Thirty-seven, what can you do

For a long time, I suddenly heard Yu Qingcun ask in a low voice, "Zi Fei, saved me that night and detoxified me. Is it because... the children of the Buddhist family are suffering to save people?"

As soon as he said this, he clearly saw the Jinglian's expression trembling, and his eyes were full of disbelief and eagerness, but he was unable to speak and move.

Yu Qingcun didn't know what the emotion was in his heart. He looked at such a Jinglian with a complicated expression and then asked, "Is that... because of love?"

But seeing that Jinglian was gratified at this time, he looked at Yu Qingcun earnestly. Yu Qingcun had a headache in his heart. He gently turned to the beginning to see the jumping and shining bean-like spark. And whispered, "Does Zifei know that Qingcun has long loved you as life? ... That night, I heard that you were actually a monk, and I only felt that the world seemed to have collapsed.

He squinted at the lights, and his heart flashed through all the things after that day, and his expression was confused and melancholy. But listening to his low tone, he continued like a muttering to himself, "After that night, Qingcun wanted to stay away from everything and you, thinking that maybe time could teach me to forget the pain and forget you. ...It's just that when I see you again, all the vows will no longer exist. In my heart, I only read your instructions, your good. ... It's like a moth. I know it's impossible. I know that there is a flame burning in front of me, but I still go to you... Until today, after all, you don't want to give up this temple... But why do you have to treat me like this? Why do you have to ruin your innocence and break the Buddhist precepts... The clear existence has never been transparent... Up to now, you can't be able to refer to it again. It's..."

At this point, he sighed secretly, looked back and looked at Jinglian. However, she saw Jinglian staring straight ahead, looking confused and sad, and there were tears in her eyes.

Seeing him like this, Yu Qingcun only felt that the pain in his heart surged up more. He wanted to stand up and walk over, but he forced himself to hold it. He continued with a cruel heart, "It's actually here to say goodbye to Zifei. It is stored in this capital, and it has gained karma and exorcry. In addition, I got the love here, and then lost the love. This is no longer a clear place to exist. If you continue to stay, you might as well die immediately. It's just that Qingcun is a cowardly person. Although he doesn't cherish his life very much, it is also quite difficult to abandon it.

He was about to go on, but he saw that Jinglian closed her eyelids, and a line of tears slowly but endlessly slipped down the pillow. Under the light, his face was gray and lifeless.

Since he met Shen Fang, he has always smiled, or elegant, or witty, indescribably extraordinary and refined. When did you see this look like this at this time?

Yu Qingcun stood up and drove the lanterns to sway and die. The boundless twilight infected the houses of heaven and earth, and the room became more and more pale.

His heart ached like a thorn, and he staggered and knelt down in front of the bed. He actually made the unparalleled people in the world cry so sadly.

He hugged Jinglian, kissed the tear mark tremblingly, and cried painfully on the side of Jinglian's neck, "Why? Zifei, didn't Qingcun make you less distracted and feel at ease to join the Buddha? If I continue to stay here, I don't know how much danger it will bring for you. Zifei, you will be discredited... You can't be with Qingcun, and why don't you let Qingcun leave?"

But he felt that the tears could not be kissed. He was so anxious that he raised his head, looked at Jinglian, and looked at the desperate and hateful expression on his face.

Suddenly, Jinglian opened her eyes and eagerly looked at Yu Qingcun, and her eyes were full of pleading.

Yuqing was confused. He had never seen such a fragile and helpless Shen Fang. Even if he is already a bald monk, in this dim light, no matter how you look at it, it is the appearance of Shen Fang that day.

But how can we continue to stay? His leaving is the best way to end the relationship between the two of them. Since then, although each of them has suffered in their hearts, they can finally get a seemingly peaceful life.

He can't imagine what kind of fate Jinglian will have when their private love is exposed to the world one day. Even a little imagination will make him shudder.

It's time to go.