Chapter 38 Laurent's Fear

It is necessary to choose a trustworthy person to come out, and it is not easy to complete the job just by relying on resumes and written documents.

Li read every resume carefully and did not let go of every word and character. He tried to understand those people through the words on the paper and small black and white photos.

After reading the thick resume, Li chose three people he thought were suitable. Of course, things could not be finished at this point. He had to find a time to visit the three captains in person.

At this moment, the door was opened again. Li raised his head and saw Luo Lang swaying into the hall. His clothes were messy and his blonde hair was as messy as a bird's nest. Before Luo Lang approached, Li smelled an oncoming smell of alcohol.

Li frowned: "Are you drunk?"

"No, hiccup..." Luo Lang burped, then took a long breath, and then recovered and said, "Drunk? I dare."

"Just leave your regimental commander like this and go to drink alone?" Li was very dissatisfied with this: "Don't you bring me some?"

"Aren't you going to work? Even if I give it to you, you can't drink it."

"Alas..." Li sighed. He was very unwilling, but there was nothing he could do. There were too many things to do during this period. Jacob arranged the schedule so full that he couldn't wait to break a second to use it. In this case, Li didn't have time to drink and enjoy it.

In his previous life, Li had a wide range of hobbies, but as a people of the flower-growing empire, his favorite is "wine and food". This point is rarely clearly felt by people living in the flower-growing empire, but when it comes to foreign countries, this can be clearly reflected. It's rude to say that the food culture of the "flower-growing empire" is at least 100 years ahead of the global culture of that world. It is difficult for people who are used to "flower-growing cauliflower" to get used to other diets. Li is like this. After waking up in this world, he has never eaten a decent meal. He has completely achieved the truth that "eating is just for living, and living is for the emperor".

And too much focus on pleasure will be regarded as a symbol of depravity. After all, Li's body has been cursed by the god in charge of joy and depravity, and the court has shown great interest in itself. At this time, Li has to be careful.

I hope that this situation will be better after leaving the center of the empire. At least I have the opportunity to enjoy delicious food without worrying about being caught and burned to death by crazy believers because of pleasure. Li thought so, and then he had a deep sympathy for Luo Lang in front of him, the poor young man. The results of the genetic examination have come out," Li said almost in a sad tone, "Your genes are basically the same. You are not expected to have a rejection reaction and you can undergo surgery."

"Really?" Luo Lang jumped up in surprise and then walked around in front of Li excitedly. "I can't believe that I can pass so smoothly. Haha, I know I can do it. That's great!"

"I couldn't believe it at first. After all, few of the Star Warriors used to be a prince." Generally speaking, the source of interstellar warriors comes from the wild world, where the barbarians are more simple in character. Because they have been fighting against the cruel natural environment for a long time, their physique is also stronger than ordinary people. It's a miracle that you can pass, but do you really want to do it? To be honest, I think it's a little cruel for you to be a Star Warrior.

"Cruel? How come?"

"How come? You don't completely believe the propaganda agency of the empire, do you? In their mouth, the interstellar warriors are the angels that fall from the sky, and the Imperial Guard is the most heroic warriors. Our warriors will always march on the golden road, and we only get victory and honor along the way. These are all bullshit. The Imperial Guard is a pure cannon fodder army, and their soldiers are at the bottom of the food chain in the universe. And the members of our Star Marines are not human.

"All, all are not human?"

"Before becoming an interstellar warrior, you need to swear that in the oath you will give up all your life as a 'human'. After the oath, all the time in your subsequent life will fight to protect all mankind. You will become a perfect warrior. Of course, you will become stronger, but there are some aspects that they deliberately ignore. First of all, you will no longer feel fear after the transformation is completed. From a certain point of view, this kind of thing is terrible. As one of human emotions, your fear will be suppressed to a limit, when you have You won't feel that kind of thing in your lifetime. And skin color, hair color and so on will also be changed.

"Fear only makes people weak. This kind of thing is the best. And skin color and hair color is not a problem.

"Idiot, every emotion of a person is very important. Forget it, I can't tell you clearly," Li shook his head and continued, "Then there is another point that you will no longer need women after the transformation is completed."

"hiccup!" Luo Lang burped, and then stared at Li, as if he wanted to see if his officer was talking and laughing. After a long time, he asked in a little panic, "No, don't you need a woman anymore?" They will take me..." He made a cutting gesture on his crotch with his hand.

