Chapter 3: Breathing Pain 1

Be kind to yourself from tomorrow, because there is no one who loves you. Xiaochuan thought about it, and suddenly felt sad.

Open the player in your mobile phone and play Cannon, which is a song that Xiaomei taught to Xiaochuan.

The music is played repeatedly in the headphones, and Xiaochuan is obsessed with the memory of the past.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm listening to songs."

"What song?"

"Cannon, wait a minute, I'll play it for you."

The melodious music echoes in the microphone, jumping notes one by one, very beautiful music.

"Listen carefully. It is actually the reincarnation of notes. Notes from slow to fast make up a piece of music."

"It sounds good." Xiaochuan on the other side of the microphone smiled and said, "I'll look for it tomorrow."

"Ye-huh, it's called Cannon. Wait a minute."

"What?"

"I want to play it for you, but it doesn't seem to work." There is a little depressing sound on the other side of the microphone.

"It's okay. Play it to me when you have a chance."

"Eh-huh... All right."

But Ogawa never had a chance to hear it again. Cannon in the headphones was sad and melodious, just like Ogawa's mood, sad and helpless.

I'm very sad. My stomach hurts, but I have to work tomorrow. Ogawa thought, smiled bitterly, and forced himself to sleep.

In his spare time on the second day, Xiaochuan turned on the computer and typed down the words he wanted to say.

IfIletyougo,Iwillneverknow,whatmylifewouldbe,holdyouclosetome,willIeversee,yousmilebackatme,howw illIknow,ifIletyougo!

I like the songs of Xicheng very much, the soft male voice, and the whispering love songs. I always think it would be nice if there was such a man who was as gentle as water~

If I let you go, will you walk freely? If I stay, will you stay?

In fact, I don't believe that those things used to be scams, but they have nothing to do with me, just like everything about me is no longer what you should care about. You knew the consequences, why did you write a lie at the beginning? Why is every boy so self-righteous? When he finds that he has nothing, he wants to go back to the past and go back to the past. It's just that some things can't go back, just like happiness. I said that happiness is a thing that is easy to break. Even if you take care of it carefully, there is always one Heaven will break.

Yesterday, I was pulled to sing and sing those love songs that I rarely listen to. The last time I listened to people sing fairy tales for me, and finally shed tears for you. You are not my prince. I am not anyone's princess. The princess prince may not be able to live a happy life. What's more, we are nothing. I only gave me a song of sadness. From today on. The word "crying" will not belong to me. No matter how difficult and tired it is, I will walk alone and don't care about the promises of the past.

Yesterday, my stomach hurt all night. I didn't eat and ate cold food, and my stomach was so painful. Perhaps only this unforgettable pain would make me treat myself better. I was scolded by the doctor, but I could still laugh out. Suddenly, I felt that being scolded is also a kind of happiness. I like the feeling of being managed, but from today on, I am alone. Be kind and happy to yourself, don't torture yourself for anyone, and don't cry for anyone.

My happiness will come back. As long as I have loved so deeply, I don't ask if it's worth it. You didn't give me a choice to leave~~"

[This is a magic. Close your eyes and count one, two, three, we can go back to the days when we were friends, and we can still be friends.]

The one who cares is not you, but me. If I don't care, no one will care, Xiaochuan thinks so.

Xiaochuan compromised, and we can still be friends. Xiaochuan told Xiaomei like this. I don't care who owes whom.

They are still friends. The two communicate in an awkward and awkward tone. No one will call again, even if Xiaochuan misses them.

The two people on QQ tried their best to maintain the previous tone. Xiaomei's joke continued, and Xiaochuan also maintained his smile, as if he had really returned to the past and when he was still a friend.

You can't be so decadent. Xiaochuan said to himself, so he has more jobs. There will be an exam at the end of October, and study and work are full of Xiaochuan's life.

I'm busy, so I forget to be sad. The life of going out early and returning late every day is actually a kind of happiness. Occasionally, those past fragments flash through my mind and bring about a person's sadness. I don't want him to know that I'm sad for him. In fact, I just want the simplest happiness and think of his promise.

"Do you know what the simplest happiness is?"

"I don't know."

"It's just that two people go to watch dolphins swim together."

"As long as we can be together, it is the simplest happiness." At that time, listening to his promise, Ogawa really wanted to cry, maybe he was afraid, maybe he was nervous, and more happy.

Xiaochuan once left such a paragraph for Xiaomei on QQ.

You told me that the simplest romance is to go to see dolphins swimming together. In fact, I never ask for romance. I just want the simplest happiness.

When I'm alone, someone will accompany me. If I'm unhappy, I can have a crying embrace. I smile and someone will accompany me. I can love me well and care about me. It will stop me from torturing myself. I will contact me from time to time. I will coax me when I lose my temper. Don't ask too much. We can be happy with each other. Give me some self-confidence and let me know that I am not alone in the world.

The simplest happiness is also the most difficult happiness to obtain. We have all lived for too long, so long that we forget what is simple and what happiness is. Living in constant torture, it is difficult for happiness to come back. I never believe in the promise in love. As long as I understand that someone loves me, I will follow without hesitation. I hate ambiguity, hate rhetoric, hate false promises, hate my inferiority. I don't have the courage to fight for love. I don't want to be hurt, so I stop in front of happiness and want to escape. If you love me, please give me confidence. As long as it's not a complete disgust, I won't refuse easily. Maybe my happiness can Coming in the waiting.'

It turned out that the promise disappeared so quickly that it soon disappeared. It lost the person who loved him and the person who accompanied him to see the dolphins. Now Xiaochuan can only smile bitterly. I won't cry or torture myself anymore, because no one will say it again - if you hurt, I will be heartbroken.

Be good to yourself. On the day when Xiaomei left, it was Xiaochuan's promise to himself. No matter who, one or two people will be tomorrow, only when you love yourself will others love you.