175 heartache

Bai Xijing was stunned when she heard the words. Her face was so white that her closed eyes were full of tears, so that her trembling long eyelashes seemed to be soaked in water, and her tight lips had also oozed a wisp of blood. She slowly looked up at Du Kang and said again word by word, "What do you... say...what?"

Looking at what seemed to be suddenly broken into ashes in Bai Xijing's eyes, Du Kang couldn't help but feel a trace of heartache and compassion, and couldn't help softening his voice: "Princess, the doctor said that the future is long, you... Don't be too sad.

Bai Xijing didn't say anything, but just pulled the cup tightly on his body with his hands. His eyes stared wide, but his eyes were empty and he couldn't see any emotion. Originally, she thought she would cry, even if she cursed loudly, but now she just sits like this, motionless and doesn't say anything.

Siqin walked to the bedside with red eyes and gently covered Bai Xijing's hand and whispered, "Princes, please don't scare Siqin, okay?"

Bai Xijing still didn't say anything, but subconsciously stretched out a hand to stroke his lower abdomen. There used to be a life there, but before they could meet, they had left forever. She even... She didn't even notice his existence. She was overwhelmed by the pressure of Ye Guo and Bai Guo's anxiety, so she never noticed her own situation.

If you had noticed it earlier, would the ending have been different?

She opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but in the end, she spit out a bubble like a fish away from the water and could no longer make any sound.

"Princess?" Siqin shook Bai Xijing's hand gently. Then Bai Xijing put his eyes on her, but the sight was dull and blurred, not like Xijing at all. Siqin's heart was sore, and her voice was a little choked: "Princess, we have to go back to Bai. How many times will they see the world like this? Sad, princess, you should take good care of yourself even for the sake of the prince.

Siqin felt that Bai Xijing's hand seemed to move. She quickly looked up and saw Bai Xijing looking at herself firmly. She said in a very uncomfortable voice that could not hear any emotions, but said, "Is it me... I killed this child?"

As soon as this word came out, the whole room was so quiet that I couldn't even hear the sound of breathing. Siqin's palm gradually cooled, while Du Kang slightly turned his head and no one spoke.

"Sure enough." Bai Xijing lowered his head and hid his face in his hair and shadow.

"It's not! It's not the princess's fault. If it's strange, it should be the one surnamed Ye! If it hadn't been for him, if it hadn't been for him, how could these things have happened! And that side..."

"Siqin!" As if he knew what Siqin would say next, Du Kang suddenly stared at her. Siqin stopped angrily and said nothing more.

"Princess, as long as you remember that some things require some people to pay for blood, and the rest... forget it." Du Kang looked at Bai Xijing and said that what he said was strange and even incomplete, but everyone present knew the meaning of his words.

Bai Xijing looked back at Du Kang, but suddenly lowered her eyelashes. She stretched out her hand and touched her flat lower abdomen. She could clearly feel the coldness of her fingertips. After a long time, she slowly raised her head, and her voice was still a little hoarse: "Du Kang, some things only If you go through it, you will find it too difficult to forget.

Du Kang didn't know what to say. Looking at her hand on her lower abdomen, he felt a little annoyed and could only change the topic and said, "We didn't tell Fang Siyuan about this matter. The main reason is that I think it is necessary..."

"No." Before Du Kang finished his words, Bai Xijing shook his head firmly without any hesitation.

"Hmm?"

"Don't tell him." Bai Xijing whispered that it's good to bear some pain by yourself, and...

Du Kang looked at Bai Xijing fixedly, as if to see some clues from her face. After a long time, he sighed and said, "Sure enough, princess, you also know about Fang Guo, so I don't want to tell Fang Siyuan about this matter at this time."

In these two days, Fang Siyuan's second brother, the current son of Fang, seized power during Fang Wang's serious illness and was already preparing for the throne. There were even rumors that he killed his biological father Fang Wang with his own hands, and killed all those who were qualified to inherit the throne under house arrest. . The ministers who were supported by Fang Siyuan were also persecuted.

At this time, Fang Siyuan should not only worry about the situation of Fang, but also worry about the safety of his relatives, but also avoid Ye Lin's pursuit and the assassination of his brother. Even so, he insisted on sending her back to the White State first. How can she tell him these things?

