ESC34 The Light of Loss of Hope

'I'm a weak person. I'm always so incompetent in my dream, and so is myself in reality.' Lin Xiaofeng lay weakly on the bench in the park and thought. Lin Xiaofeng is a student who has just graduated from college. When he was in college, he fantasized about what he would look like after graduation. He stepped into the society with hope and wanted to work hard for his dream.

But the cruelty of reality made this young man suffer. After hitting the wall everywhere, the teenager lay silently on the park bench, thinking about his own experience. I feel very useless. The dark night covers the earth, and there are fewer and fewer people in the park where the teenager is located. A gust of wind blew through the trees and swayed with the wind, and the rustling sound was endless. The moon is also covered by clouds.

Lin Xiaofeng still leaned silently on the bench and looked up at the starry sky. He didn't know what his future would be like and what he should do. I'm just a waste, right? If you can't do anything well, you won't succeed in anything, right? Lin Xiaofeng thought decadently.

At this time, a girl came to the teenager, and Lin Xiaofeng, who was looking at the starry sky, did not notice those. Hello." The girl greeted Lin Xiaofeng. Are you talking to me? No way, there are still people like me who greet me? It's ridiculous.' Lin Xiaofeng felt funny.

"Hello, my name is Sally." Sally still sits and introduces herself. Are you talking to me?" Lin Xiaofeng didn't look at Sally and asked lightly. Oh yeah, otherwise how could it be by your side? Sally said. Ha ha, is such a useless waste as me worth coming to talk to? Lin Xiaofeng said with a smile.

"No, I think you are very attractive." Sally said. Don't joke, okay? Am I attractive? Is a waste like me attractive? Lin Xiaofeng sat up and looked at Sally. You are not a waste, and you are also very attractive. Sally said with a smile. Where is it charming? Lin Xiaofeng asked.

"Your clothes are very handsome, and your watches, necklaces and so on are so handsome." Sally said with a smile. Is that right? Do these add up to me?" Lin Xiaofeng asked. Yes, that's right." Sally said with a smile. Is that right? Thank you for your praise. I feel much better after hearing you say that. Well, I'm going back." Lin Xiaofeng said that he stood up and planned to leave, but he remembered something and walked to Sally.

"That Sally, can we exchange mobile phone numbers?" Lin Xiaofeng asked. OK." Sally smiled and answered that after the two exchanged mobile phone numbers, Lin Xiaofeng left.

Walking on the street at night, Lin Xiaofeng felt a little funny when he remembered that. There are also women like me who will come to talk to me. Ha ha, what am I? That kind of thing is ridiculous. Lin Xiaofeng smiled sadly and put his left hand on his forehead and scratched his hair. Walking silently on the street, looking at the whole city as if it were not as prosperous as the past as falling flowers.

'The end of the world... Come on, I don't want to live like this anymore.' Lin Xiaofeng wanted to walk to his door and open the door. Lying silently ** looking at the ceiling, recalling what happened to him.

On October 15, 2012, Lin Xiaofeng went out of his home to work with hope. He was fired less than three days after work, because his work was very clumsy and a little incompetent.

On October 20, 2012, Lin Xiaofeng, who was unconvinced by fate, went to find a job again, but was fired again. Because he was a novice, he was a little clumsy, but no one was willing to help him. He went for help, but no one paid attention to him.

On November 14, 2012, Lin Xiaofeng applied for the job again, but his name seemed to have spread all over, and he was kicked out by the boss as soon as he came to the house. Lin Xiaofeng, who was depressed, walked silently on the street.

I met Sally on the night of November 15, 2012. Thinking back, Lin Xiaofeng felt very uncomfortable, but the only relief was that she met Sally. When people fell into despair, sometimes a subtle inspirational look of others could bring up infinite courage.

November 16, 2012

In the morning.

Lin Xiaofeng sorted out his mood and walked out of the door, but in front of his house, he found that Sally was actually waiting for him at the door, which made Lin Xiaofeng very surprised. Why are you here?" Lin Xiaofeng asked strangely. I also went home last night, but I didn't expect you to live so close to me. Did you see the house over there? That's my home. I wanted to come and say hello to you, but I didn't expect you to come out. Sally said with a smile.

"This should be a legendary fate." Lin Xiaofeng said with a smile. What's the matter with me?" Lin Xiaofeng asked. Nothing. I just want to see you." Sally said with a smile. What's good for me, a piece of shit. You can't do anything. You can't do anything. Lin Xiaofeng smiled, as if the whole world had lost its color.

"Why don't you have any self-confidence?" Sally asked. Confident, funny." Lin Xiaofeng said. You can't lose self-confidence like this." Sally said, "It's hard to finish at the beginning. Find someone to help you." Ha ha, in this indifferent world, who will care about you if you can't do well? Who will help you? Everyone thinks that if they live a good life, everything will be fine. I have been disappointed in the world. Lin Xiaofeng said.

"You can't give up like this. Although the world is constantly changing, you can't generalize like this." Sally said. It's not that I generalize, but those are what I have experienced in this world. Lin Xiaofeng said. There are also good people." Sally said.

"Facts speak louder than words." Lin Xiaofeng said. Well, I don't want to argue with you about this. What are you going to do next? What are you going to do?" Sally asked. I don't know. I plan to go out again and use the remaining money to do some goods to do business. Lin Xiaofeng said.

Is that right? How much money do you have to do business? Sally asked. My parents' legacy has been left to me. Lin Xiaofeng said. Heritage... means..." Sally said carefully. ...That's what you think." Lin Xiaofeng doesn't want to say more. Well... Why don't we be friends and I'll help you?" Sally smiled energetically, and Sally's smile was as dazzling as the sun in Lin Xiaofeng's eyes.

"Ye-huh... okay, thank you." Lin Xiaofeng said gratefully. That's it. So what kind of goods are you going to get? Sally asked. I don't know if I'm going to go to the wholesale market. Lin Xiaofeng said. Are you really not even sure what you plan to sell and plan to do business? Aren't you afraid of being cheated? Sally said.

"It doesn't matter. Anyway, I'm just a waste. I don't care about those." Lin Xiaofeng said.