Chapter 19: Snow - 2

I looked around looking for the source of the sound, and finally found a black shadow not far away. Because I was not wearing glasses and a little drunk, I didn't see him clearly.

"Are you also here to enjoy the snow?" I shouted at him from a distance.

At this time, the shadow in the distance slowly walked towards me, getting closer and closer. I don't know whether it was because the snow was too heavy to cover his vision, or his consciousness was blurred, but he vaguely felt like Situ Lei.

"Let's go." He finally approached me and couldn't help pushing me home. At this time, I found that I had unconsciously come to the garden of the community alone.

"You let me go. Why do you have to listen to what you say? I pressed the forward button of the wheelchair to get rid of him.

"I thought something happened between you and him that I didn't know. I thought I knew you very well. That's why I agreed to go to the flower dance. He suddenly opened his mouth, as if trying to explain something.

"Ye Yichen and I have nothing to do. I even refused his invitation to be my partner at the Christmas party. Everything is just your thought. Don't impose your thought on me, okay?

At this time, I can be sure that he is Situ Lei, whom I have never forgotten.

His words, his voice, and his every move all touched my heart.

"I never wanted to impose anything on you."

At this time, his words made me feel that he was colder than the snowflakes falling in the sky.

"Why did you easily drive me away with a piece of paper? I just wanted you to tell me a reason, but you and Anlan hid in Hong Kong to live happily."

"It's not what you think..."

Before he finished his words, I picked up the thick snow on the ground and hit him hard. At the same time, I didn't let him interrupt me.

"You know how empty and scared I was when I knew that the number of votes was flat, when the director asked me to find out who was the last person who didn't vote. But no matter how many people in that school hate me and want me to leave, I just persistently believe that that person is definitely not you.

I said as I continued to pick up the snow on the ground to hit him.

"But now I want to thank you. After I moved to the flower dance, Anrant finally doesn't have to appear in my world. She can even treat me like an insignificant passer-by.

When I finally finished saying this, the whole world seemed to be quiet. The wind blew through my ears, and the snow melted on the ground. I could hear everything clearly, the subtle sounds of everything in the world.

"It turns out that feelings are so difficult to learn. Who is around him? I don't regret it before and after disappearing..." I gently hummed this song that moved me. The voice was so small that I could only hear it by myself.

"Situ Lei, I won't become a bubble for anyone, never..."

"Zhaolin..."

He is far away from me, because I have been retreating from the wheelchair. I don't know why I'm afraid of him approaching, and I'm afraid of seeing the tenderness in his eyes again.

Because I know that it no longer belongs to me.

After the snow was crushed, it kept making a 'kuku' sound, and the tenderness in his eyes was finally crushed by me like this thin snow.

"Loror, what are you doing outside so late?"

In the distance, my mother ran over in a panic. It seemed that she found that I was not at home, so she hurried out to find me. You can see that she is not even dressed and half dressed.

And my mother's appearance also made Situ Lei's words unspoken be suffoed.

"Xiaolei, why are you here? Did you two make an appointment to come out together?" My mother found Situ Lei standing beside her and asked uncontrollably with a gossip heart.

"Who wants to make an appointment with him?" Before he could answer, I took the lead.

Mom looked at me in a daze and looked at him standing aside indifferently. I don't know that I had expelled him so fiercely in this small garden just now.

"Well, I just happened to see her when I passed by. Auntie, take her home. She drank."

"Yes, today is her birthday. Because she was too happy, she asked her to drink some. They all said that she should drink less, but this child is too cocky."

Unexpectedly, Situ Lei had already seen that I was drunk after drinking. On the contrary, his mother's face was a little helpless.

"Mom, let's go home." I took my mother's hand and stared at Situ Lei by the way.

In the snowy night, I held my mother's arm drowsily and refused to let go. At the same time, I looked at Situ Lei opposite me in a hostile way and did not allow him to approach me for half a step.

My mother smiled awkwardly, and then took me home after a few polite words.

But Situ Lei still stood there alone, allowing a lot of snow on his head and shoulders, but he refused to move at all.

The heavy snow still fell from the air disorderly, and there was no momentum to stop. But the warmth in his eyes was gradually buried by the heavy snow...

-

I only felt a headache. It was 11 a.m. when I opened my eyes.

I suddenly got up and only felt dizzy, thinking that I just drank some red wine at home. How could I have such a big stamina? Is this a hangover?

"Little drunkard, are you up?" It turned out that my mother had been cleaning up in my room, but I was shocked by the sudden sound.

"It's about to have lunch, and you still don't go to school in the afternoon. Take a look at your promising point, you can drink too much at home. I won't take you to drink anymore."

