Chapter 204, tyrannical
"Can I stop? What should I do?" Yi Beichen grinned as if he were smiling. Under the dark candlelight, his smile became colder and colder: "You are my wife. Why should I stop?"
"No...no..." Xinyi twisted his body, but became more and more like the fish on the cutting board, which was slaughtered by others. Yi Beichen, let me go!!"
He didn't say anything, just raised the corners of his mouth, lowered his body, and sucked all the rest of the words on her lips. I can only hear her 'hm' resistance.
Xinyi's mind is blank, and only the remaining consciousness is that he just wants to escape. However, he was so powerful that his hands were pressed above his head and he couldn't move at all.
Don't...
Don't do this!!
Such a sentence suddenly flashed in her mind.
Yi Beichen's lips bit heavily and dropped a bloody tooth mark. In this way... you won't leave me... Xinyi, you don't want to leave me, I won't let you leave me! You are mine, you remember... You should have belonged to me!!"
Her body trembled inadvertently, but became the best catalyst for his aggression. At this time, Xinyi had been suppressed by him and could not move, but tears rolled out of his eyes and wet his hair.
I don't want to be treated like this... I don't want to be treated like this. Even if, even one day in the future, he will completely belong to him, but... But at this moment, Xinyi still wavered.
Every touch made her feel resistant and uneasy. She closed her eyes and was forced to accept this fact only with her body. Jin..." I don't know if he wanted to ask for help or something else, but Xinyi opened his mouth and subconsciously turned out to be his name.
The movement on his body suddenly paused, and then Yi Beichen's voice came to his ear: "What are you talking about?"
"Ajin...Ajin." Xinyi's heart was hot, but he only called his name.
This call made him unable to stand such humiliation anymore. Why is she still calling other people's names at this time!? Zhuo Xinyi! You showed it to me clearly!! I'm your husband!!"
"I know." She slowly opened her eyes and stared at him: "But so what... You know, what I like is him. Since you want my body, I have no choice... In this case, why can't you think of him? Anyway, if you think so, you will feel much more comfortable.
"You...you!!" Yi Beichen stared at her: "You still have a little shame in your heart!?"
Xinyi just smiled and said, "I just said what I thought from the bottom of my heart. Anyway, we have met frankly. Isn't it good to just talk about it? Yi Beichen, you clearly understand... but why don't you admit it? If you must force me at this time, there is nothing I can do. After all, my heart is full of him, which can't be changed.
"Zhuo Xinyi! I--" He was really angry and slapped. He was about to fight, but she looked at him fixedly at this time, and her eyes were as indifferent as water.
"If you think that a slap can relieve your hatred, then you can do it." She said calmly, "It doesn't matter if you kill me."
Yi Beichen stared at the swollen red marks on her face and looked at them for a long time before he put down his hand with hatred.
"I don't have any other request. I just want to make it clear with you when you calm down a little." Xinyi looked at him, but did not move. The air was chilly. "I really want to live a good life with you. Believe it or not, I have made up my mind to let go of me and all his previous past after seeing him. Yi Beichen, I really want to turn myself into the Zhuo Xinyi in your heart, and I keep changing it, but... Do you know how difficult it is to turn myself into another person?
Yi Beichen's eyebrows tightened and he didn't speak for a long time.
"Today's Xinyi just has the same appearance as her. I can only keep looking for the traces of the person in your heart and then imitate her appearance. But you always have to give me some time, don't you? Or... What do you think you can get from me? Maybe... I can't become the one you want anymore."
"No..." Yi Beichen's body was also trembling slightly, as if he could no longer suppress the feelings in his heart. Another person... Xinyi, are you telling me that you are no longer her? He groped in his arms and put the bloody wedding book exhibition in front of them. Since you are not her, you won't understand what kind of expectations I have to get through every year of bitterness.
Xinyi looked at the thin paper and could see the traces of blood on it. The paper was yellow, the edges were wrinkled, and the crease was even thin that it was about to break. Obviously, its owner has looked at it countless times, and then carefully put it in his arms.
"Several times, I crawled out of the pile of dead people, and you don't know how it feels. I thought I couldn't live, but every time I close my eyes, my mind is full of you... You stand on the path at the entrance of the village and wait foolishly. When he said this, his body trembled slightly: "I'm afraid that I will never see you again. I'm afraid that you will be painful and sad when you hear the news of my death... But Zhuo Xinyi... Now you tell me that I'm irrelevant in your heart. My life or death has nothing to do with you, right?
In the face of such an answer, Xinyi couldn't answer for a moment. He just stared at his drooping head and hid his expression in the light and shadow.
"You speak, now in your heart! Is it that I, Yi Beichen, are worthless! Not even one of his hair is as good as!? He suddenly stretched out his hand, pressed her shoulder, and was imprisoned under his body: "Is it... Zhuo Xinyi!"
She has even forgotten how to resist and just stared at him with frightened eyes. No...no...no words!"
yi Beichen freed his hand and wanted to touch her cheek, but withdrew his hand at the moment of meeting. I thought... I would remind you a little, even a little bit. Unfortunately, I'm back, but... you are no longer her. It's my fault, Zhuo Xinyi... It's my fault that I shouldn't have expected anything from you." He suddenly sneered: "It was my fault. If I didn't expect so much, wouldn't I be so frustrated... I asked for it, I asked for it!!"
His hand grasped Xinyi's body, and his hands were so strong that he even had the illusion that his bones would be crushed. I lost my memory. This is an indisputable fact. At this point, we have nothing to regret. You want me to become the Zhuo Xinyi you used to know... I can try to change it and learn... But you don't want to..."
"You instinctively don't want me to touch you," he lowered his eyes and stared at her face. I really hope you are the Zhuo Xinyi you used to be, but now I expect you not. If you didn't have the same face as her, I wouldn't care so much about your feelings, whether it's a new marriage... now. He suddenly stopped his strength, straightened up and threw her in **, and then turned around and left.
It was not until he went out of the door that Xinyi sat up, wrapped the quilt beside him, and couldn't help shaking all over.
Obviously, I wanted to hate him, but after trying my best to summon up my courage, I couldn't help but feel sad to know everything about him. She clenched her hand into a fist, pressed it against her chest, and gasped and choked.
Maybe the previous Zhuo Xinyi has always been there, otherwise... Why would he become so painful when he knew this?
No one is wrong.
I can't help but work hard.
She curled herself up and stopped crying, but leaned on the head of the bed with her knees in her arms, staring at the swaying candlelight in a daze.
A few knocks came from the door: "Madam, the master asked me to bring you medicine."
"Come in."
"Yes." The maid entered the room obediently and was surprised to see the mess in the room. Later, she saw Xin Yi, who only covered her body with a quilt, and quickly dragged the tray and bent down to be blessed: "Madam, the master asked me to send medicine... Er, madam..."