chapter 91 so, so

Grandpa heard my words this time and was happy. He simply put the crutch aside and patted his thigh. "This little girl, how do you know my surname is Hua?! Grandpa told you, Grandpa, I was not bad when I was young. My boss wanted to follow me because he saw me good-looking, and secretly wrote a lot of letters to me, hahaha... That girl is really happy for me."

That girl... Grandpa, how can you be so happy? After seventy-five years, you can also call her a girl intimately. What if you can't be together in your next life? Grandpa, you won't forget her, right? Even if you live or die, you won't forget it. You will remember it in the next life. You will always remember it and be together all the time. Infinite reincarnation has always been.

"You said in Xinli that you played in Li Mansion on the fifth day of the first lunar month. Did she go?" I looked at Grandpa's happy face when he mentioned his wife and asked tentatively.

"She's here. It's not the wrong time." Grandpa didn't ask me how to know and answered me directly. He looked at the light above his head and slowly raised his cheeks. I knew that he began to recall. After a long time, whether it was good or not was not important. The light looked particularly pale in the dim corridor, shining a layer of blue light on Grandpa's wrinkled face, but I can feel that he is happy. As long as something touches her bits and pieces, he will have something to do with happiness.

Do you know that I also want such a person to appear in life. As long as I think of him, I can let go of my smile. Our memory has been entangled for longer than seventy-five years, eighty-five years, ninety-five years...

"Her family found that our relationship was a little close, which was not appropriate. Haha, I said that she was still a young lady at that time, and I was just a actor with both parents, and I had to raise my younger brother and sister. This is the most taboo for large families. She didn't come until the end of the play. I thought she wouldn't come, and I couldn't help but be disappointed. I removed my makeup behind the stage, like when we first met, I slowly wiped off the oil paint on my face little by little, and finally a man appeared behind the mirror. That man is the Kuomintang officer who invited me to play. I call him Mr. Li. Little girl, if you guess what happened in the back, how about I introduce my grandson to you as your boyfriend? Grandpa said that there was a mysterious smile and asked me with a toothless mouth.

Grandpa, you are too retarded. Mr. Li must have asked you to go with him. He will give you money, right? But I have a boyfriend and can't accept your grandson, so I pretend that I don't know what happened to make you have a little sense of accomplishment, okay?

I gently wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes and looked at the remaining drops of water on my fingers, which really reflected the thickness of my age. Through looking at it, it was eternal.

"I don't know. Maybe I want to be friends with you?"

Grandpa was so happy to hear my answer. He rubbed his trousers with his fingers and said, "Hahaha... You don't know. It seems that my grandson can't be your boyfriend. In fact, Mr. Li has a fancy to me and wants me to be with him. He hugged me from behind, and when I didn't expect it, I saw her bumping in from the outside, sweating all over her head.

"She misunderstood. How did you explain it to her?"

"I didn't explain it to her. I'd rather she misunderstand me. In fact, I have always known that I am not worthy of her, but I can't stop my feelings. She wrote so many letters to me that I put them back in an envelope, but I threw them in my own drawer. I didn't have the courage to send them to her, and I didn't even dare to read them. Finally, I decided to reply to her, because I could imagine what she would look like when she was disappointed. I didn't want to let her be sad, so I invited her to watch the play. In fact, so far, I don't know whether my decision is right or wrong. You said that if she did it right, but if she hadn't been with me, her eyes would not have been blind, and she would have a better life. If you say you have done something wrong again, I can guarantee that she will never meet anyone who loves her so much in her life. When she saw me and Mr. Li, she blushed and came over angrily and slapped me in the face and left. The back when she left made me feel that she would not come back again, we would never have a chance to meet again, and the fate was over, but I didn't expect to play tricks. Little girl, do you believe in fate?

"Grandpa, you may not know that what I believe most is fate. As you said, it's really abominable. It tortured me again and again, throwing me into a terrible situation first, then giving me a light, and then withdrawing the light, and my world was dark again. I also thought that the person who really won't see me again after I said goodbye still appeared in my life as usual, interspersed with my life. Later, I actually played an important role, and I would also sigh and play tricks. In the end, I don't know whether to believe it or not. I even doubted myself. Grandpa, I think you often suspect that your decision back then was a very boring thing. When everything is a fore to be a fore, why bother with those unnecessary problems? Maybe your decision is right or wrong. We can't easily evaluate it after too long. Everything has come to this day. At least one thing I can be sure that you and she are absolutely happy. You might as well think that this is the case, so that's it. Even if you feel guilty that she hurts, it's better to think that you give the happiest. Everything, that's all."

