Chapter 72 The Teachings of the Empress Dowager

More than a month has passed in a blink of an eye. Tang Saier copied the Tao Te Ching in the palace every day. First, this is the punishment given to her by the Empress Dowager. Second, she has also been quite depressed recently. She just uses copying the Tao Te Ching to relax and think about how she should go in the future.

Tang Saier knew very well that since she met Zhao Wen, her heart was filled with deep self-reproach and guilt. Every time she saw Zhao Wen, she felt very sorry for him and wanted to do something to compensate him.

She can do anything to make up for his apology, but she can't give him what he wants most. She can't give it to him or give it to him.

Her heart has not belonged to herself for a long time, and her people do not belong to her. Now, everything about her belongs to the man named Yin Ren. Although she still can't stop hating him, she knows that the opposite of love is not hatred, but indifference. The reason why she still hates him is precisely because she still loves him.

I hate him because I still have his place in my heart.

Although she has been trying hard to pretend to be indifferent in front of him, her heart has never stopped missing him for a moment.

It seems that since he left the palace, she has been unable to sleep every night, sitting under the green light, thinking about him quietly, counting the days when he left, just like when she was in the south, waiting for him all night, waiting for him until her heart into countless small pieces.

Those past, those strong love and hate are intertwined in the bottom of her heart, cutting her heart bit by little, until her whole body becomes fragmented, until tears soak the pillow, until she is exhausted from his torture, she can sleep tiredly. Even so, he will not let her go. He is like a A domineering invader has invaded her whole world. He will never let go of her dream. Even her dream will also invade her domineeringly.

Yin Ren... What the hell... Are you willing to let me go...

Even in the dream... there will be your domineering figure... Even in the dream... You won't let me go... Those exhausted nights... Those unbearable past... Those fragmented memories... Like endless waves... devoured me... Let me suffocate in a world with only you...

She knew very well that she was just grateful and sorry for Zhao Wen. Perhaps, she had already regarded Zhao Wen as her relatives. She could do anything for Zhao Wen. When she heard the difficult news of Zhao Wen, she was more nervous than anyone else, but this feeling was like a sister's feelings for her brother, and she would never be a lover. That kind of feeling between.

She sat in the hall of the Qingyou Palace every day, quietly copying the Tao Te Ching, and felt as if she had suddenly stayed away from the noise, and her whole body was suddenly enlightened a lot.

It has been a whole month since he came back from Cining Palace, and finally copied 300 Tao Te Ching Sutras. Tang Saier simply cleaned up and took several maids to the Cining Palace to say hi to the Empress Dowager.

This is the first time since she entered the palace to go to the Cining Palace to pay regards to the empress dowager, and also to hand over the copied Tao Te Ching to the empress dowager.

The Empress Dowager sat above the hall, looked carefully at the books in the book, and gradually smiled with admiration.

After a long time, the Empress Dowager slowly raised her head, gently put the scroll of the book on the table, and looked at Tang Saier with admiration in her eyes.

"Yes, the ending is clear and complete, and the pen is fine and stable. Although it is slightly impetuous, the ink is still intact."

The Empress Dowager looked at Tang Saier with a touch of appreciation in her eyes, nodded slightly and said with a smile.

"Empress dowager Xie appreciates that my concubine has been practicing calligraphy at home since she was a child, and she still dares not slack off. Whenever she is impetuous, she will always copy the Analects of Confucius of hundreds of families to warn herself."

Tang Saier lowered her head and stood respectfully in the hall, whispering.

"A noble concubine, she is familiar with four books, five classics and hundreds of papers, and writes good words, which is the most basic, but it is far from enough to copy those words. The most important thing is to understand the true meaning of these words, learn to relax, learn to tolerate others, and more importantly, learn how to be an emperor's woman, and Don't do something to annoy the emperor in the palace, so that you can be regarded as a good concubine and survive better in the palace, do you understand?

The Empress Dowager's eyes, which were well-informed about the world, forced Tang Saier to look at Tang Saier, like an invisible wall, with a huge and irresistible sense of oppression, and went straight towards Tang Saier.

"My concubine understands that I remember the teachings of the Empress Dowager, and I will be careful in my words and deeds in the future, and I will not do anything to annoy the Empress Dowager."

Tang Saier was stunned, and then smiled and whispered.

"It's so good. As for your distant cousin, I think it's better to have less contact in the future. Although he is a relative, he is a young man after all. Young men often appear in the harem, which inevitably provokes criticism. If some rumors spread to the emperor's ears, I'm afraid it will only add to the emperor's worries. "

The Empress Dowager nodded with satisfaction and said with a smile.

"I understand that in the past month, my concubine has copied the Tao Te Ching in the quiet palace, and I feel much more peaceful and open. I have also considered a lot every day. I have decided to reduce contact with my cousin's family in the future. If there is nothing special, I don't want to have too much contact with them. If he If you encounter any trouble and what you need, it's not too late for my concubine to help.

Tang Saier whispered that she should indeed distance herself from Zhao Wen and the Lu family. Her current identity is not only Zhao Fei. She is also an assassin of the cloth gang entering the palace. If she continues to pester Zhao Wen, she is afraid that she will bring disaster to Zhao Wen, grandfather and the whole Lu family in the future.

"Yes, it seems that copying the Tao Te Ching really makes you feel much calm. In fact, the mourning family does not want to punish you, and the mourning family does not mean to blame you. The mourning family just wants you to understand that the only wish of the mourning family is that the emperor can live a good life. As long as it is the person the emperor likes, even if the mourning family does not like it, it will be for the emperor. Go up and slowly get to know this person. I hope you can love the emperor wholeheartedly like all the women in the palace and live only for the emperor.

The Empress Dowager looked closely at Tang Saier's eyes and said slowly. The implication is that although I don't want to see you, I am willing to give you a chance for the emperor. If you dare to have two hearts to the emperor, you will die.

"My concubine obeyed."

Tang Saier smiled and replied softly.

"Okay, he is really a smart person. Today is the first time for you to come to comfort the mourning family. From tomorrow on, if you are free, you might as well come to Cining Palace to comfort you often. Theai family would like to know you again and get to know you well."

The Empress Dowager looked at Tang Saier and said slowly.

"From tomorrow, my concubine must come to Cining Palace every day to say hi to the empress dowager, and my concubine will leave."

Tang Saier smiled, bowed slightly, saluted the empress dowager gently, and then slowly retreated.