Extra--Lin Wan'er

My name is Lin Wan'er. After my family was infected with the plague, my father and I were forced to leave the village and come to Tanzhou, the soft place south of the Yangtze River.

I was originally a medical girl. My father was good at medical skills. Naturally, he taught me how to save people and treat diseases from an early childhood, with a compassionate heart.

Although my father and I have no relatives in Tanzhou, with our medical skills, we opened a medicine shop to treat people here and help them relieve their pain. Life is not hard.

Maybe fate is like this, but when you are not on guard, it will plunder everything for you. Sometimes, I have to believe in the so-called fate.

That year, I lost my only relative in the world, so I embarked on the road that did not belong to me. My life was no longer peaceful.

It was also in that year that I escaped from the brothel and was rescued by her. The delicate but extremely cold woman - Wei Siliang.

She redeemed me and settled me in the Prime Minister's mansion.

She is very good to me, really good, and specially asked the master to teach me martial arts, but I know that all this she has done for me is nothing more than her purpose, for the lover in her heart, and the hatred she can't let go of in her heart. She needs a pawn to complete what she can't do for her.

So, she saved me, and she chose me to achieve what she wanted for her.

Although I knew that she saved me and used it purely, in any case, my life was given by her. I had to keep practicing martial arts and practice good kung fu to repay her. The cruel training made me change from a medical woman to a cold and ruthless killer, from saving people to killing people, and completely losing myself.

I still remember that when I killed someone for the first time, I was extremely scared. The blood was stained on my face. In my hands, I put down the knife tremblingly and watched the man fall down in front of me in horror. The warm blood was still flowing out. I had an indescribable sadness. His frightened eyes haunted me in the dream for a long time. I was afraid. Killing people, afraid of blood, afraid of accepting tasks.

The more scared I am, the more Wei Siliang makes me keep killing people. What I face every day is the red blood. Over time, I become numb and ruthless. I will never be so afraid like that for the first time. Gradually, I became her killing tool, and I was officially trained by her as a person. Qualified killing.

My father's revenge was also repaid in that year. When I cut off the man's head and carried the man's head to my father's grave, there was no more concern in my heart.

Until.

When carrying out that task, in the same place, in the same scene, she couldn't help saying that she saved me without doubt, although I knew that this was originally a well-designed conspiracy.

However, after staying with her for a long time, I don't know why the feelings that have been sealed in my heart for a long time. In getting along with her day by day, I was gradually infected and influenced by her.

When I was poisoned in the stable, I could have attacked her without mercy, but in the end I just chose to knock her unconscious. For the first time, I felt that I didn't want to hurt a person. I knew how difficult it was for a killer.

Wei Siliang, she is my benefactor and the one I want to repay. Although I failed in the task and lost my life, I have no regrets, because of her kindness, I can only repay her in this way.

However, the simple woman named 'Li Luo' chose to believe me. Although I exposed a lot of doubts, she always treated each other sincerely and became friends with me with her heart.

The longer I stayed with her, the more I seemed to return to my former me again. I was moved by these small emotions. I thought that I had been numb and didn't care for a long time, but the real feelings in my heart could never deceive people.

Maybe it is because of your indecision and not fierce enough that the task will fail.

When she was caught in Donghu as a threatening hostage by Wei Siliang, she felt an inexplicable sense of guilt. She knew my identity and knew that I had cheated her.

Fortunately, I narrowly escaped in the war between Donghu and Minyue.

Maybe it's out of guilt about her. On the night after the seal, I rescued her from the inexplicable fire.

Then, I took her to the place where she was born - Yueshi Tianshan.

I and she, we live together on the Tianshan Mountain, the isolated valley.

Since the fire, her originally white and plain face was burned half of her cheeks by the ruthless fire, and her eyes were blinded by the black smoke.

Since then, she has been covered with white gauze and has never stepped out of the valley.

Since her eyes were blind, her slender eyelashes were tightly closed, and she couldn't open her eyes. As a doctor, she went to the mountain to collect medicine every day, read many medical books, and studied pharmacologicals. In order to cure her eyes, no matter how hard I tried, her eyes, her disfigured cheeks, no matter what kind of medicine, It's getting better.

Her body was already very weak. After I rescued her from the fire, I hardly heard her voice. I just coughed all day, weak and weak, predicting her physical failure to me.

I know that she doesn't have much time.

Day after day, the days are plain and quiet, and the days I spent with her are almost a year.

This year, I took good care of her life, took care of her condition, and knew that it was impossible to cure her illness, as if God had already been destined for everything.

In the last few days, I accompanied her to the top of Tianshan Mountain. The first time she opened her mouth and told me that she wanted to come to the top of the mountain to blow the wind, she also knew that there was not much time, so I asked her, but there were other wishes, I could take her and help her realize them. When I asked this sentence, I looked at her expression, under the veil, she She smiled calmly and gently. Although she was covered by the veil, I could feel that she was satisfied and gratified. I finally heard her voice. Her voice was extremely light. She told me that in this life, she had no regrets. In this life, she had experienced, lost, received, those unforgettable feelings, and unforgettable. The experience of pregnancy is deeply engraved in her mind. Whether it is good or bad, she has had it and got it. These have been enough for her to live this life, and she has no regrets.

Accompany her to the top of Tianshan Mountain. After she came back, the candlelight of her life was no longer strong, and the signs of life were getting weaker and weaker. She could only lie on the couch all day and could no longer move. For three meals a day, I held porridge and fed it into her mouth one bite at a time. However, every time she took a bite, she spit out a bite, every time she came here. At that time, I was always alone and couldn't help crying silently, but I didn't dare to let her know. Every night, when she coughed, I immediately woke up and ran to her couch and took good care of her.

Never thought that one day, she would become like this. She was such a kind and beautiful woman, but she couldn't beat the arrangement of fate. After all, she couldn't live the year of peach and plum. In the year I saved her, her condition worsened day by day, no matter what I gave her. How many medicines still didn't work. A year later, she left the world with a calm and peaceful smile.

Although this world brought her endless pain, I believe that she must have left with satisfaction. When sorting out her face, she inadvertently found that the black mandala mark on her original arm also disappeared when she left the world. I sighed, lonely and sad, the so-called curse, so In the end, she couldn't escape. Fortunately, when she left, she had no regrets.

I built a grave for her and buried her on Tianshan Mountain. This is the place where she was born, the place where she started her life, where she belongs, her first place, and where her final soul shelter.

After this experience, after all this, she finally returned here, and I, I clearly know that my belonging must not be here. After burying her, I packed up and resolutely left here.

I know that what I want to do in this life, my belonging is to continue my medical career. If fate has already arranged everything, then I think that the arrangement given to me by God is to hang a pot to help the world and use my own medical skills to treat diseases and save people. This is what I should do as a doctor, and it is also my inner wish. Whenever I walk through a town, help those who need help, cure those patients who have no money to heal, or beggars who are dying on the street. Whenever I heal them completely and see their simple and grateful smiling faces, I feel warm and happy in my heart. Sometimes, holding the jade pendant given to me by my parents, it seems that they I was by my side and never left.