Chapter 29 Gradually
Kill the child... He suddenly felt confused. When everyone told him that it was Lan Sheng's child, he did lose his direction and became jealous. But after this storm, now that she is in front of him, he can no longer stand that heart. How can such a delicate person have the heart to make her bear so much!
On the way here, he completely calmed down. If he wanted to judge which was right or wrong in the whole thing, his sin was the deepest. It was his frivolity that caused the irreversible situation, and this relationship between him and her should not have happened. Bu Nuan has a straightforward temper. If you like him and love him, you will be desperate. She is 27 years old and has been in the officialdom for more than ten years. What kind of battle has not been experienced, but she has failed to resist her stubbornness.
was wrong at the beginning, so it went wrong step by step, getting deeper and deeper, and finally became a decline.
He always knew that she was an insecure child and only regretted not coming back to see her in the past two months. He has been gone for so long, even if there are letters, it is not enough to comfort her loneliness and panic. However, the government affairs in Hedong were really complicated and lengthy, clamping him like big pliers, which was extremely painful. One head of official business is piled up with mountains and seas, and the other head is concerned about her cold and warm safety. He couldn't wait to split himself in half and wanted to come back several times, but he was helpless. But if he can predict, even if he has messed up his errands, he is bound to put her first.
He knows that he has reached the extreme, and if he misses it again, it will be a lifetime.
He went to his son and held her shoulder. "It doesn't matter who it is. As long as it's in your belly, it's my child. How could I kill my own child?
The big eyes that were still frightened at the moment were suddenly full of tears, "Are you telling the truth?"
His heart contracted suddenly and ached, "bu Nuan, I have never lied in front of you."
Her tears flowed down, "So...what about Zhixian? Zhixian is also pregnant with your child. What are you going to do?
He was confused, "I haven't touched her. How could she be pregnant?"
After what he said, it seemed that there was no need to explain more, and the clouds dissipated in a few words. She stretched out her arms and said, "Yong Yu... you hug me! The child in my belly is yours, it's yours..."
He seemed to be in the clouds and fog, and he was like a head of wine. All kinds of flavors invaded him, and he quickly tasted the joys and sorrows. Sure enough, he was right. It was his child. He was ashamed because he was suspicious of too much interference. Bu Nuan's heart for him has not changed. As long as it is face to face, everything is so simple!
He warmly held her into his arms, kissed her forehead, tears fell on her hairpin, and swayed into her bun. He said, "Num, I'm sorry for making you suffer. I did something wrong, and I'm not sure about everything. I'm also hesitant and not confident. I'm just an ordinary person. Don't hate me, please forgive me."
"I forgive you." She immediately said, trembling for his lips, "I have never really hated you. I love you..."
All the bitterness is poured into a kiss, and love is like this, anxiety, temptation and hesitation. Constant suspicion and continuous proof. Ordinary people are still like this, not to mention taboo feelings that are untolerant of the secular world! Their love path is destined to be more bumpy and more than others.
He pressed her tightly into his chest and could feel the vibration through her clothes. The same frequency, the same helplessness and sorrow. The banging heartbeat filled the whole space, and the deep upper room was no longer empty. No thought, it's him and her everywhere. The two seemed to swell infinitely, stuffing the lonely midnight.
Her sleeves are very wide, her jacket faded, and her middle coat is light green. He stroked her wrist and climbed up his forearm, only feeling thin and weaker than when he left. He felt sorry for her and didn't give her a good day. He only said with shame, "I didn't do my duty..."
She pillowed on his shoulder and didn't want to separate from him. His hand withdrew, and she intersects his ten fingers, pulling him over her stomach. A shy whisper, "Here...our children."
He was flustered. Although the child was still in his mother's womb, it was enough to make him at a loss. He helped her lie down. The twisted willow waist was indeed fat, but it was beautiful no matter how she looked at it. He compared his hands and smiled with tears. His child, thanks to him, he still scolded him first! He was clumsy, stroked her stomach like a cat and dog, and muttered warmly, "Father also wants to say sorry to you. I was confused before, which made you and your mother suffer grievances together."
This scene is like a dream. His relationship with her nephew has completely ended, and from now on, he has a brand-new identity, the father and mother of the child. Six months ago, I fell into the reincarnation of my previous life. In retrospect, it was like a dream of Nanke! He raised his head and looked at her. She became more and more twisted and opened her eyes in a panic. He smiled and held her face and put his forehead on her forehead.
"I didn't expect it." He blinked, and his long eyelashes connected with her, "only twice..."
She blushed, but deliberately pretended to be stupid, "What only two times..."
He is not a thick-skinned person, so he is naturally embarrassed to speak too much. With a dry cough, he got up and went to the table to pour tea and asked her if she could have dinner. She sat up and couldn't walk down. She sat on the edge of the bed with her legs down and shouted at Pan's house in a straight voice.
After a while, he came in from the outside and wrapped his long coat in his mouth, "Here... Come on, what's the wife's order?" At a glance, he caught a glimpse of Rong Yu and said, "When did Lang Jun come here? Oh, I think I'm lost in sleep, but I didn't notice it!"
Bu Nuan was afraid that he would get angry because he didn't have any rules, so he hurriedly said, "Go and tell Mother Shan to prepare food. The prince hasn't eaten yet!"
