Chapter 100 Reincarnation of Fate

The coffee cup in my hand had cooled down, and I felt that my fingertips were slightly cool, and I shrank my body. She doesn't know who she should listen to in this world. Everyone has a set of words, and everyone seems to care about others, but who knows what is behind that concern?

Gao Xia looked into her eyes, no longer the sunshine, but the indescribable melancholy. She felt that the person in front of her was very strange. What kind of life is he talking about?

"I thought of her as your phantom, but Fortunately, nothing happened. I just kissed her unconsciously.

Later, I apologized to her. I kept my distance from her, except for the music, and tried to avoid private contact with her. She always says that I'm too cruel and I don't have the heart to refuse people thousands of miles away. Don't provoke her. Since I provoke her, I should stick to it to the end.

I'm too face-in-faced and too proud, so I didn't say that I liked you. Later, the matter of me wrapping up the amusement park was exposed. Someone recognized that you were the one who went out with me that night, so Eva finally couldn't stand it. She asked me, why is it Shen Pouchong and why is it her?

I said, I just like it, pure love, I want to like it simply, even if... even if I can't get it, as long as I really like it, it's enough."

Pocket felt that his limbs were a little paralyzed, and his brain began to turn. I can't tell who is true and who says which is true. She thought that Gao Xia liked her, but she was just curious and wanted to get it, just like he could get everything, but when she heard Gao Xia's answer, she was paralyzed.

"On your birthday, Eva knew that I sent someone to send you to the summer hall. After you left that night, she came. Now that I think about it, I don't know whether I should be glad that you weren't there or regret that I didn't insist on letting you stay. That day, when she came to me, I knew that she had been infected with drug dependence for more than half a year. It was very serious.

Hearing this, the pocket just woke up like a dream. It turned out that the medicine was used to control the pain during the onset of drug addiction. However, why did Xiao Shiqian lie to himself?

"She had a drug addiction attack and had hallucinations. She went wild in the hall, smashed a lot of things and shouted. It's useless for me to stop her and coax her. Finally, I sang. I sang to her, one by one, all the songs that were originally prepared for you. Gao Xia smiled bitterly and shook her head slightly, as if she were telling someone else's story.

"I sang the last song, and she had begun to indulge. She said, that's the song I wrote for her. She said that she also wanted simple love, and she didn't want to love so hard. Finally, she said that she was no longer worthy of me, and then, when we didn't notice, she cut the vein on her wrist with a knife.

She stared at him with wide eyes, feeling that her hands were cold and numb, and her head was dizzy.

"She shed a lot of blood, and Fortunately, she was rescued in time. But now, she can only wear clothes that cover her wrist, because the wound hasn't healed yet. She is still recovering the strength to support the cup, so she can't play the bass. I don't know how long it will take to recover to the previous strength.

For Xiao Shiqian, Beth is her lover. She said, "My lover must be a man who is not jealous of Beckham."

Xiao Shiqian likes to take a nickname, and Beckham is the nickname she gave to Beth.

There was a burst of pain in the pocket's heart, which made her want to vomit. Thinking of seeing the unique design of Xiao Shiqian's cheongsam in the morning, she still sighed about the designer's unique ingenuity and suddenly wanted to cry.

Why is no one's love in the world complete? Can love ever be very simple and pure, or is it always broken because it is too simple and pure?

"Gao Xia, will you treat Eva well?" She asked in a stupid way and felt that she was a little silly. In fact, you can know from the way Gao Xia took care of Xiao Shiqian in the morning. However, she was afraid that he would be good to her, just based on pity.

"I will treat her well." Gao Xia answered almost without hesitation, looked up at her, and said thoughtfully, "Because I understand a person's desperate mood."

The light projected in from the window gradually weakened, and the room became dark. The boss added some firewood to the fireplace, and the sound of "clap" in the flame was heard clearly.

Gao Xia left. He was afraid that Xiao Shiqian would wait too long, so he had to send the medicine quickly. The boss came to take away his coffee cup and handed her a pack of tissues like last time: "Miss Shen, this is a tissue."

"Thank you." She took it in a scepta, and nodded slightly without raising her head.

What Gao Xia said before she left swirling in her ear for a long time. It's like the whirlpool of coffee stirred in her hand, stirring and stirring, which made her dizzy.

She has always regarded Gao Xia as the inadvertent sunshine in her life. She only cares about enjoying the kindness he gives and experiencing such a beautiful feeling, but she doesn't know this man well.

She only thinks that he is unruly, and she only thinks that he is naturally casual, but she doesn't know that the sentimental breath he occasionally reveals is eager for her curiosity. It's just that she never cared about it.

"Two years ago, I was also addicted to drugs. I know how desperate and lost a person is before he sinks.

