Chapter 12
The sunlight outside the window is still lazily scattered around the room. Those who have been crazy, or smooth, happy. Unhappy, with regretless years, just like the flowing sand that can't be grasped tightly in the palm of the hand. The dazzling youth from the east will eventually fall into the regrettable red sunset.
I don't want to have any attachment to the past. After all, there are all kinds of things that should be available now. It's not a pity. Very satisfied,
A week has passed. Yan Jiao still hasn't come back, and I still continue to write my novel. Sleep until you wake up naturally every day. Then I called Jiaojiao to tell her that she missed me deeply.
I called to order takeout. Stop busy thinking. Looking at the people coming and going on the roadside and the colorful neon lights, everyone in the city is so busy. Busy, even the stars don't want to come here to see them. But yes, after all, many people in this city don't need stars. What they need are diamonds and tall buildings.
Ding, the doorbell rang. It seems that my takeaway has arrived. When I opened the door, I saw that it was indeed my takeaway. When I paid the money to start eating, my mobile phone shouted uninformedly. I picked it up and saw that it was a strange number. I just pressed it off. Just put it down. The mobile phone rang again, and it was the same number. I had to put down my chopsticks and answer the phone.
"Hey"
"Hey, last..." The heart suddenly tightened. The voice over there was a little intoxicated. Atspiring. Just like his people.
"What's wrong with you?"
"Hey, are you the last one? Are you a friend of Lin Hao? He was drunk. Can you come and pick him up?"
"Hmm?...... Uh-huh. I'll go there now."
I didn't think about anything. He picked up my car keys and drove to the place he said.
I saw him on the roadside, and the people next to him supported him. He was a little staggering. It's a little unsteady. I stopped the car and walked quickly to him, and the people next to him saw me
"Are you the last one?"
"Yes"
"Then he will leave it to you. Can you take him back?"
"Hmm."
He just put him next to me, and then he was about to turn around and leave.
"Wait... How do you know my number?"
"Oh, it's Lin Hao. His mobile phone address book is locked. I don't have a password, and you are the only one who can make a quick call. I'll call you."
"Oh.... Well, then... Thank you,"
I turned my head and looked at him. He leaned against me slightly, leaning his head on my shoulder, and his expression was comfortable. It's like an unrivaled child. It's not so understandable.
In this posture, I slowly moved him to my car and drove back to my house.
Put him in my **. Put a towel washed in hot water on his forehead. I sat aside and looked at him. I reached out and stroked his face. But the moment he touched his face, it seemed to be burned by something. I suddenly pulled back my hand. He took a deep breath. A self-deprecating smile. I want to get up and leave. The corners of the clothes were pulled. I'll look back to see if he is awake. His hand held the corners of my clothes. He opened his eyes slightly and looked at me. Then slowly closed it, as if to confirm something.
"Don't go"
I pulled back the corners of my clothes hard. Tell yourself that you can't stop here. Let him wake up as soon as he sleeps.
I pulled back the corner of his clothes, and he stopped in the air empty-handed. He looked up at me. Suddenly, he stretched out his hand and grabbed my hand directly, pulled me back to the bedside and sat next to him. Then the corners of his mouth rose, and it seemed that he had exhausted his strength and lay weakly beside me. My hand still held my hand tightly. I pulled back my hand slightly, and he held it tighter. The sound is rapid, as if you want to catch something
"At the end, don't go. Sit here. Stay with me. Can't you?"
The voice is weak, like praying. Once upon a time, I begged him like this. I feel very sad. It's like being trapped by a fishing net. I can't get rid of it. It's like being pulled away the air around me, and I closed my eyes. Because something uncontrollably surged into my eyes and endured it. He still took a deep breath. Open your eyes and look at him. He saw that I didn't reply and didn't want to leave. He leaned slightly to the side. Lean your head on my lap like a child snuggled in his mother's arms. He took my hand and put it to his mouth. Breathing gradually calmed down and orderly. I looked down at him, such a scene. We were in the grass six years ago. I leaned against the tree. He lay on my feet and fell asleep slowly. Sleep peacefully. He said that when I was next to him, he could sleep soundly.
I didn't move. It's the same as six years. Watching him sleep in my arms,
I looked up and saw Jiao Jiao's photo on the wall. It's like doing something bad. I frowned. The teeth bit hard and made a little sound. What am I doing? Jiaojiao is not here, I'm betraying. My heart seemed to be crushed by an iron claw and splashed into many pieces, imprinting my betrayal of Jiaojiao. Printed with Jiaojiao's love for me. I still can't bear to wake up the person in my arms. The most printed things. What I'm doing now is shameless!
