Chapter 39: Remember to love, it's enough

I looked at him in a daze.

"Don't do this, that's enough. I know everything." I looked at him, and his hair had been dripping from the rain, and he should have been running outside for a long time. But I have no time to think so much.

"What do you know?" He looked at me nervously.

I broke away from his hand holding my shoulder and ignored his words. I rolled the wheelchair in aloof, without turning or retreating, but kept moving forward, repeatedly bumping back on his leg, hitting it again, and then being bounced back.

At this time, he suddenly saw the man behind me. He stood up and walked to the man and arrested him: "An Jingran, what on earth did you say to her!"

He finally left in front of my eyes, and I still repeated the action just now, slowly rowing the wheelchair farther and farther away from them.

"I just said what she should know." An Jingran didn't think so.

"Did my father ask you to do this?"

An Jingran opened Situ Lei's hand: "Don't spill all the dirty water on your father. She has the right to know the truth."

Situ Lei was silent for a while and found that I didn't know when I had left behind him.

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"Dad, I'm back." I opened the door of the ward.

"Where have you been? Why are you so wet?" Dad saw me pick up the cloth on the table and wiped it on my head in a hurry. He didn't know whether the cloth was clean or buried.

"Wipe it yourself, and I'll find a dress for you to change first. The busier you are, the more messy you will be." Dad looked very angry, but I could see that it was because he was worried that I was sick.

Because this is the ward, my father only found the laundry brought to my mother from home for me. After changing my clothes, he hurriedly gave me a cup of hot boiled water.

"Is it still cold?" Dad asked.

"No."

Holding a hot glass in his hands, his hands and heart gradually regained their temperature. Originally, I wanted to come back and ask if what the man said was true, but now I don't think it's necessary.

What can I do if there is a blood relationship? I only know that I have called their parents for 18 years. I know that they will always be the people who love me the most in the world. Now the family affection I have is warmer than the blood that is thicker than water and worth cherishing.

"That's right, after you left, the Situ of your school came to find you, and then hurried out to find you. Didn't you meet it?"

"I've seen it." I took a sip of water and covered my hand for a while, and finally my mouth became less hot.

The mobile phone suddenly rang. I left it in the ward because I was too panicked. It was a very strange number. Although I don't know who made it, I don't like to press other people's phone numbers.

"I'm Anan." Before I could speak, Anan on the other side of the phone had reported herself to her home.

"What's the matter?"

"I tell you, A Lei can't be with you. He doesn't love you at all." Anan still can't change the tone she deliberately raised when she spoke to me.

"If you want to say this again, I'll hang up." I have heard enough of Anlang's words.

"No, let's meet. I have something to tell you at Huixin Coffee tomorrow morning."

It seems to me that it is the first time for her to make such a decent invitation. Although I don't like her at all, I still decided to go to the appointment.

My mind stirred the complex relationship between me and Situ Lei all night, as if I tried to get out of the water and found that the person the prince loved was not me at all, but the fish tail.

He thought the fish tail was beautiful and rare, but he couldn't bear to tell me that I paid a painful price because he liked the fish tail. He wants to compensate me for the voice he lost and the freedom of the seabed for his lost voice.

I have always warned myself not to fall in love with him and not to fall in love with anyone. But I still can't do it after all.

Friends are like relatives to me that I trust and rely on, but the people I like are the sun. Relatives have always been in my heart, but my heart always revolves around the sun. Now I can't escape from this track where I don't know when to start sailing.

After I greeted my father in the morning, I came to Huixin Cafe on time to wait for An. I thought I had come very early, but I didn't expect to see her sitting by the window at the door waiting for me as soon as I entered the door.

"Do you need me to help you?" Anfan rarely put away his aggressive emphasis and face and opened the chair for me.

"No, I'll just sit here." I didn't move in the wheelchair, just moved some of the chairs in the store to let me in.

"I know everything about A Lei and you. The person who came to you yesterday is my father." She kept looking out of the window, took a sip of coffee and continued.

"I didn't come to see you today, but I didn't mean to threaten you. In a word, how much do you want? I'll give it to you. I can also send your whole family out of the city, as long as you don't meet A Lei in the future. There are no special conditions. As long as you can say it, I can get it. It doesn't matter if I can give you everything. I just beg you not to hold A Lei like this."

Her expression was very calm. As he said, she put away her sharpness at our meeting and came to talk to me about the 'deal' seriously.

"Although his family is not the rich side, even if he still has to inherit the Situ family's property after returning to the Situ family, why do you have to drag him back? Now that you have promised me to start my life somewhere else, I promise you will live much better than here.

"Your tone is really exactly the same as your father's tone. His Situ family will have nothing to do with me in his life. I have never thought of going back or thinking about Situ Lei."

"You mean you actually don't like A Lei, do you?" Anan suddenly looked at me with a flash of light in her eyes.

"I will leave this city, and I have nothing to say about Situ Lei. After all, it's yours. I won't appear in his world, and he will gradually fade out of my memory. If you really like him, take good care of him. He is a person worth loving.

After saying that, I carefully withdrew from the table, smiled at Anan and left Huixin.

