Chapter 6 I can't afford to love

After returning from the hospital, Grandma Xia Yufeng looked much better. Without psychological pressure, the entanglement has also opened, and naturally it will get better quickly.

Talking to grandma every day, taking care of her, and seeing her getting better and better every day, Xia Yufeng is also very satisfied, and this period is also a rare and easy period.

On Saturday, Xia Yufeng's sister Xia Ling came back, so Xia Yufeng asked her sister to accompany her grandmother and went to the county to find A Qin

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How about it? How are you doing at school? Are you and Xiaofei doing well? Xia Yufeng and A Qin sat side by side in Xiangshan Park.

"It's okay, but you know that I've always been an iron buddy. Without you, I won't be much better. Xiaofei, I separated from her. It can be seen that A Qin's situation is not good. When Xia Yufeng came back at the station that day, he felt a little different when he saw him. A Qin has always been very open-minded and optimistic, rarely sad. Although he had a problem at that time, Xia Yufeng was not in the mood to ask at that time.

"What's wrong with you and Xiaofei?"

"You know Xiaofei's temper. I was not in a good mood after you left, so I was a little negligent to her. Slowly, we began to quarrel. Later, she was with Liu Xinlin, the next class," A Qin began to be silent.

"Brother, I'm sorry, it's all my fault..."

"Afeng, it's none of your business. It's okay, brother. I'm so handsome. There are many women. A Qin hurriedly interrupted.

"Oh, by the way, how's your grandmother's illness?"

"It's much better. The doctor said that as long as you relax your mind and take good care of yourself. After all, it's an old man. It's impossible to say that she can be good. I just want her to be healthy and safe.

"Now that your grandmother is getting better, what are you going to do?"

"I want to leave in a few days. I don't want to go to Beijing. Let's see if we can find a good job. Xia Yufeng has also been thinking about this problem these two days. He has been to Shenzhen, and the result... So he has rejected the decision to go south. Xia Yufeng, who has always been longing to go to Beijing, also wants to take this opportunity to go to Beijing.

"You should pay more attention outside, buddy. I will graduate in a year. You have to get along well, and then I will turn to you."

"Oi, let's talk about it later. Let's go and have a look.

Xia Yufeng and A Qin walked in a place where they thought they would never come back, and there was an indescribable feeling in their hearts. The two wandered around this small county for a long time. It was not until the sunset lengthen their figures that they put away their shadows and went home.

After dinner. Xia Yufeng sat in a daze in the yard, and Xia Qiming came over at this time.

"What are you thinking about? Do you want to leave?" After saying that, Xia Qiming handed a cigarette to Xia Yufeng.

"Yun, uncle, grandma is much better now. As long as you take good care of her, you will be fine. So I can't do anything to stay at home, but I still want to go out to work early. Xia Yufeng lit the cigarette and took a sip and said slowly.

"Ye�, that's fine. However, Feng, remember that the outside world is very complicated. You must be more careful and sincere to others, but you can't completely trust others, you know? And you must be upright, and it is better for others to betray you than others. In addition, you should pay more attention to your body outside. Just tell your uncle if you have any difficulties. Xia Qiming took a sip of smoke after saying that.

Xia Yufeng knew that Xia Qiming was very distressed. Xia Yufeng decided to go out to work and not study. Facing the decision of such an adult, Xia Qiming could not do anything more or change anything.

After a few words, Xia Qiming walked away. Xia Yufeng sat there alone, listening to the sound of frogs, and fell into meditation.

"Brother, I heard from Dad that you are leaving?" Xia Ling said and sat next to Xia Yufeng.

"Lingling, you are now a sophomore in high school. You have to study hard, especially English and mathematics. Your two subjects have not been very good. Use more snacks. Xia Yufeng looked at the beloved sister and said with concern.

"Brother, I know. In fact, I know you must have suffered a lot outside, but I can't help you. Oh, by the way, your girlfriend asked me to find you several times."

"My girlfriend, which one?"

"Do you have many? It's Guo Ni!" Xia Ling looked at Xia Yufeng with an expression of "you beg for a beating".

"How is she? What did you tell her?"

"She is studying in Changsha. She is fine. She seems to be a little thinner and more beautiful than before. I told her that you left home."

"Oh! Lingling, have you seen my iron box? Is that the red moon cake box? Speaking of Guo Ni, Xia Yufeng suddenly remembered that the box contained all the love memories of him and Guo Ni, and all the love letter photos were contained in it.

"Well, remember. I've collected the box for you. I didn't see yours. I'll get it for you now. After saying that, Xia Ling turned around and ran to get the box.

In a while, Xia Ling handed a red mooncake box to Xia Yufeng.

In the dim moonlight, Xia Yufeng held the box tightly in his arms and did not open it.

Nowadays, Xia Yufeng has no right to fight for anything. Even if it is a good memory, he dares not dare to recall it boldly, because he can no longer stand in that equal position. All the beauty, all the sweetness, he can only watch quietly like watching the sunset, allowing it to slide over his forehead, his body, to his feet...

Xia Yufeng never felt that a small box would be so heavy. Take a deep breath and gritted your teeth to open the box. There is a photo lying on the surface. In the photo, Guo Ni stands next to a sycamore tree, with a happy face and open arms, and the sunset on her shoulders reflects her more beautiful and happiness.

Xia Yufeng gently held the photo in his hand, and the bottom was full of colorful letters. Those letters not only record his love in flower season, but also evidence that he has been happy. Happiness is so important and necessary for Xia Yufeng now. People are like this. What they lose is always the most precious and worth remembering and possessing.

When he opened it, his heart ached every time he opened it, and those pictures echoed in his mind so clearly. Gradually, tears blurred my vision, and I don't know when a tear fell on the word "Guo Ni". When it was discovered, tears had blurred it. At this time, Xia Yufeng was thinking that maybe not only the name was really vague, but also his love for her.

Now Xia Yufeng can no longer love her, nor can he love anyone. He must put down all this and treat it indifferently, Xia Yufeng thought firmly.

The evening wind blew, and this firm idea began to drift away.

Go back to grandma's room. She has woken up.

"Grandma, how are you feeling?" Xia Yufeng sat next to her and asked.

"Ye�, it's okay. Fenger, you have been back for many days. Grandma can see that you are very conflicted. Grandma has recovered from her illness. Besides, with your aunts taking care of me, you can rest assured. Child, grandma just wants you not to hate grandma. Grandma is sorry for you and your mother. As Grandma spoke, tears fell one after another and hit Xia Yufeng's heart.

"Grandma, Fenger doesn't blame you, she doesn't blame you at all. Feng'er can't bear to part with you. Xia Yufeng cried. This was the first time she cried when she got home and shed tears without warning. As he shed tears, he helped his grandmother wipe her tears. This scene made Xia Ling next to her unable to help burst into tears.