was bright and dazzling.

She felt as confused as when she first came down to earth. If she wants to leave, where can she go? Without Qin Qing, her partner, she will start to be lonely again.

But she is too selfish to stay with him just to stay alone.

Qin Qing searched the house several times inside and outside, but he never found Jinglian. He couldn't help but have a bad feeling.

Could it scare her because of those words during the day?

He couldn't help but be annoyed. He has always been calm, why doesn't he know how to make a detour? His stubbornness may bother her and feel that he is forcing her to marry.

He smiled bitterly.

Did she run away from home because she was afraid?

He is more afraid of not finding her than her refusing to marry him! A single woman is alone. What if something happens?

Qin Qing left her house anxiously and rushed to the street, trying to find her figure.

Streets and alleys pass by, but the capital is so big that it's not easy to find someone to talk about?

It was almost dawn. When he returned to her residence, he found the faint light. A high-hanging heart finally settled.

I didn't leave.

It turned out that he was just thinking nonsense.

With a desolate smile, Qin Qing suddenly felt a little frustrated. He took a deep look at her room, turned around, dragged his tired body step by step towards home.

Jinglian, who was standing at the window, had seen him from afar. Seeing him standing in front of his door for a few glances and then leaving, it was inexplicable.

He is also angry, isn't he?

It must be angry, so it's out of the door.

Oh... Is it true that he can only be happy if he marries him? Can't you continue to be as friendly and friendly as a friend?

For several days in a row, Qin Qing did not come.

Jinglian is uncomfortable and a little flustered. What if he really ignores her in the future? Are they going to be strangers?

Or should she really leave here?

Questions are like entangled twists, which makes her confused. I was upset, and the door panel was so sharp that it was snapped.

Jinglian opened the door, and there stood a little girl from Shengyuanzhai, Juyan.

She looks pale, "So you're at home!" Then why don't you go to see Brother Qin?"

"I don't look at him. It has nothing to do with you, right?"

As soon as Juyan heard this, she jumped up: "I really don't know how good or not. How can Brother Qin like a woman like you! Ungrateful and conscienceless!"

Jinglian was scolded so much that she couldn't touch the north. Ungrateful? She didn't! She has a conscience! She blinked: "Where is the fire lit, Miss Juyan? Come to me to vent?"

"What's coming here to vent!" Juyan sneered, "If Brother Qin hadn't been calling you during his illness, I wouldn't have come!"

In illness? Jinglian** caught this word. What's wrong with him?"

"I'm sick!" Juyan was not angry, "Because I've been looking for you all night, I've been tired all night, and I'm cold again!"

Jinglian's chest was suffocating. That night, it turned out that he... he looked for her all night?

"Does he matter?"

It doesn't matter. The doctor said that the disease was very suspense. In addition, his original physique was weak. No matter how serious it is, he may..."

Jinglian interrupted her: "Nonsense! Which quack doctor made such a conclusion and pulled him out to kill him!"

"..." Ju Yan glanced at her strangely, "Don't think about the doctor, but go to see Brother Qin!"

Jinglian ran out of her with a swd, regardless of Juyan shouting "Wait for me" in the back. She was lucky and ran to Shengyuanzhai at a very fast speed.

Sometimes Qin Qing built a bed at the attic of Shengyuanzhai because he thought it was a long way to live, and occasionally spent the night. When Jinglian ran into the attic, he was sleeping quietly.

The dark green quilt made his face pale.

Jinglian's heart twitches and moves.

That's a strange feeling, and she has never had it.

She looked at his quiet face with only one thought: mortals are very weak.

Their lives are vulnerable, and they may easily die. What's more, Qin Qing, who was born in poverty, has been ill and has no money to cure since he was a child, and he has fallen into many diseases at a young age.

The chest seems to be filled with lead, and the breathing is heavy.

Why did he look for her all night? Didn't she come home in the middle of the night?

Yes, she wanted to simply leave the capital before, but on the way, she suddenly felt that she had nowhere to go, and she and Qin Qing were not old enough to die, so she walked and came back.

He looked for her all night and was afraid that she would leave, right?

Fool...

What does he have to do and what does he suffer?

Qin Qing moved. Jinglian quickly pulled up his quilt and stared at his shaking eyelashes, thinking that he was going to wake up.

But, no. He leaned over and continued to sleep in front of her.

She can see his face better. The handsome man, no wonder the women around Yuanzhai, all favor him.

Why does he only like her?

Is Yue Lao tied the wrong red rope?

When she has a chance to return to heaven in the future, she must go to question him.

With no warning, Qin Qing opened his eyes.

Jinglian looked at him. He sat up and grabbed Jinglian's hand excitedly: "Aren't you left? Didn't you leave?"

"I haven't left. Where are you going?" Jinglian smiled modestly and pressed him down. "I haven't seen you for a few days. Why are you so sick?"

Qin Qing just looked at her and didn't say anything.

Jinglian was uncomfortable looking at me, "Why are you looking at me like this?"

"No." Qin Qing pulled the corners of his lips and said, "Forget it, just come back - in fact, you really don't have to hide somewhere else. If you really annoy me, I won't bother you in the future.

"I think so much. When will I annoy you?"

"Really?"

"Hmm." Jinglian patted his head like a puppy, "Have a good rest and let's play together when you get better."

The smile on the corners of Qin Qing's lips was a little bitter. She still positions him as a playmate... Maybe she really has no love for him. He thinks too much.

The room is silent.

When they are together, they always laugh, and it is rare to be so cold and stiff. Jinglian couldn't help feeling uneasy. She was about to say something, but Qin Qing said, "Okay, let's play together when I'm ready."

His smile is helpless, and Jinglian can see through it at a glance. I feel a little guilty and a little embarrassed. She asked herself, was it really wrong?

Or she shouldn't be greedy for this warmth. This didn't belong to her... Maybe her ambiguous attitude made him fall deeper and deeper.

After walking out of Shengyuanzhai, she walked on the street at a loss and was at a loss. Leaving, she didn't know where to go; leaving, she didn't know how to go with Qin Qing.

Maybe she was wrong at the beginning. She shouldn't go to the prosperous city. She should find a rural place, absorb the essence of the sun and the moon, practice hard, don't care about the world, and wait for the day when she can return to heaven.

But now, it's too late to say anything.

People come and go on the street, and everyone has nothing to do with her. With a strange and indifferent face, no one showed a trace of expression to her. Looking at the mask-like faces, she remembered Qin Qing.

Qin Qing's kindness to her has never been given to her by others.

Around the streets, the scenery passing in front of him gradually became sparse. Jinglian found that her feet were a little sore. She looked up at a teahouse in front of her. She wanted to find a place to sit and raise her feet to go in.