Yes, I don't believe in fate now. I gave everything to time to judge right and wrong. Later, I found that the answer given by time was very official and there was no right or wrong. It's right and wrong, and it's still true.

"What happened later..."

"Later, she came to me. I was surprised that she came to me. At that time, I was worried about the money for my brother and sister's private school. Mr. Li said that as long as I can be with him, he will promise me any conditions. What I lack most is money. On the contrary, what he lacks most is money. At that time, I was thinking about whether to... Just sell yourself. Unexpectedly, she rushed straight to my house, pushed open the dilapidated wooden door of my house and pointed at me and asked me loudly if I would like to elope with her. I can still remember what she looked like at that time. She was wearing an awkward cheongsam, and her hair was not as hot as when I first saw her, but obedient. How can I forget that? Not to mention the past seventy-five years, even in the past one hundred and seventy-five years, I will never forget 1,750 years. You know, I was only 16 years old at that time, 16 years old was so young, and there was a difference in that era. I don't know what a girl means by saying this. I don't want to shake my head at her. I can't give her a good one, so I won't drag her down to find a better one. At that time, I regretted meeting her and talking to her to reply to her. I would rather it all be my dream. When I woke up, I didn't have her in my life."

Grandpa, it turns out that you are the same as me. The person you want to meet is dreaming. As long as you wake up, everything will be fine. But the person you met was right, and what I met was... Disappeared. Grandpa, do you know what's gone? You can't see him when he is alive. As soon as you see him, you feel like you are about to suffocate to death. But he can't die. If he dies, you will die with him. He can only disappear. Far away will let you know that he is still alive and happy, but you can't witness it with your own eyes.

Grandpa, time has witnessed you, but who will witness me and who?

"I shook my head, and she squatted down in front of me and cried. The bracelets and earrings on the hairpin on her hair were all thrown to the ground by her. She threw them and scolded me in English. Although I didn't understand, I knew it was definitely not a good word. I was at a loss at that time, and my sister made a wrong move about the environment at that time and space, but now I look back and find that it was my sister's unintentional act that contributed to us at the beginning. My sister ran to her, picked up the hairpin she threw on the ground and handed it to me. When she saw my hand taking the hairpin handed over by her sister, she stood up from the ground and pointed to me that I had received her love token and would definitely marry her. I said with a smile, but I asked her to wait for a year. I have to spend a year to make myself more responsible, and I want to give her a better life. And everything about the disconnection and Mr. Li. In fact, up to now, my son and grandson are extremely envious of our old couple. They got married in their first love until now, haha... Unlike those little bastards, they only know divorce, marriage and divorce all day long. The grandson only knows how to fall in love and break up... Why are we so lucky? It really took me a year to settle down my brother and sister, separated from Mr. Li, and saved some silver dollars to marry her, but I was still kicked out by her father. I knelt in front of her house for a day and a night, and she also cried and hanged herself at home, but her brainless father still refused to marry her to me..."

What should I do? What should you do if you lose her?

"She ran out of the wall over the house. I was still kneeling at the door. It was raining. I was surprised when I saw her coming out. We left hand in hand. We ran wildly in the heavy rain. In fact, no one knew where to go and when to stop. At that time, I was so naive that I thought that love could have everything. We ran and ran until we were exhausted and our whole body was wet before we found an inn to rest. We slept in the same room. He said to me that if the raw rice was cooked, his father would definitely agree, and then... Hahaha, I'm embarrassed. I don't care. The old face is open-minded. This is probably the last time in my life that I will tell the story of my first love to others. In the past seventy-five years, I really don't want to tell many people that my son and grandson are tired of hearing it, but I will still say it. Because I'm afraid that I will forget it after I die. They don't remember, and no one remembers. It's as if we didn't exist. In the next life, I should be able to remember her when I listen to the story, or I still want to be with her, get married and have children and grow old together. If everyone forgets that no one will tell others, I'm afraid I can't remember. Little girl, you will always remember, right? You will help grandpa tell the story to others, right?