Chapter 185 Dust to Dust 1
After ten days of recuperation, my body gradually improved and I was no longer as dizzy as before. Recently, Li Shimin came to visit me in the two halls in the evening. Because of the peace of the harem, he only spent the night in Deqing Palace, grabbing half a couch to talk and sleep. What he said most was: "Get a quick rest!" What did you eat today?" Isn't it extremely boring without me by your side?"
Li Shimin has too many things to do and occasionally forgets something. On this day, the maid in charge of the palace sent me a letter, which was Hongzhi's notes. Hongzhi said in the letter that he knew that he was sorry for me and didn't want to stay in the palace, so he left the palace last night. I hope you can forgive me!
Since my memory recovered, the facts that have happened have made me and Li Shimin have no intention to read anything else, and even ignored Hongzhi. Now that he has left, the palace is still very calm and has not touched Li Shimin. Li Shimin is now completely focusing on the government and me. I'm afraid he just forgot Hongzhi. Out of my sister's selfishness, I threw his letter on the candle and burned it. He wanted to leave. He felt guilty about me and should not do anything wrong to me again.
After lying down for a long time and suffering from dizziness, I leaned against the couch. Now it is inconvenient to stay, and the floor is still soft on the legs. Feng Yu of the Shang Pharmaceutical Bureau said that he would have to recuperate for another month before staying. I was in a good mood, and my diet was much better. The day before yesterday, I asked the maid in charge to take the bronze mirror to me, and my face was finally more comfortable than what I saw before. The disease comes from the heart, and when the mind is broad, the disease will get better.
I looked out of the window at the thick green summer, and the sunlight falling on the leaves shone like gems. A gust of wind shook my whole heart, took off the dust and let go of my breath. Suddenly, there was a noisy sound outside the door of the palace. I heard a maid persuading someone: "The Empress Defei has an order. I haven't seen any guests recently. Please come back."
"Dog slave, go away!" With a sharp sound, a figure appeared outside the curtain. She looked at the inner hall and came in without hesitation. When she lifted the curtain, it was unexpected that it was her!
Chang Chongrong is his crown princess, the crown princess who kidnapped the housekeeper and my brother who forced me to use for her, and the crown princess who was against my life and death! Later, she was kept as a full face by Li Shimin, but she was beaten in the court. She has not done anything over the years. Now, it surprises me a little.
I looked at her and the maid of Deqing Palace who followed the persuasion behind her. As my identity, she also dared to break in! However, she shook the handkerchief and smiled at me: "Don't blame them. I'm going to break in. I'm not like your two cowardly sisters. I didn't even look at your face at the door and just turned back with a few words." She looked at me with a smile, which showed great disgust for me. Soon, she showed this disgust at a glance: "Tut, I'm really sad to see your haggard appearance! Why on earth did you become like this? If you were thrown into the street, who could connect you with the noble imperial concubine? Huh? Hahaha!"
She is still as unscrupulous as before, and she always hates me in her eyes. I haven't seen you for more than ten years. It's definitely not a good thing to come here. So, I looked cold and asked rudely, "What on earth are you going to do!"
She glanced at the palace people in the hall, and I waved my hand to let them all retreat first. She smiled with satisfaction and continued to come to me: "I'm here to tell you who is the most sincere to you."
Suddenly, I felt uneasy because of her sentence. I looked at her coldly and pretended to be disdainful: "What do you mean? You might as well say it directly."
She was already beside me, sitting sideways on the soft couch, smiling: "If you are the most honest to you, do you believe it? But it doesn't matter. Listen with your ears up. After listening, you will understand!"
I felt more and more nervous, and my eyes fell on the new tea that had just been brewed on the desk, closing my throat and listening to her. She was cold and her tone was firm and fierce: "I don't fight with you because I'm discouraged, let alone afraid of you!" I'm waiting for an opportunity. I'm waiting for an excellent opportunity. You fight to the death in it, and I'm watching outside. The authorities are fascinated by the bystanders, and everything is clear at a glance as long as I explore it a little! Do you know why Wei Zheng suddenly took the minister to kneel in the Taiji Hall?
I looked at her in shock, and she was the one who manipulated this behind the scenes! The memory can be traced back to the Xuanwumen coup. Li Jiancheng died, and his crown concubine, that is, Chang Chongrong in front of him, was a narrow-minded person. She hated Li Shimin in the bottom of her heart, and the resentment between me and her had already been concluded when I entered the palace. I always thought that she had been indifferent to the world. It turned out that she had been observing secretly and had never given up hatred!
Seeing that my eyes were full of anger, she smiled more and more, leaned slightly and stared at my eyes: "Because I quietly told him that Xiao Zhu, the servant of Dali Temple, was the emperor's confidant and secretly investigated an unspeakable event, and this matter was related to the royal bloodline and the great crime of the previous dynasty! How can such a loyal, patriotic and bold person let go of something unfavorable to the Tang Dynasty!"
