Final Chapter

My unfinished past is wrapped around me from behind, making it difficult for me to die. Please release me from it.

"I believe in your love." Let this sentence be my last words.

-Tagore's Bird Collection

This season has passed so fast. The weather is very warm, and a month has passed. Our life is also getting better with the weather.

Guan Bai, do you know? Chen Xianzi in front of the school was taken away by the people of the Municipal Administration Bureau, and the ** in the school was bright. I moved out of the student's dormitory, where everything reminded me all the time that you are dead. Du Lele took a break from school. I heard that he didn't think about suicide. Although this is not the ultimate perfection, it is also eight points. Guan Bai, do you think so?

I work in a snack bar not far from my school. Every day, I take Chu Xiaoye to eat street snacks. If you habitually suffer such a crime once a week, if you don't go, it's like committing some heinous felony. I miss the scene where you made me squat in the toilet for a day. I am used to getting up in the middle of the night, opening the curtains, and looking at the sky with light rain and no night stars during the day.

On such a rainy afternoon, I haven't written a letter to my sister for a long time. I closed my eyes and lay down for a few seconds, opened my eyes, and opened the letter nervously.

My sister told me everything about the prickly bird truthfully. I also learned all about the spiny birds from this. The content of the previous memory is the true story written by referring to my sister's letter.

There is only one truth. I ridiculously think of this classic line in some R country animation. The sky pressed down like a heavy piece of lead.

If the spiny bird is an unexplained natural phenomenon, my sister is the unexplained mystery in reality. I subconsciously touched my left face and was slapped twice by my sister. I turned out to be a real bastard.

Even if you get married, have children, and die, you will still get married, have children, and die with an unpredictable ending. I closed my eyes and wanted to cut off the past.

Xia Shu, my sister will protect you.

Summer tree, the prickly bird will guard you with me.

With so many tears, I don't know when I climbed on my cheek. My sister's face came to my mind, and all I did was guilt for my sister. The prickly bird atones for my sins with death, and I cut off the bond between me and my sister with death.

I read the contents of the letter repeatedly. I covered my hot cheeks with my hand. Tears flowed from my fingers, and the handwriting on the paper became blurred.

I finally couldn't hold on. I sat on the ground, cried loudly, and cried like a fool.

"What's the matter?" Chu Xiaoye, who opened the door and entered, asked me with concern, "Xia Shu, what's wrong?"

I slapped me on the cheek, and I hit my face hard.

"What are you doing?" Chu Xiaoye pressed my hand: "Xia Shu, stop it."

"I'm a fool. Big fool..."

"Xia Shu, what happened?" Chu Xiaoye said in a begging tone, "Okay?"

I buried my face in Chu Xiaoye's arms and choked and told the secret of summer. I can feel Chu Xiaoye's body trembling.

"Xia Shu." Chu Xiaoye wiped away the tears on my face with comfort: "Everything will be fine."

"Am I a heinous crime, am I..."

"No. Xia Shu, you are a good boy.

I leaned on Chu Xiaoye's shoulder.

"Xiao Ye, am I stupid, am I?"

"No."

"Xiao Ye, will you still believe me?"

"I believe in your love."

One morning a few years later. The sunlight refracts well into the room. I wrote these shy and precious memories on the computer.

Chu Xiaoye, who opened the door, pulled his daughter and walked out of the door: "Xia Shu, hurry up. I'm going to be late."

"Here, I hurriedly packed up and turned off the computer, put on my coat and followed Chu Xiaoye.

Chu Xiaoye got into the car with his daughter in his arms and held his mouth: "How can you do such a lingering thing?"

I smiled and apologized: "I know it's wrong." He turned around and made a face to his daughter.

"Dad, have we lost our aunt's house?"

"Uh-huh!" I started the car and said, "Yes, go to my sister's place." I said that kind of calm.

At noon, we sat at the table. My mother was very happy to see me and Xiaoye coming back with our daughter.

Beside my sister as a man called my brother-in-law. My sister will call that man - Xiu

We chatted happily and drank beer happily. Chu Xiaoye drank the juice in his hand and said, "Xia Shu, let's go to Lele tomorrow."

"Okay. We haven't been together for a long time.

The daughter clapped her hands happily: "Are you going to Aunt Du's house? OK. There is a lot of sugar to eat.

"Be careful not to break your teeth." My sister said intimidating her children.

"No, it won't cause tooth decay." The daughter took her mother's hand and said, "Grandma, don't you think so?"

"Hehe..." Mother smiled and said, "No, no, rinse your mouth after taking the medicine."

The children clapped their hands with smiles.

There was no message from Du Lele in the two years after I graduated with Chu Xiaoye. When I married Chu Xiaoye in the third year, Du Lele didn't show up either. A year after Xiaoye gave birth to Man, Du Lele appeared.

Du Lele has never been married and has no intention of getting married. Du Lele happily celebrated the first birthday of my and Xiaoye's daughter.

Du Lele said that he just wanted to be alone and keep the memory of Guan Bai.

My daughter's red face leaned in front of me and asked me milkily, "Dad, why are there so many white flowers in Aunt Du's house? So many white flowers.

Close white, white like snow.

Thinking about so much, the rain in my heart is accumulating more and more. Or in the past, or now, I haven't forgotten the spiny bird, and I haven't forgotten the white as white as snow.

A throbbing in my heart. The sun moves slowly, passing through the morning, noon, sunset, and twilight, and now it is shining on Chu Xiaoye's hair. When the wind blew, the hairs swayed in the wind, and golden light pierced my eyes and rippled.