"Don't worry, I won't cast off you." Li smiled and said, "But you will become uninterested in that kind of thing. Of course, it's okay to want to do it, but it's not as interesting as before.

"Have you become sexually indifferent?"

"Although it is a little different from sexual indifference, the actual effect is not much worse." Although he knew that it was a little inhumane to do so, Li also understood that there was nothing he could do. For any army, "How to properly solve the physiological problems of male soldiers?" This headache is what officers need to face. In ancient Rome, officers advocated love between men, so that soldiers could help each other solve physiological problems, and improve their combat effectiveness on the battlefield by fighting side by side with their lovers. Although it is disgusting, it is undoubtedly a wonderful method. In other places, officers will call military prostitutes for soldiers, or simply allow civilians in times of war.

Of course, it can also rely on discipline to suppress, but as the ancient sages of the "flower-growing empire" said, it is also erotic. Appetite and men's physiological desire for women are human nature. Relying on discipline can only be suppressed for a while, and it is difficult to last.

For the interstellar warriors galloping between the stars, this problem becomes more complicated. The interstellar travel is often very long. Being in a cramped space for a long time is also a heavy burden for the human spirit. Pre-war tension, spiritual burden, suppressed nature, all these things Accumulation and fermentation after a period of time often make people lose their minds, and soldiers need channels to vent. But you can't take women to the universe, right?

So the simplest way is to weaken the desire of these soldiers for women, so that there is no problem.

"You must abandon all the pleasures and life of normal human beings, how about it? Can you accept it?"

Luo Lang gritted his teeth, nodded cruelly and said, "I can! I've decided that I'm going to be a member of the Star Marines. I'm leaving here. I'm going to fight.

"I really don't understand what you think. If you don't enjoy a good life, you have to abandon a comfortable life to fight," Li sighed. "It's not really to make your life more valuable, is it? You are a noble son."

Luo Lang looked around drunkenly, as if he was preparing for something. Then he came to Li's ear and whispered, "I'm afraid. I'm going to leave here. I'm afraid."

Li frowned and leaned back. He was not used to a man so close to him. "What are you afraid of?"

"I'm scared, so I dare not say it, but it's okay now," Laurent's voice is full of excitement. "But it's different now. I don't have to be afraid. I'm going to be a member of the Star Wars. Star Warriors are fearless. I'm going to leave this place and far away. Fight with all kinds of creatures, say what you want to say happily, and finally die happily on the battlefield. I want to stand up straight, not afraid of any fear, and become stronger!"

"Yes, the Star Warrior is fearless." Li nodded and said, "But what on earth are you afraid of?"

"Everything, everything here." After making an exaggerated gesture, Luo Lang left Li's side. He retreated, fell on the sofa and recited in a low voice in an aria: "Every breath is full of doubts. Every look at you has inquiry, and the streets and alleys are full of electronic eyes. Surveillance is everywhere. Even if I drink, I dare not get drunk, because no one can believe that whistleblowers and traitors fill the world, just for the meager reward. It's an invisible pressure. They are like ghosts. You can't see or touch them, but they do exist. They are on the thought, and almost no one dares to tell the truth.

"I don't quite understand. What the hell are you talking about?"

"The thought police, the people of the church, the people of the court, the people of the nuns, these people not only rule the country, but also try to rule people's minds. They are ideological policemen. Do you know that the phone line will be eavesdropped? No one knows how often the thought police are, or according to what line is arranged to receive someone, and they can only guess. It can even be imagined that they have been monitoring everyone from beginning to end. Anyway, whenever they are happy, as long as they are happy, they can connect to your line. You can only live under this assumption - from the fact that has become an instinctive habit, you have already lived like this, and you have been used to everything. He was stared at by a pair of hostile eyes, and every sentence was recorded for later review.

Li scratched his head. He had heard of this kind of thing in another world, but he had never seen it. "Is it so exaggerated?"

"Is it so exaggerated? Ha," Luo Lang sat up and said seriously, "You know what? I have a friend, a guy from a remote galaxy. He is a good guy. His family is very rich, generous and energetic, just like a fire. As a result, when he was drunk, he said something wrong.

"Oh, what did he say?"