"And, I'm scared." When Bai Xijing said this, her voice was so low that it was almost impossible to hear what she said.

"What is the princess afraid of?" Siqin didn't know what Bai Xijing was talking about, but felt that there was a trace of fatigue and sadness in Bai Xijing's voice when he said this.

Bai Xijing stopped talking, while Du Kang fell into silent thinking.

Thinking carefully, Du Kang also guessed what Bai Xijing was probably afraid of. This child came at a wrong time. The country of Bai was in turmoil, and the country was in chaos. If he took this child back to the country of Bai, even if Bai Ziyu didn't say anything, what would the people say? How many people will follow and believe Bai Xijing when he returns to the White State? In particular... This child's father also has an agreement with Ye Guo, the Ye Guo who is attacking Bai Guo!

She is afraid that she can't protect the child.

Moreover, if she told Fang Siyuan that the child was gone within this time, would Fang Siyuan really not doubt that she deliberately took off the child? Even if this is too coincidental, it is not wrong to think that Bai Xijing doesn't want it and deliberately does it. What's more, this child didn't have it after seeing Ye Lin!

She was afraid that she would believe that Fang Siyuan didn't believe her.

"Princess, can't you have more confidence in yourself and him?" Du Kang sighed, and there was a trace of helplessness in his voice.

Bai Xijing's face showed a wry smile and shook his head slightly: "Because I'm used to it." Because since childhood, I have been used to guessing other people's thoughts and minds, I have become hesitant and can't easily believe that no matter who or anything will always subconsciously want to doubt.

I want to believe it, but I can't believe it.

This is her bad habit, which can't be quit or changed.

After serving Bai Xijing and drinking medicine and simply using some porridge, Siqin and Du Kang were told by Bai Xijing to rest. Suddenly, she was left alone in the whole room, quiet and lonely. Bai Xijing dared to hold the pillow and sobbed in a low voice and said over and over again, "Son, I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

She curled herself up into a ball, as if only in this way could she feel more at ease.

Crying and crying, she was slowly tired and fell asleep again. When I woke up again, it was already the evening of the day. The dusk sprinkled through the screen through the window and sprinkled the room, and the whole room was dyed with a faint warm orange. Bai Xijing looked at a man sitting at the head of her bed. Even if she couldn't see his expression clearly, she felt his burning eyes.

"Think far." Bai Xijing called softly, but when he thought of his miscarror, his voice was stunned. Fortunately, the room was very dim now, so Fang Siyuan did not see her pale and sad face.

"Well, I'm here." Fang Siyuan stretched out his hand to help Bai Xijing sit up, and gently put an extra quilt behind her so that she could lean on. After Bai Xijing was well, Fang Siyuan stretched out his hand and hugged Bai Xijing. He said, "Jinger, why are you so stupid? Why didn't you listen to Su Qing's words to leave and run back? I... I don't want you to see me so embarrassed. I'm afraid that you think I don't have the ability to protect you."

Bai Xijing's heart became more and more bitter when he heard this. In the face of Fang Siyuan who said such words, how to tell him that their child is gone? He will be sad. He will blame himself for not protecting her well. Then just let her be sad alone. It's good to blame herself. It's enough to bear this grief alone.

Bai Xijing was speechless and could only subconsciously grasp Fang Siyuan's clothes.

Fang Siyuan leaned against Bai Xijing's right shoulder and whispered, "Su Qing said that you bled a lot when he saw you. I'm very worried. Do you still feel pain now?"

Bai Xijing only felt that his heart was very tight, but he squeezed out a smile on his face and bit his lower lip. Then he softened his voice and slowly said, "It doesn't hurt anymore. Didn't the doctor also say that? I... It's nothing serious. Don't worry."

Bai Xijing tried her best to make her voice not hear any flaws, but even she herself did not find that she was trembling slightly.

"Jinger, you are trembling."

"It's okay, it's okay, it's just a little cold." Bai Xijing didn't say a word now, and she felt that she had used a lot of strength. In order not to let Fang Siyuan notice, she laughed. Du Kang, who was guarding outside the door, listened to her laughter and clenched his hands into fists. The trace of heartache on his handsome face was beyond words.

It's so painful, but is it forced to laugh in order not to worry him? You are afraid that he will feel distressed, but do you know that someone is distressed for you?

No, you won't know the princess, because I... won't let you know.