Chapter 15

I'm like the road at night, quietly listening to the footsteps of memory.

-Tagore's Bird Collection

God created light on the first day, and darkness was nurtured in the light. It is described in this way at the beginning of the Genesis of the Bible. There is a similar emphasis on the relationship between light and darkness in different myths and legends in the world, which is one of the common human understanding.

Most people say that people who are not happy will be jealous, envious, and even hate those who are happier than those who are happy. Therefore, in the Bible, Cain killed Abel because of jealousy.

This statement is clearly recorded in the Bible. I have always believed in this statement. In my summer, I was broken by a crying girl who asked for forgiveness.

She said that I was spying on other people's happiness and laughing in the dark. I was not jealous or envious. I just found that this happiness used to be so familiar around me.

This is the last thing the prickly bird said to me in summer.

After hearing this, I felt that I couldn't say a word for a long time. The love in the world is not as simple as I thought. I didn't give the girl's request for forgiveness in the summer. I shook off her request and left without looking back.

This is the beginning of the last end of that summer.

Life is a wonderful thing. Although it is always in a hurry, after all, I have breathed the air of the same place and stepped on the land of the same place... Memories will always leave such a corner for us to remember that there were some people in our spare time. There were some things that tasted cold, warm, sour, sweet and bitter together with life. Even if it is covered with dust, it will become clear after a heavy rain.

The beginning of the matter was that after my sister learned the hatred of the prickly bird, I kept questioning my sister, "Sister, why did you do this?"

"Xia Shu, there are some things that are not as simple as you think." My sister wanted to say something but didn't say anything, "You won't know. It's complicated."

"I don't want to stop your explanation. You are an asshole who stole your friend's boyfriend." I shouted, "Why do you treat the prickly bird like this? She is also your friend. Get out of here... I don't have a sister like you."

My sister's eyes were slightly red, with tears hanging in her eyes, and she said in a trembling voice, "Xia Shu, you... You don't know anything."

"I don't want to know, and I don't need to know. You won't be my sister in the future. I don't have a sister like you."

Pup!

A loud slap in the face hit me, and blood flowed down the corners of my mouth.

"Okay, from now on, our sister and brother have nothing to do with each other in the future." The cold breath rolled in the bottom of my heart, and I looked coldly at my confused sister.

This is the second time my sister hit me. The first time was a slap for the thorn bird. This time it was to hit me. If I go out to slap the bird, this is the first time my sister has hit me.

When I was a child, my sister said to me that if anyone dares to bully you, my sister will beat him to death.

I said, but my sister is a girl and I am a boy. How can boys need the protection of girls?

My sister said, but you are my only brother.

As she said, my sister clenched her small fists, as if to tell me, did you see the sandbag-like fists?

My sister looked at her hand that hit me on the cheek incredulously. This is the second time, and I hit it for the second time.

The numb palms pierced his last strength and looked at me with tears on his face.

"I'm sorry."

"Get out of here." I shook away the hand of the bloody sister who wanted to wipe the corners of my mouth.

I rushed out of the house and left only empty space for my sister.

"Why is it like this? Am I wrong?" Xia Shu asked herself that it was unpredictable for things to this extent.

At the end of the first month of the summer vacation, I filled in the volunteer. I filled in the school far away, which is my current school, three cities away from my sister's school. This is my deliberate arrangement.

"Xia Shu, don't you want to fill in the same school as Xia Shu? Why did you change your mind?" My mother asked uneasily. I haven't said a word with my sister recently. Knowing that our mother saw the indifference between us, she was secretly worried.

"Mom, it's nothing." I comforted and said, "I just want to see this society."

My mother looked at her sister on the side of the dinner table, hoping to get an affirmative answer.

"Since my brother wants to see the outside world, then... Just let him go."

So, I filled in the far away schools in every column of the volunteer column. The most experienced school is also a city away from my sister's school.

During the summer vacation, we have been in a stalemate. She is in the living room, and I go to the room. She is in the yard, and I will go to the living room. Several times, my sister wanted to talk to me, but I just twisted my head and walked away as if no one had done.

During this period, I called the spiny bird several times, but no one answered. When I called the home of the prickly bird, the home of the prickly bird said it was not at home. I have also been to the prickly bird's house. The prickly bird's family said that the prickly bird went to work.

I try to find the prickly bird in every way, and I long for the appearance of the prickly bird.

Falling in love is like buying clothes. When you see the right one you like, you should buy it immediately, instead of hesitating to talk about it later.

When you meet someone you like, you should catch it. If you don't succeed, you should at least work hard, instead of holding back. When you finally want to catch him or her, he or she already belongs to someone else.

The prickly bird didn't love me, never.

The world of love is two-sided. Only when each other is willing is the form of love. I have never fully recognized this sentence. At least love is not two-sided. I love prickly birds. It's just one-sided love.

In the bustling city, I am the only one left... Green memories, I don't know what symbols to use at the end.

As the days passed, I was so desperate that I didn't have any meaning to live. I scolded fiercely in the deserted night: "Fuck it."

Then live my life in Chongqing, and I can also be like Wang Fei and Mei Ting... Indulge in the dream of California, relieve the pain with aspirin, and look back at the true meaning of life, it's just a sigh... He smoked a cheap cigarette and just said, "Be happy."

The prickly bird disappeared. Disappeared in my world. I know that the spiny bird is hating, hating me, hating my sister, hating the world.

Throughout the summer, the prickly bird did not appear.

Summer has to go away. At the end of the summer, the autumn figure quietly walks in, ready to be in place, and waiting for the summer to go away.

Desperate I desperately look for it in this desperate world. I hope everything is fine... Autumn makes people feel very sad, but it reminds me of Quan Xiangyu in the sad love song. Sad and pure eyes, through cold, and the season of falling leaves is gradually coming.

The missing is a ball of paper at the bottom of my heart, cutting me, which was originally fragmented. Drinking, I know that drinking can relieve this pain, which is like a terminal cancer, and it hurts my heart. It is more painful to wake up after drinking. The more painful it is, the more wine you drink.

The appearance of the pain in the heart is the body, the sinking of the body, and the fall of the body. The beard is sloppy, the hair is messy, and the clothes have a strange smell of alcohol and body odor.

On the last day of summer, I hope that the spiny bird will appear and give me a chance to love her. So the prickly bird appeared on this day. It was unexpected when the prickly bird appeared again. I was happy to feel that the whole world was getting smaller, so small that only the prickly bird was on me.

"Xia Shu, is that you?" The prickly bird in the microphone said in a hoarse voice, which was not a pleasant voice before.

"It's me. Is it you?"

"It's me. Can I see you?"

"Okay." I happily agreed and asked for the address and time.

"Don't tell your sister about my meeting with you, okay?"

"Okay."

I also want to ask about the recent situation of the spiny bird. There is a hang-up sound from the phone.

I kicked open the wine bottles piled up around, took a hot bath, scraped off the long stubble, threw the clothes I had not changed for many days into the laundry, lay on the chair, and connected the empty memories