Gao Xia said that he could understand a person's desperate mood.

Looking at him puzzledly, he felt that he suddenly came to his eyes from another world. He leaned against the chair and looked out of the window at the vast snow. He has taken drugs, which is not a secret to Pocket, but she didn't ask why.

"Two years ago, my mother passed away. She walked desolately."

Gao Xia did not describe her mother's death too much. He said a few words, which were very simple, but pocket heard the regret and sadness that still remained in his heart from his tone. He was like a child praying for forgiveness, bowing his head in front of her for a long time.

Gao Xia's father left their mother and son soon after Gao Xia was born. His father is a musician. He is romantic and doesn't like bondage. His mother comes from a noble family and is arrogant. She can't forget this shame for many years. Gao Xia was only more than one year old. When he could sit upright, he was put on the piano table by his mother. As soon as he learned to take things, he forced him to practice the basic skills of fingering.

If you only rely on what you know about Gao Xia in the past, you will never have thought that such a bright boy would spend his childhood in such darkness.

After Gao Xia was transferred to South Korea by the Korean professor, the mother let her son stay there and began to receive artist training at a young age. It's hard to train in South Korea, but it's hard to train without his mother. His mother would whip his little body when he shouted that he didn't want to practice the piano, and would punish him to stand for two hours when he secretly rested ten minutes earlier.

His relationship with his mother is strange. He was born as a tool for his mother to revenge on his father. He is controlled by his mother, and his fate can't be arranged by himself, just to make greater achievements than his father one day, just to satisfy his mother's poor self-esteem.

"My smile is all the result of artist training." A bitter smile appeared on Gao Xia's face. "I like it when I see your heartfelt smile. I don't like it when I see sadness in your smile. I hope that the person I like will not bear too much distress like me.

This man, all cheerful and frank, was disguised and took off his mask one by one in front of her. What she saw was a bruise all over his body, hurting him like a crocodile.

He was indifferent to his relationship with his mother. At one time, he was afraid of returning to China, so he often came back only once in two or three years. When he came back, he only regarded his home as a hotel and stayed for two or three days before leaving. He even felt that one day he and his mother would fall into a field of strangers, and that day would really come.

The mother suffered from Alzheimer's disease. She held a picture of Gao Xia when she was a child and asked where her son was. Even when Gao Xia came back, she didn't know her. She just begged him to help her find her son.

"She doesn't recognize me, but she remembers me and makes red oil copyers for me day by day. In fact, she hasn't made food for me over the years. It's just because once when I was a child, I was hungry, and there were only a few leftovers left at home. I got up in the middle of the night and ate them all, so she wrote it down. She remembers what happened to me when I was a child. She remembered it all in her heart, but she didn't say anything.

After she fell ill, I couldn't stay with her for long, because my career was too busy, so I only spent a week with her. Unexpectedly, when I came back, she was no longer there. When I got home and turned over the refrigerator, I saw that it was full of her wrapped hand, so that all the refrigerator cabinets were going to be stepped on.

Pocket is very heavy and inexplicably heavy. I always feel that Gao Xia is talking about herself. But who said no? Everyone is insisting on what they think is important. In the end, those things are not worth mentioning in the eyes of others. His father may have been unknown for a long time, or he may not have made music for a long time, but his mother sacrificed her life's happiness for a moment.

Gao Xia returned to China after her mother's death and kept her original home. Because of depression, she became addicted to drugs. The agency sent him to Germany in the name of the performance, and then secretly helped him quit the toxicity. When Gao Xia saw Xiao Shiqian's drug addiction attack and even had suicidal thoughts, she thought of herself in the past. Thinking of myself in the past, I feel worthless for her.

The kind of life that transcends extreme happiness and extreme pain may be too different from the life of ordinary people from the simple rice, and it may be different from the life of ordinary people from the normal life track, so it created such a high summer.

He said, "I have learned the lesson I learned for 30 years, that is, I don't hide my feelings anymore." Today, she finally understood that sadly, no one can resist the reincarnation of fate. He wants to get rid of the unbearable past, he wants to learn to really let go, he wants to be reborn as a happy self, he wants to love simply, and finally return to the long flow of fate.

A thick layer of fog was condensed on the window, and the pocket used his fingers to draw a circle, two circles aimlessly on the cold water vapor... Finally, the palm of the hand was attached to the window, printed with five clear fingers, and saw the white world outside.

When he walked out of the store, he hesitated for a moment and asked the boss, "Uncle, can I ask you a question?"

The boss raised his bright forehead from under the counter and asked in that thick voice, "What's the problem?"

"How do you know me?" After asking her, she regretted it, but she always felt that there should not be many people who could recognize her in such a remote place.

The boss looked at her with a smile and said, "Your appearance is the same as before, and it hasn't changed at all."