Chapter 1: I know it

This year's birthday is very special. Xiaochuan spent it with Monan.

Mo Nan, Xiao Yu, Jun Jun, Han Han, Xue Er, Orange, Xiao Xiao, and Xiao Chuan, friends of the No. 7 pawnshop gathered in the city called Ma Anshan to celebrate the birthday of Xiaochuan and Monan.

Xiaochuan, who stubbornly wants to celebrate two birthdays, the lunar calendar and the solar calendar, no matter which, there is no blessing of Xiaomei. The unbearable fatigue is the counterattack after happiness, surging in.

Suddenly, I was very tired. Xiaochuan celebrated his birthday, his birthday in Ma'anshan, and Xiaomei didn't know his birthday.

Didn't you say goodbye to him? Ogawa smiled helplessly.

"Thank you and goodbye" on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month. From now on, it will be goodbye forever.

Looking back on my year, it seemed that I lived a wonderful life and helpless. It turned out that I would no longer be strong. It turned out that I was tired and tired, but I couldn't find the support.

A year of happiness, Ogawa typed such a text.

"Please forgive my last sadness. I don't think I can be stronger than now.

A year of happiness. A year ago, I knew that the person I loved didn't love me, and he would never remember my birthday.

I go far away, give up what I love, wait for me to love, love, so far away.

Learn to leave and leave simply, no matter right or wrong, who is crying.

You never know how I'm sad, just like I never know who you love.

It can be so easy to leave.

A year of sadness, four times of love, really reintention only twice, sad and sad, who dumps whom, I always feel sad alone.

Learn to love and be defeated by their one sentence.

I can be very strong, but I will never be able to beat what I love.

It's not worth it, because love and being loved are always unequal, and the person you love will never be me.

The person I love doesn't love me, but it makes me learn to be loved.

I have been spoiled. I'm not that little girl. I can be strong and fearless, and I can move forward without wandering.

I began to get used to dependence and want to be coquettish in my arms. If I didn't love, maybe I could be fearless and move forward bravely. I'm still me.

A year of happiness, I live, I have been happy, I have been happy, and I think that you are everything to me.

A year of sadness, in fact, I know everything, know everything, guess everything, but I won't say it.

It should be thank you

You let me know what it means to be loved.

Love and helplessness,

Who understands whose sadness.

No one is anyone.

We are too far away.

It makes me afraid of the love you give me and the love I give you, so helpless.

Happy breakup,

I wish you happiness,

You can find a better one.

Stop pestering the person who doesn't love you,

I don't want to see you sad, because there was no comfort from me at that time.

I don't want to know that you are not doing well, but I won't rely on you, I won't love you anymore, and I won't forget myself.

I decided to be capricious,

No longer mourn for anyone

A year of happiness.

A year of sadness

Repetition of one year

My birthday, my happiness, my happiness~

I will be happy~

Because there is nothing you can rely on, and there is no comfort me

The world is so quiet that you forget me

Wanchuanshui, you forgot me, I forgot you.

Since then, there has been no fate to get together.

One year in the world~

My one-year war,

Completely lost

Whose victory,

The person who laughs to the end hopes it's still you.

Sad words, sad mood, I don't want Xiaomei to see this. Sadness and sadness are all their own. Xiaochuan has always been very clear.

If Orange hadn't said that he couldn't see it, Xiaochuan wouldn't have turned this in the space, and Xiaomei wouldn't have seen it, let alone later parting.

Everything is fate, and everything is destined to be good. Xiaochuan often thought so later.

That night, Ogawa turned on his mobile phone and just wanted to see if Orange had left a message, but he didn't expect to see Xiaomei's message.

"It's all my fault... I'm so assertive that I think I'm in a hurry. It won't cause more harm. I really didn't think that you were so serious... You know that I will go back one day, why do you indulge my waywardness... This waywardness has hurt many people unintentionally or intentionally. I should have apologized a long time ago. Because I was scolded badly by Orange. Let me stop messing with you again. But I have to say something to you today. Although I have really loved you before. But that time was too short. I have always been willful to ask you to do this and that. I'm used to looking at my face, so I'm more wayward. In fact, you spoil me too much... I have never given you anything. But why don't you hate a scum like me and torture yourself? In fact, we all lost. I shouldn't laugh. In fact, I am the most selfish of the three of us. I'm sorry, I broke my promise to you. I'm sorry, I gave you a dream and took it away in person. I hope you can find someone who spoils you. Remember to stand up and love. Sorry"

One word, one word, Xiaochuan read so slowly for the first time. Tears dripped on the pillow. There was no sound. It just gushed out and couldn't stop.

After reading it over and over again, I was already in tears. Xiaochuan was afraid that he had done something wrong, so he read it again from the beginning. Every time, his heart was as painful as a knife.

The trembling hand knocked down the reply, word by word, and each word was accompanied by countless tears.

"If you say you have never loved me, you may hate me... But you said you loved me... I lost this war to the end... In the future, you will find someone who can comfort you... That person will never be me... It's my fault to indulge myself... I know everything and believe it's also my fault... Maybe I'm too wayward... Maybe I never let myself. Sex... Maybe I can only say two words: thank you and goodbye"

It's a real goodbye. Ogawa bit his lower lip hard to suppress his sadness, but his tears could not stop. It turned out that his sadness was also voiceless.

So quiet, just like a dark night, loneliness spreads, sad and sad, who is helpless with whom.

[Shouldn't I cry for him...Shouldn't I laugh...]

[Uh-huh] Xiaobai said so.

[What if you can't laugh?]

[Cry... But after crying this time, you can't cry again]

[Then cry for him again...for the last time...]

[Well, stupid child..]

[Ogawa is a stupid Okawa...]

Xiaochuan looked at Xiaobai's flashing avatar on QQ, and tears surged out, which was more crazy than just now, crazy without a sound.

Is it sad to feel at ease? It turns out that I still have something to rely on, not love, but something stronger than love. It's good that someone can rely on themselves, isn't it?

It seems that I think so, but I always feel a little sad and entangled in my heart. That kind of sadness is indescribable pain. Every day is tears, every day is sad, the smile in front of people, and the sadness behind.