It was her secret plan behind her, and now why did she tell me again? On the contrary, it made me suspicious: "You made a ghost in it, but why did you tell me?"
She smiled otherwise, her eyes gradually sank, and a gloomy atmosphere came out of it: "It doesn't matter if I tell you, I said that only I am the most sincere to you in this palace! Do you think the people around you are open and aboveboard?
I wonder more: "What does this mean?"
She grabbed the couch with one hand and leaned over her body. Her sarcastic smile was bigger and made me creepy. What do you mean? Don't be glad that you saved two good sisters with your alienation. You have the heart to protect them, but they don't care about you! As your identity, the position of Concubine De should have been unable to sit still. The next person to inherit the position of Concubine De is Yan Jingwen, because her identity and background are of great help to the government! But you are thrilled. I'm afraid your good sister hates you so much! You also know that it is the emperor's special job to use the harem relationship to stabilize the government, you know!" Every sentence was almost spit out with her teeth gritted, and she put it in her eyes. Unruly arrogance seems to contain many unknown secrets.
She said that Yan Jingwen wanted my position as a German concubine. I felt ridiculous, but she couldn't help but touch her heartstrings for her last sentence and was very uneasy. I shook my head slowly, and my mouth was still determined, but my eyes inadvertently dodged elsewhere: "It's impossible. Yan Zhaoyi and I have an old acquaintance. It's impossible for her to think so! The emperor will protect me in a thousand ways, let alone... he will not abandon me!"
She closed her arrogant smile and slightly hooked the corners of her mouth: "Let's not talk about the ever-changing emperor, but what about the old knowledge? Enter this palace, and people's hearts will change!" She closed her sleeves and stood up, walked back and forth slowly in front of me, with a little helplessness, and threw a mocking light at me from time to time: "Your good sister picked up from Luoyang, she has become too much. What did she do behind your back... Oh, no! It should be from beginning to end! Zhou Cai's death, Wei Zhaorong's confinement, and even more, one by one, one by one, countless! Xiao Zhu of Dali Temple is so smart that he must have found it a long time ago, but he didn't tell you. They are all the people you saved. How can they be so ungrateful?
Muyan! She is talking about Mu Yan! Muyan killed Zhou Cairen? Did Muyan harm Wei Zhaorong's confinement? How come? Although she is stubborn, her heart is not so sinister and vicious. How can she harm people and kill people? I kept shaking my head. Why did my heart beat so abruptly? I shouldn't have believed it. I didn't believe it! I pressed my chest tightly, and my heart beat violently in the palm of my hand, clear and shocking.
Chang Chongrong stood in front of him and looked at me pitifully with his hands on his arms, but the corners of his mouth were full of ridicule. She looked down at me, just like her arrogance when she was the crown princess. This is nothing. After all, I don't think about her attitude, but what she continues to say is like a hammer in my heart, flesh and blood! She smiled and said, "At this point, you should also infer another truth. Muyan did evil, but Xiao Zhu didn't say anything, but there was someone protecting her. Most importantly, you put the blame on innocent people with them. You killed a scapegoat with your own hands, but you are still complacent and ignorant, and you are the culprit of all this!"
I covered my ears hard and shook my head desperately: "No! No way!"
"No?" She stepped forward, grabbed my arm and held it fiercely, with her eyes oppressing, "From beginning to end, you have been kept in the dark and used by others! You now know very well what your sincerity is in exchange! These people say it's you, but what do they do in private? So what about protecting you? Using is using, cheating is cheating. For them, you have always been an outsider! Don't you think the shouting sister is very harsh and ridiculous?"
I struggled to push her away. But my strength now can't move a finger from her at all. The soreness of my arm rushed straight to my forehead. At this time, my mind was chaotic and kept muttering, "Don't say it, don't say it anymore!"
She grabbed my shoulder with her other hand and stared at me fiercely. The arrogance and ridicule in her eyes were completely replaced by severe grief. She almost roared: "Mo Xiran, no! It's Yinqiyan. At the beginning, the prince loved you so much and loved you so sincerely, but you sneered at his love and took advantage of it, and finally killed him tragically! This is your retribution. No one is sincere to you anymore. All you have is hypocritical! You live in a big scam. They are all planning. You follow the steps they set and think that the situation is in your own hands. You are so stupid. You are ridiculous!"
She burst into tears, and the angry and sad red silk climbed up her eyes, as if she had entered the devil's way. I trembled all over and tried to calm down: "I don't believe it! Why should I believe you!"
She swayed and straightened up, lifted the teapot on the desk to the mouth of the kettle, and then laughed proudly. The water flowed from the corners of her mouth to her chin. She wiped it fiercely and turned around and said, "Of course you don't believe me. You can trust your good sister!"
After saying that, she sneered, turned around and patted the bead curtain and left outside the hall. I looked at her back, grabbed the couch under me with my fingers, heard my heavy and rapid breathing and heartbeat, and insisted on convincing myself: "I don't believe it, I don't believe it... I... No!"