difficult to send lovesickness

"Ye Lang, Ye Lang. Do you know how cruel you are! How much you love when you live, how much you hate when you die! But... I don't hate you for being ruthless, but I hate you... A woman will ruin my life." In the past few days, once I have dreamed of her, I will always dream of her standing on the tower in white as snow, and resolutely jumped down from him.

He thought he was cruel enough to watch her die in front of him. However, if it is really cruel enough, why do you always subconsciously touch the inside of the bed after waking up at night? It used to be a place where she liked to fall asleep. She always liked to take his hand and whisper to him, "Have you had a nightmare again?"

Ye Lin subconsciously clenched his hand, but there was no more familiar body temperature in his hands. When the cold wind blew, it was unexpectedly cool.

He breathed quietly, and then got up and put on his coat.

It seemed that he heard the movement inside. A palace man outside was busy lighting the palace lamp and whispered, "Wang, what can I do for you?"

"It's okay, just go down."

"Yes." After the palace man retreated respectfully, Ye Lin slowly walked out of the hall. Since the capture of the State of Bai, he has lived in the Palace of the State of Bai. It's just that he didn't know why he couldn't live in the good Longxiang Hall. Why did he choose the Qijing Palace where she lived?

He took a deep breath, but even a trace of fragrance on her body had already drifted away in the palace.

Ye Lin turned around and looked at the dressing table on one side. He subconsciously frowned, but still stepped over and picked up a comb on the dressing table and frosted it finely. He suddenly remembered the old days. She always liked to sit in front of the dressing table with a smile and gently combed her long hair with a comb. Whenever she felt his arrival, she would look back and smile and said, "Ye Lang, shall I tie your hair for you today?"

That kind of smile is bright and gentle, which makes people unable to look away.

Ye Lin stretched out his hand, as if he wanted to grab something, but as if he remembered something, and put down his hand degenerately.

Xi'er, his Xi'er has long been gone.

I thought I wouldn't care, but why does this heart seem to be empty now?

She is just a pawn to him. How can she have feelings? Ye Lin tried to persuade himself like this, but every time he thought of Bai Xijing jumping from the tower, he couldn't say such words.

Ye Lin silently tied up her hair, but no matter how she tied it, it was always a little different from what Bai Xijing gave him. He slowly lowered his hand and looked into the mirror, only to find that he had been locking his eyebrows. This is the look he has never shown, but why does he show such an expression now?

He married her only for the key to the treasure in her hand and the clues about the treasure. From the beginning to the last marriage, it was just his strategy. He calculated every step, but he did not calculate that he would lose his mind. He thought it didn't matter without her, but... that's just what he thought.

Her smile, his words, her every move, looked so ordinary and indifferent at that time, why is it so painful in retrospect now?

It has been raining outside. It seems that since the day she left, the rain has been continuous for several days, as if to make up for all the rain in the past six months.

Ye Lin slowly opened the door, and immediately a palace man came to ask, "Wang, be more exposed and be careful not to catch a cold."

Ye Lin shook his head slowly and said, "It doesn't matter. Take the umbrella. I want to walk everywhere."

The palace man answered, hurried to get the oil paper umbrella and handed it to Ye Lin respectfully. Ye Lin ordered a few times, and then opened the oil-paper umbrella and walked out of the hall. The drizzling rain made a "dattering" sound on the oil paper umbrella. Although it was crisp, it inexplicably added a little loneliness.

He walked along the path with an umbrella and looked outside the Qijing Palace, but it seemed that he suddenly thought of something. He suddenly turned his head and looked in the direction of Qijing Palace, but he saw that the palace lamps of Qijing Palace loomed in the rain, and the slight coquettish voice of Bai Xijing seemed to sound in his ear: "Ye Guo's The lights are always so brilliant at night, but this is not the case in the White State. Especially in Qijing Palace, whenever it rains, the lanterns are always easy to blow out. Sometimes when you wake up in the middle of the night, it's dark outside, which is really scary.

What did he say to her at that time? By the way, it seems that "No matter where Xier is in the future, I will definitely let people hold the lamp at night and never scare my Xier."

Ye Lin didn't know why he suddenly remembered these words. These words were a little boring and even meaningless. Why would he remember them all? And now I think it's so sad.

Ye Lin slowly closed her eyes and recalled what Bai Xijing had said to him. She said, "Ye Lang, I like the faint cold plum fragrance on your body best. I planted a few plums outside Qijing Palace. In winter, even if I stay in Qijing Palace, I can smell the fragrance of the plum blossoms.

Ye Lin walked along the path and saw a few plum trees, but maybe because no one had taken care of them for a long time, the branches of the plum trees were broken a lot, and even the plum blossoms fell to the ground and were trampled into soil. Only a few cold plums stood in the wind.

Ye Lin leaned over and sniffed a cold plum, and the expression on his face suddenly showed a trace of tenderness: "You're right. It smells good."

When he said this, Ye Lin's face was a little lonely.

He walked quietly in the White King's Palace with an umbrella, but he wondered if she had walked this path like this back then? What kind of mood did she walk in at that time?

In eight years, everything can be changed.

The eight years have been so long and short.

is so long that as long as there is such a moment, it can be forever, but it is short enough to die in the blink of an eye. For eight years, he had fallen in love with her, but he didn't understand it for eight years. It was not until she jumped from the tower and her heart was empty that he quickly understood that some people had already penetrated into his bone marrow and could not be erased.

Why is it like this? When we are together, you miss me, but I deal with you. When you left, I missed you, but you were no longer there.

Is this miss caused by fate or him?

Bai Xijing, it turns out that I will miss you.

Bai Xijing, there is a secret I have never told you, but when I want to tell you, you can never hear it again.

Ye Lin held the umbrella in one hand, slowly raised his head and whispered to the sky, "Bai Xijing, I like you."