Anan looked at my far away back and smiled. I don't know whether he felt that he had won or had other meanings.

After returning to the hospital, Situ Lei has been waiting for me for a long time. I didn't tell him that I went to see Angan. Maybe today is the time for me to solve everything.

"How much did he tell you yesterday?"

"It's probably just passing by."

"I didn't mean to hide it from you. There are some things that I think are better if you don't know."

"I don't want to hear these words anymore. I just want to know that you have been good to me because you have known these things for a long time?" The moment I said it, I hesitated for a moment. I wanted to know the answer, but I was afraid to hear the same answer as I thought.

"I found you before you came to Minghan, but I was not sure at that time."

"You are really awesome. You arranged in advance that I will go to Minghan to school, right?"

The person in front of me suddenly made me feel strange. At this moment, I was like a broken doll. I looked at him twistedly and looked at the world. No one was worth believing.

Everything is perfectly written like a plan, and then I just need to follow the plot drawn up above step by step.

"After I found out that you might be the person I was looking for, I hired several people to pass Minghan's enrollment brochure to your father, and then you really came to Minghan as I thought."

The room is very quiet. Since my mother's body is stable, my father has also begun to return to work. After all, we can't spend all our energy in the hospital, and our life will continue.

"At first, I did deliberately get close to you, trying to get to know you slowly, and then try my best to make you comfortable there. When the time is ripe, I will take you back to Situ's house. That's all."

"So you seem to have to fulfill your mission to me, so why don't you want me to know now? I'm afraid that I will pester you and hug your thighs as they say?"

I said to him with a smile, but what was hidden in my smile was indescribable sadness.

"Although I rarely talk, your every move is under my control. Do you remember that you and Ye Yichen fell down accidentally in the hospital?"

"Hmm."

"That photo was taken by the person I hired to follow you, but their job is just to collect what you do every day and meet someone for me, and there is no obligation to tell me what happened."

"Are you looking for someone to follow me? Are you confessing everything to me now? Is there anything else I don't know? You'd better explain all the bad things you've done behind me today. If it hurts, please let me finish it all at once. Don't come back tomorrow after stabbing me today.

I'm getting more and more disappointed with the person in front of me. I don't know what he said to me, what he did, what was sincere and what was false.

"Maybe after being with you for a long time, I'm getting more and more afraid that you know what I'm hiding and doing behind my back. I don't want you to be hurt. Just when I knew that you were with Ye Yichen, I thought about giving up on you. I would like to stand behind you all the time and appear again when you need me without disturbing your life. Feelings for you are no longer the responsibility you have to bear in the first place.

"What do you mean?" I asked weakly.

Situ Lei looked at me and took a deep breath and slowly spit out. He began to stand in front of me without saying a word.

"Go find the person you like. I won't appear in your world again."

"Is that what you want to say?" I can't see what the hidden feelings behind him are, and I no longer believe what my eyes see, because it has deceived me too much.

"Can I give you a hug?"

I didn't say anything. He came to me after a while of silence. This was the last time he held me so softly on his chest, and I knew very well that this would be the last time we met. There will be no next time, or maybe we will have to wait for a long time.

It's been so long that we forget each other's appearance, voice, everything...

"I'm sorry, I can't turn a blind eye to all this, and I can't treat you like before."

I leaned in his arms, and I had no reason to lose my temper with him or complain about anything. I just want to quietly experience the warmth he brought me for the last time.

I think I will move out of here after my mother is discharged from the hospital. As An said, we will never see each other again. But I didn't tell him that I wanted to end all this today, at this moment.

"luolin, can you tell me, you..."

"Loved..."

I couldn't help answering him before he finished asking. I don't know why these two words popped out of my mouth, and I didn't know what I was thinking at that time. I just felt that this was what he wanted to ask and the answer he wanted to hear.

He suddenly hugged me so tightly, as if he wanted to embed me into his body through strength. But it didn't hurt me at all because I held it too tightly.

"Enough, that's enough." He said softly, with hidden joy and pain that only he could understand.

There is nothing more painful than losing, like an ice stubble hitting the skin, until you lose the feeling that it will not stop, because it wants you to remember, remember that you once had, remember that you have deeply loved and pain for this, no matter how time travels, it will remain in your memory forever, but never again I can't touch it.

I watched him slowly let go of his hand, his last silent and warm smile, watched him turn around and open the particularly heavy door of the ward today, and watched him leave my sight forever.

He left and left with my heart. I don't know how long it will take for us to get out of the pain we brought to each other, and then smile and look back at the stupid, moved and painful time together.

This teenager like the end of winter and the beginning of spring tried his best to leave the spring-like warmth to me and let himself silently bear the pain of ice cone.

But in the end, we still do this with the harm to each other, reluctance, and those words that have already been tacit will never be seen in such a way.

I came to the window and watched him walk out of the hospital.

"It's okay, everything is over. He is free, and he can live a life until you never appear. Time is a good medicine that can cure everything. Even if it hurts, he will forget it sooner or later, and so is he.

I said to myself with a smile, but I don't know how much my smile at this moment makes people feel extremely sorry at a glance.