Chapter 6: Courage 2

The community is very difficult, really difficult. There is no manpower, no funds, and everything starts from scratch. Xiaochuan and Yangyang took care of almost all the things, planning, charter, venue, manpower, and doing the same thing. It's really hard.

Recruiting, training, and doing personnel, Ogawa is busy every day, and in November, Xiaoyu's birthday is also coming.

Xiaoyu's birthday is very good. It's a birthday with Sun Yat-sen, the day after Singles' Day. In fact, Xiaoyu is very popular in the club. The primary school girl in the first grade is called by Xiaoyu's brother, which is very sweet. Xiaochuan also often uses this to tease Xiaoyu. Xiaoyu is also used to Xiaochuan's laughter, and there is no displeasure.

Single Xiaochuan began to learn to dress up. Although he was very clumsy and stupid, Xiaochuan said that I could not be beautiful, but I could be enchanting.

The long hair scattered on the shoulders is not combed, the nails are painted in gentle orange, knee-length skirts, pink sweaters, high heels of more than five centimeters, and big earrings. Xiaochuan looked at the mirror and was quite satisfied. In fact, it can better reflect his personality. Isn't it good?

Suddenly a little gloomy. When did you start to learn to dress up? From the moment you know that you don't have yourself in your heart? Or did he hurt himself completely?

In fact, I don't know how lame this dress is. Xiaochuan smiled slightly, and a little bitterness spread out in his mouth. Maybe you are attracting the attention of everyone around you, right?

Xiaoyu was very happy on his birthday and drank a lot of wine. Xiaochuan's drinking capacity was not very bad. He couldn't get drunk. Xiaoyu seemed to see Xiaochuan's sadness and helped her block the wine. In fact, Xiaoyu was a birthday star and drank more.

The more you drink, the more sad you feel. The clearest thing is your mind. Put your fingers on your mobile phone, and you want to dial whose number. When I woke up, I found that the text message had been sent.

The mobile phone has been quiet all night. Xiaochuan knows who it was sent to and knows that he will not reply, but... It seems that with more memories, even if it is reproach, it may be more sober to be scolded?

The community was established and began to run activities, but the people disappeared. He couldn't find anyone to do things. Xiaochuan had to take everything to himself. He was very tired, but there was nothing he could do.

"You are too strong." That's what Orange said about Xiaochuan.

"I know." Ogawa smiled helplessly.

"This will hurt yourself."

"I know."

Why doesn't Xiaochuan know that he is too strong, but if he is strong, it is engraved in his bones, and the habit of 20 years can't be erased for a while.

"That..." Orange was angry for a moment. Xiaochuan was not like this once or twice. This time was the most stubborn.

"I know."

This time, Xiaochuan's determination was particularly firm. He knew that he could not let go, so he learned to persevere. Because he was reluctant, he refused to leave and gave up.

"Xiao Yu, I have to plan today."

"Xiao Yu, there will be a meeting today."

"Xiao Yu, I want to..."

Xiaochuan put down the phone and sighed slightly. Xiao Yu was full of complaints at the other end of the phone. In fact, I don't want to be like this, but the club is too busy, and I am too strong.

I'm used to dependence and the person who can call my name. Xiaomei gradually disappears, and Xiaochuan can't bother anymore. Everyone has their own lives, which is actually very good.

"Why don't you eat well?" In front of Xiaochuan, who was halfway through his work, his eyes were hazy, and he seemed to hear Xiaomei's voice in the dark, with a little reproach and a little concern.

"I..."

"Remember to eat well." Xiaomei seemed to smile at the other end of the phone, and her voice was a little more pity.

"Eh-huh..." Xiaochuan subconsciously nodded, and his forehead hit the computer hard. The haze in front of him disappeared, and Xiaomei disappeared. It turned out that she dreamed of him. Xiaochuan rubbed his painful forehead, with something wet on his face, which blurred his eyes.

Haven't you eaten yet today? Xiaochuan suddenly remembered, and the bitter smile on his face melted. It turned out that I would forget to eat. Sure enough, I couldn't do it without his reminder. Happiness? Spoiled? Anyway, when you hear his reproach, even if it is harsh or unpleasant. It's really happy and the simplest.

[I'm so tired.] Xiaochuan opened QQ, and Xiaomei's avatar was still hanging. He was rarely invisible.

[What's wrong?] Ordinary greetings, without any warmth.

[Community, it's so annoying.]

[Then don't do it.]

[But... Reluctantly]

[...] Ogawa suddenly didn't want to say anything more. He couldn't hear what he expected. It turned out that we had gone so far, so let's continue to go. Ogawa repeated his determination.

"To be honest, you and Xiao Yu are quite suitable." Xiao Meng drank milk tea and looked at Xiaochuan with a smile, with a little flirting in her eyes.

"It's impossible." Ogawa said with a smile.

"Why? There is no communication with each other. Xiaoyu is single. Xiao Meng's eyes suddenly glowed with excitement.

"How about being single?" Xiaochuan gently asked back.

"You can fall in love."

"Forget it." Xiaochuan hesitated for a moment and changed the topic. The two girls talked about other topics that made them more excited.

"Why don't you stay with Xiaoyu?" Orange's classmate Maverick asked.

"... It's not suitable." Ogawa sighed, why is there another one?

"What's not suitable? You two are fine." The calf seems to not give up.

"There's no reason, it's just not suitable." Xiaochuan smiled and was not angry. She knew that Mavericks was a very simple child, and there were some things he couldn't understand.

"Okay." The Mavericks finally gave up.

There are more and more people saying this around. Xiaochuan just smiled bitterly. Xiaoyu is a very good boy, very handsome and considerate. It's just that it's not the kind you want, just a friend. Xiaochuan didn't want to be with Xiaoyu, but he was too cowardly. He was afraid that he would not even be a friend if he was hurt, so let's do it. Even if it is dependent, even in addition to something, there will be no more thing called ** love between them.

It turned out that he had no confidence in himself. Xiaochuan looked in the mirror and couldn't hide the haggardness and timidity in his eyes. I'm not a beautiful woman, so I dare not love. Isn't it stupid?

Sure enough, he was a fool. Xiaochuan mocked himself, but his face was sad. Love has long been gone.

I won't try again knowing that there is nothing tomorrow. I'm too smart to guess the end from the beginning. So I dare not love again, and I'm afraid of being hurt again.

It's better to be a lifelong friend than to be the most familiar stranger. Isn't it good? I can meet, party, and be together, instead of standing in front of you and pretending not to know you.