The Pan family responded and went with his sleeves. Sure enough, he raised his eyebrows and turned around and said, "You just need two days to go back and ask the stew manager to pick two people back in the market."
"That..." She tested, "My predecessor..."
He replied with two words on his face, "No."
She sighed. He must have hated them so much. How could he ask them to serve her? She rubbed the tie on her skirt and didn't give up. "The newcomer doesn't use it."
"You don't have to say it." He lowered his eyes and said, "As for what they did in the Lan family today, I didn't take their lives to take advantage of them. Especially your wet nurse, who doesn't know the height of her eyebrows and eyes, makes her masterless and slaveless. Are you still thinking about her? Shall I make her talk nonsense in front of you again? You and I are already difficult enough. Can I survive with that shit-stiring stick? You stopped this idea as soon as possible, but if she is good, we won't get to this point.
Now that I think about it, Xiu is indeed too assertive. The things she did behind her back were enough to annoy her. But when I think about it again, I will be honest all my life. When I meet her relationship, I will probably be really in a panic. She is old and has different ideas from her. She was entrusted by her mother to weigh it over and over again, choosing the safest way for her. She only knew that it was for her good, but she didn't know how reluctant and painful she came.
"Don't hate her." She said, "We have different positions. Just because Luoyang's side recognized Lan Sheng, my grandfather and mother also praised him very much, and what the nurse did was to lie for me. She loves me. I know that you haven't heard from you for two months. She is more anxious than me. I'm always afraid that you will regret it and abandon it. After that, she had another body. She was worried that I would not be able to support the child alone in the future.
He looked more solemn when he heard this. "I wrote letters from time to time to ask the messenger in the army to send it directly to Chang'an. There is no need to pass the checkpoint. Why is there no news?
She was stunned. Although she was angry, her heart warmed up and muttered, "So you wrote to me, but I didn't receive it..."
He learned that the servant woman sent by Shen's house was in charge, so he didn't have to care about it. He expected to ask those people. Zhixian has lived in the Shen family for nearly two years, and she is familiar with the whole house. Those people were either greedy for money and asked her to buy them up, and the letter naturally came to her smoothly. She thought of another way to find someone who is good at copying and get a "knowing my wife", which is not a problem.
He sneered. Well, there are monsters in the general's mansion at present. If he doesn't ask, he begins to dance wildly. Even his letter dares to be deducted, who still pays attention to him? His last apology to Zhixian also disappeared with her ridiculous behavior. He didn't know why he had put up with her for so long. If he had sent her away early, it would not have caused such a big storm. If she comes back a step later, Bu Nuan will really marry into the Lan family.
He had no choice but to look at her. She sat on Hu** with a simple and innocent expression. He went to put her hand in the palm of his hand, "Tell me, can't you trust me like this?"
She began to flash, "I'm pregnant with a child and I'm mentally depressed. Sometimes when I wake up, I can't even tell where I am." After thinking about it, I added jealousy, "I often have nightmares and have some strange dreams. Dreams and reality are also indistinguishable.
He really has no experience in taking care of pregnant women. He is thinking about whether he has more white and heavy burdens, so he will think nonsense?
She glanced at him and said, "You only said me? How good are you? Why don't you listen to others and call yourself evil!"
He said, "I can't wait for your reply in Hedong, and I can't hold it. I suddenly heard that you were going to get married. I was almost crazy. My mind was in a pot of porridge, and I could not tell the truth from the false. After saying that, he laughed and said, "No matter how big trouble I encountered in the march, I have never been confused. I have never regarded state affairs as my vital interests. Once it concerns you, I will become an incompetent general.
The two said in a twirling story, each with its own reasons and difficulties. In the end, they looked at each other and smiled, and the bumps of more than two months were like the white smoke curling on the wick, blowing a breath and dispersed without a single soldier.
Mother Shan came in with a food box on the door and did not look up. She just looked at the dishes on the table. "Lang Jun worked hard all the way. I made several small dishes and warmed up a pot of wine, and Lang Jun made do with it. Tomorrow, the maidservant will go to the market and buy more New Year's goods. It's New Year's 30th, and our village is very lively this year!"
When she said it, she jumped up secretly. I feel that I am not young, and I really like the Spring Festival like a child, which is a little unreasonable. So he had a lazy smile on his face and answered half a beat slower.
Bu Nuan said, "This is very good."
Rong Yu sat at the table and raised his chopsticks and thought for a moment, "Change the lights on the door, prepare some New Year's money, and give them to the tenants with children nearby in the name of the steward of Zhuangzi." He thought about happy things and slowly raised the corners of his lips, "We also have children in Zhuangzi. Let's disperse some money and accumulate blessings for our little man."
M Mother Shan answered happily and bowed her head and said, "Lang Jun is rich and virtuous, and in the future, Xiaolang Jun must be rich and long. Lang Jun, take your time, and the maidservant prepares hot water. After taking a shower, I will sleep late with my wife tomorrow, and it's easy to have a rest.
The cloth warms my heart and my face is spicy. He didn't dare to look at him and said to Mother Shan, "You put down the mantle for me and prepare another room for Lang Jun!"
Before Mother Shan answered, Rong Yu said first, "No need, I'll rest here."