165 Past

But do you know? The pain and sufferings suffered by Li Shu are far beyond your imagination. Do you know how painful it was when Yu Shu gave birth to a baby? The anesthesiologist gave her a long explanation of the principles and side effects before giving her anesthetic. At that time, Qi Shu was already in unbearable pain, but she actually endured listening to the full text, and then told us that she decided not to give birth by herself without pain. She said, Brother Jingyan, did you hear that the anesthesiologist said that it might hurt the child, which may affect his breathing, brain, and many other things. I told her that it is almost impossible to happen. Painless childbirth is already a mature technology, and it is used by pregnant women all over the country, so you don't have to be afraid. You and your child will have no problems. Yi Shu said no. She was afraid that in case, even if there was a small possibility, she would not take a risk. She told me that Brother Jingyan, this child, is my only faith and meaning of living. It is the last contact between me and that person in this world. Yi Shu has been afraid of pain since she was a child. In the past, she had to scream for vaccination in school, but she actually hurt for five or six hours for you and your daughter. After Xiaobao was born, I went into the ward to see her. Finally, she shouted so loud that she couldn't say a word, and her face was not as good as the dead. . We are all men, and we can't experience that kind of pain in our lives. When you are working hard to rebuild and make yourself strong again, Yu Shu is also suffering the highest pain in the world alone and giving birth to the children of the two of you.

"After giving birth to Xiaobao, she has been in poor health. Most of the reason is that she is depressed and depressed all day long. Xiaobao's birth does not seem to bring her the joy and happiness of being a new mother, but on the contrary, it aggravates her miss for you. I really can't watch her go on like this. Even if it's not for herself, I have to think about Xiaobao. Therefore, when Xiaobao was less than one year old, I decided to take their mother and daughter to the United States. I want to use the distance between time and space to make Yu Shu forget that bad memory.

"Soong Chun, can you imagine it? At that time, Xiaobao was less than one year old. Nowadays, there are countless adults around spoiling children in China. Some of them don't go to kindergarten at the age of four or five, but your daughter began to live a collective life at ten months. When Li Shu sent her there on the first day, she was very worried. Previously, we heard that children would cry desperately in the kindergarten and had to cry for about a month to get used to it. However, when Yu Shu picked up Xiaobao after school that day, the teacher said that the child was very good and good. He drank milk on time, and then quietly played with toys by himself. Yu Shu was relieved. A few seconds after holding Xiaobao, Xiaobao suddenly cried loudly. Yu Shu said that her heart was broken at that moment. Xiaobao was not used to the life in kindergarten at all, nor was she obedient, but she was too young to cry. She was so scared that she didn't even dare to cry until he realized that his mother was coming.

"At that time, Yi Shu had no financial resources and refused to accept my help. She had to earn a little meager income by working and studying.

The tuition fee of the kindergarten is already very expensive, and I can't even take out an extra 50 yuan a month to rent a garage. The winter is very long and cold. Huishu's car is parked at the door, and the temperature in the car is the same as outside every morning. Xiaobao has a big bag of things to bring to the kindergarten every day. Every time, Yu Shu has to hold Xiaobao, hold that bag, and her own bag, from the house we rented to the car.

The car started for a long time before it warmed up in the car, so both of them wore down jackets. The clothes were too thick and slippery. Once, Yu Shu almost dropped Xiaobao to the ground. That time she was particularly afraid. From then on, she never wore a coat again. No matter how cold it was, she only wore it. As long as a single dress is related to Xiaobao, she does not allow any chance of accidents, no matter how stubborn they are to others. She has been afraid of the cold since she was a child, but she has been frozen for you and your daughter.

"Although it seems that Wei Shu's work is still bright now, do you know? How hard it is for her to work in a Chinese restaurant in the United States. She has to go to work and class during the day and take care of the children at night. She has little time to rest. Every day at noon, Yi Shu will hide in the bathroom and take a nap on the toilet.

"In the past few years, whether in the United States or at home, there are many people who like Yu Shu. As long as she is willing, not to mention me, there will be countless people queuing up after her to help her tide over the difficulties, but no one agrees. It's not that she has a bad personality and doesn't like to socialize with people, but that she doesn't have so much time to think about it. When they go to the bar to drink and dance every night, Yi Shu will go home to bathe your daughter and tell a story to coax her to sleep. When they participate in the auto show fashion show every weekend, Yi Shu will take your daughter to the zoo to the amusement park. In four years, Yi Shu has not slacked down, whether it is for her own career or her children. So you can see such a woman and such a child today. But Song Chun, no matter how good they are, they will always be themselves. You have no right to ask them to come back to you. You have never been a husband and father for even one day. Now no matter who you are right or wrong four years ago, you have paid the price, so even if you already know that Xiaobao is you. Daughter, please don't disturb them.

Song Chunjiu couldn't speak for a long time, and he whispered, "Yi Shu, it's amazing. She taught her child very well."

Lu Jingyan shook his head and said, "This is the most sad thing for Yi Shu. She has always felt that Xiaobao is too obedient, too smart and sensible. She would rather Xiaobao, like other children of the same age, only knows how to play heartless and stupidly every day. Sometimes when I look at Xiaobao, I can't imagine that she is just three years old this year. She is as sensible and heartbreaking.

"Do you know why she doesn't want to tell me that Xiaobao is my child?"

"I know that she has told me since the day Xiaobao was born, and also made me promise not to tell anyone. Yi Shu said that she may not get your forgiveness in her life. She is no longer qualified to ask you to wait for her. She doesn't want to blackmail you with a child, and she is afraid. She is afraid that you have even a trace of suspicion that this child is not yours. In addition, she doesn't want to embarras you. After returning to China, she didn't expect that she would meet her first. Your girlfriend, since you already have a girlfriend, she said that if this is the life you choose, she doesn't want you to have any worries. Your past should be regarded as a good memory. In addition, don't leave any traces that will affect your future.