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My bloody left hand hung on my side, and a bloody snake slowly fell along the edge of the knife on the white porcelain ground beside me. I sat leaning against the wall. The door of the room opens. The expression on the friend's face was frightening and ferocious. Then tears were like a dropped pearl necklace, dripping on the ground one by one, and she took away the knife in my hand. I took a towel and tied my bleeding wrist. My eyes are empty and unnatural. It's like a dark pool where death has not seen life for a long time. It's like a dead puppet tied with a thread. At her mercy, she looked at me like this. Suddenly, he slapped me in the face as if he was provoked.
"You are stupid, hurt yourself like this!" The sound echoes around the room....
I seem to have been hurt. Looking into her eyes, tears fell like a dike and fell on the wrist wrapped in a towel. She hugged me with heartache.
I let her hold me and muttered in a low voice: "There is always such a person in this world. Give you a bag of arsenic, and you will also treat it as honey."
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There were people coming and going on the road. I sat in the car and watched him stand by the roadside. Behind him is his friend. In his arms, there is a woman who smiles delicately and wears avant-garde rebellion. The head rested on his shoulder. His hand rested on her waist, and the people in the car accompanied me to watch such a scene. Anger filled every corner of the car. They asked me. Do you want to go down? I'm so choked that I can't say a word. Heartache and suffocation. He just shook his head faintly,
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Dream. One by one, like a movie released, every scene has experienced suffocating heartache.
Finally, I couldn't bear to open my eyes. The sun couldn't find the direction and scattered the light everywhere casually, but it couldn't shine in my direction.
I raised my hand and touched my face. It's cold. The corners of the eyes are soaked. I looked down at Lin Hao, who was still sleeping. Day and night when I was with you, do you know how many days I have opened my eyes with the corners of my wet eyes in my sleep. Nightmare, you will always be my dream. I gently moved his head, which was still on his leg.
When my feet touched the floor, I fell to the ground because of numbness. Maybe the sound of my fall woke him up. He stretched out his waist and saw me fall to the ground
"Are you okay? Why are you so careless?"
"My foot is numb."
He was stunned. Maybe he remembered that he slept with my leg as a pillow last night. I lowered my head in embarrassment, then got out of bed, sat down in front of me, and gently pressed my feet for me. Such a scene. It has happened before. He said that it was the first time he massaged a girl's feet. I pulled my foot back slightly. He pressed my foot with his hand. Look up at me
"Don't move"
Realize that this action is too ambiguous. I pulled my foot back hard and stood up suddenly with the wall behind me
"Lin Hao, it's dawn. You should go." The voice is flat. Without emotion. I used to talk to him in this tone. He said that this tone was too cold.
He looked up at me with a look up position. Don't move. Then slowly stood up. Take the coat on the side of the bed and turn around and look at me
"I said, this tone is too cold. You shouldn't be like this to me."
"What should I say to you?"
"..."
After a silence, I turned around and walked out of the room, and he followed me out. Open the door through the living room and drop off the door.
Let's go
He stood behind me.
"What kind of relationship are we now"
"It doesn't matter"
"Not even a friend?"
"..... Yes, but it's just a friend."
"Ha ha, the two people who once loved each other have become friends." When he said this, his voice was faint, with dull sadness. It's like a cup of water dyed with color. The stream that flows through my heart.
"Love each other? Ha ha. Wrong. At that time, I was the only one I loved. I tried to be as calm as possible, and my voice trembled unnoticed by others
"Who is good to you and who has the intention to love you? You always see clearly, but only I, you can't see clearly."
I listened quietly and didn't say anything. He still stood behind me, and his voice came slowly, with trembling that should never belong to him
"In the past six years, I slept the most peacefully last night."
After saying that, the waist of his hand pulled me into his arms and put his chin on my shoulder. I was stiff and couldn't move, as if something was burning in my body, burning every nerve of my nerves.
"We have never been friends. In the past six years, I haven't missed you for a day. You are like poison. Bury it in my body."
After saying that, he let go of me, leaned over and put on his shoes, and then went straight out of the door. Watch his figure disappear into view. I suddenly closed the door as hard as revenge. The sound made the whole house tremble. I leaned against the door and sat down. The eyes are empty. Like in a dream.
I opened my mouth and muttered that I didn't know what to say. Time seemed to pass for a long time, and I heard the words I spit out in a trance
"arsenic"