Luo Lang trembled and said in a voice that made a horror story: "He said, 'The emperor created the universe. What a bullshit. Those women are crazy.' Ha, he was so crazy that he dared to say that in public. You can't imagine the scene at that time. It was simply terrible. The hot noise stopped in an instant. The laughter of the laughing person suddenly stopped, and the whispered person stopped talking. The friend who was singing also stopped, and the friends were stunned, and there was no one there. Dare to move, as if time had frozen at that moment, and then fear spread in this stagnant space. After that, everyone broke up like this. Since that time, I have been uneasy. I'm afraid, but I'm also lucky. I hope those people don't know about this. I sincerely hope my friends are fine.

Luo Lang looked at the floor in a daze, as if recalling the former friend. After a long time, he continued to say, "But they knew that three days later, my friend disappeared. No one knew where he had gone, and no one knew what had happened to him. He swished, no, even a voice. He didn't disappear from the world like this, and he just evaporated. After that, no one mentioned him again, and the party between friends was still happy. Everyone seemed to have forgotten this person, as if he had never appeared in this world. He just is gone without any trace.

"Obviously, someone has told the secret, those who are called friends, those who can frankly laugh and drink with me. Some of these people have betrayed and some have betrayed their friends. But I don't know who he is. Everyone is suspected. Anyone can be a whistleblower. Maybe the whistleblower is not just one person. Everyone may be a whistleblower. Perhaps the informer itself is not a betrayal, but a kind of loyalty to the empire, but I know in my heart that this is a betrayal, a shameless betrayal. There is a shameless, damn man who has the guilt of a traitor.

Li sighed and said nothing.

But Luo Lang did not end. Li's news seemed to provide him with a kind of protection. Something that pressed on his spirit disappeared like this. He was excited and said freely: "There is no trial, no regulations, not even arrest, nothing. They don't tell you what you can say, what you can't say; They don't tell you what you can do and what you can't do. It's like there is a transparent wall in the air. There is a power that can't be said. You can't see or touch it, but you can clearly feel it. Yes, everyone can clearly feel the existence of that power. The transparent wall won't stop you, but when you go over. That power will appear silently, and you will be evaporated by the world.

That is the invisible horror scattered in the air. This fear also exists in everyone's heart. It is a silent, hidden fear. Li understands that he doesn't need words for this kind of thing, he just needs to listen.

"But, God, I know what my friend said is right. He is not only a rich and generous man, but also an excellent and rigorous historian. Do you know? Recently, I always dreamed of him, dreaming that he said those meaningful and thought-provoking words to me. Until now, after careful consideration, I found out what an excellent person he was. He never lies. Most of what he said is the result of careful consideration. Even after he is drunk, he never talks nonsense. But even if he is nothing, we also know that the sentence is not true. 'The emperor is out, he is born in the world.' What the hell, do we really think we are fools?"

The emperor came out and gave birth to the world. This is a prayer commonly used by nuns, which roughly means that there is an emperor in the universe, and then there is a universe. If there is no emperor, then there is nothing in the universe.

Of course, his true meaning is that without an emperor, the universe would be nothing to us. Only after the emperor did human beings have this universe. But missionaries in many places prefer to use its literal meaning. They like to describe the emperor as an omnipotent creator in front of believers, and even the whole galaxy was created by the emperor.

"At some level, they don't need to make up delicate lies," Li sighed, "The truth is not important, because the bigger the lie, the greater their rights, and the greater the fear in people's hearts. But this is just a prayer. Your reaction is a little excessive.

"My overreaction? No, it's not too much at all. Although it's not big, it just shows their intention. Why do they repeat their prayers again and again? In countless repetitions, they first coax themselves, and then coax others. Different ideas will be unified, opposing ideas will disappear, and those who have reactionary ideas will be evaporated. I'm scared, I'm really scared! I don't want to be unified, let alone be evaporated. Sometimes I hope that I am really a fool, so that I can think about nothing, but I can't stop thinking. My thoughts are like wild horses running wild because of fear. My mind has committed a great crime, and I actually secretly agree with that guy's statement. What's more terrible is that the thought crime can't be hidden for a long time. You may be able to avoid it for a while or even for a few years, but sooner or later they will definitely catch you.

"Now you don't have to be afraid. Astart is fearless." Li patted Luo Lang on the shoulder and comforted him, "Have a good sleep. Go to Jacob tomorrow. He will take you to the early ceremony and surgery."

Luo Lang was steriled, and then relaxed and closed his eyes. "Yes, Astalt is fearless. I'm also a monk of Astalt." After a while, a slight snoring sounded on the sofa.