"I didn't drink much. Don't you think I was quite awake last night?"

I shook my head and wanted to cheer myself up. Until after lunch, I still lay lazily and didn't go to class pretending to be dizzy.

It seems that I dreamed of Situ Lei last night. I said to myself and recalled the vague dream last night.

He didn't say anything in the dream, and his thick hair covered his eyes and the only way I could see his heart.

Maybe, I will never have a chance to see those clear but foggy eyes again. Even dreams block me, which may be God's will.

I got up and looked out of the window. There was already a thick layer of snow outside. Pedestrians walked hard step by step. I pulled the window hard and had been frozen to death.

I especially like to listen to the sound of 'ku, Ku' when the snow is trampled down. It is a sound that makes people feel happy after hearing it. Maybe it's a little strange, but this is also a experience I have never experienced in my life. So I feel very happy even if I have been addicted to the ear.

"With such thick snow, it's inconvenient to go out tomorrow." I said to myself and still looked at the snow-white world outside. When you are tired, lie down and look at the ceiling and live a lazy day.

There is always an idea that suddenly emerges, that is, you want to be a proud and free cat in your next life. When you are happy, you will lie in your master's arms and act coquettishly. When you are not so happy, you will go to the roof and look down at passers-by outside. There is a home, and there are people to snuggle, but they can also wander around freely.

-

"Ran, did Situ suddenly leave you yesterday?" Han Heya sat on the balcony with one hand fiddling with the lace raised in the house and making a phone call.

"Yes, how do you know?"

"I'm afraid it's not just me, but the whole world will soon know. I heard that someone saw Situ and Xia Luolin meet in the park near his house and stayed together for a long time.

"You mean he left me to find Xia Luolin?"

"Well, you can think so. Randa, I'm not talking about you. What kind of open gun is easy to hide and dark arrows are difficult to prevent. The real dark arrow is Xia Luolin. She is the real defenseless. You are too tender.

"Dududu..." The other end of the phone suddenly ended the call, and there was a busy sound.

"Hey, hey...Ran?"

Looking at Anlan hanging up the phone without saying anything, Han and Ya's charming little faces suddenly showed a gloomy smile, and then broke her hand and played with the flower: "Lan, you can't let me down any more."

At dinner, my mother approached me sneakly and asked in a low voice, "Baby, tell me, what were you doing in the garden with Xiaolei last night?"

"Last night?"

"Don't pretend to be stupid with your mother. You ran out to meet him in the middle of the night without wearing clothes. I caught you and still don't want to admit it?" My mother spoke in a low voice and bit my ear with an unseemly face for fear of being heard by my father.

I looked at my mother's uncontrollable curiosity, but I couldn't remember such a thing.

"Ah." When I grew up, I sighed and suddenly realized that it was not a dream.

Last night, I really saw Situ Lei, but I can't remember what we said or did in the garden. If it hadn't been for my mother's words, I'm afraid I would have always regarded her as an illusory dream.

"I don't remember either. It should have happened to happen." I said with a face that was none of my business.

"Don't lie to me. You two are not in love, are you?" Mom is like this. She can't control the gossip heart and even wants to know her daughter's gossip.

I'm a little anxious: "Mom, what are you talking about? Don't always think that a man and a woman must be in love together, secular."

"Oc, it's secular. It's up to my daughter when she's big. How dare you say that I am secular? If I am not secular, how can I have you? My mother pouted and ignored me.

Sometimes I think that maybe you will live a better life without me. My life itself is too tiring, giving you too much burdens and responsibilities, and also giving you unspeakable pressure.

But everything has happened. I am already a living life. Now that I think about this, I might as well live a better life.

'Squeak...'

The wheelchair crushes the snow and makes a sound. The wheels are narrow and long. I don't know how to describe the sound it makes. I just feel that it is not as atmospheric and comfortable as when I step on the snow.

The snow deposited overnight flashed in the morning light, and the surface was already covered with a thin layer of ice. I touched it with my hand, which was wet and slippery and a little dirty.

I gently opened the thin ice above, took out a small piece of clean snow hidden in the middle and put it in my mouth. The cold feeling reached my whole body through my mouth. In an instant, my body instinctively trembled, but I still smiled foolishly in my heart.

'ba...'

A thick piece of snow fell from the eaves and almost hit me. I looked upstairs. When the resident who had the window open for snow removal on the top floor saw that I was looking for the source of the snow, he immediately shrank his head back, probably afraid that I would rely on him.

"Dare to do it, I didn't say anything." I whispered and continued to struggle to press the snow.

As soon as the school gate was opened, Liu Ziyang ran down with three steps and two steps to greet me: "My little aunt, you are here. What did you do all day yesterday?