Chapter 5

"I still recommend that you receive treatment, even if it's only more than a year."

"It's dead to live for more than a year after receiving treatment, and it's also dead after living for three months without treatment. It's just a difference in time. It's just an increase in physical and mental pain. Give me a painkiller." Gu Yu said slowly, "Oh, by the way, if someone comes to ask me about my situation, you can avoid stomach cancer as much as possible. I don't want my friends and family to know."

There are no family and friends, only Ye Nan.

When I came out of the hospital, I went straight to the department store and picked out a few clothes for myself. The winter seemed to be over. Recently, it has become a little warmer, but it is still so cold that people are unwilling to reach out.

I went to the children's area to buy some gifts, and I plan to bring them to the children the next day as a gift.

"Hello?"

"Where are you?"

"I'm in the department store."

"Do you want me to pick you up?"

"Okay, I bought a lot of things. I can't lift them alone. I just want to call you."

"Well, you just wait for me at the door." Just as I was about to hang up, I suddenly remembered something, "Stay in the door and don't come out. It's cold outside."

"I know."

Looking at the passers-by and hurriedly passing by in front of them, they should have their own destination. Among them, the lover of the family may make a phone to urge him to go home quickly, or it may be that a big boss is explaining all kinds of precautions to himself, or it may be that a little third and a little four are coquettish with him. He said coquettishly, "Honey, Chanel has a new product again."

There are many high-rise buildings and dazzling neon lights all over the streets and alleys, although it is only 4:36 Beijing time now.

"What are you thinking about?" Ye Nan knocked on Gu Yu's head.

"I'm wondering if the handsome Ye met some beautiful woman and was delayed on the road." Gu Yu touched his head.

"How do you know?" Ye Nan smiled and took the bag in Gu Yu's hand, "Won't you put it first?" Isn't it tiring to carry so many things?"

"Ah? Oh, I'm not tired." Gu Yu looked at a pale red strangulation mark on his hand that was strangled by the bag. Why didn't he feel the pain just now?

"Fool, let's go home."

"Hmm."

In the car.

"Just now, there was a traffic jam because of the rush hour."

"Hmm."

"I haven't met any beautiful women."

"Hmm."

"Xiao Yu, you won't be angry, will you?"

"I'm so stupid. Why should I be angry? It's just that my hand is so painful to be strangled by the bag."

"Let you not have a long memory next time."

"Remember it. It's a lot of talk."

"What do you want to eat at night?"

"Hmm~? Shall we go to eat steak?

"Go out to eat?"

"Hmm. I don't want to cook. My hands hurt.

"I don't want to do it."

"You don't taste good."

"Gu Yu!"

"Okay, okay, let's go home and eat what you made."

"What do you want to eat?"

"Hmm~? I bought some hairy crabs. Well, but I don't like hairy crabs.

"If you don't like it, why do you buy it?"

"Because you like to eat."

"Let's go eat steak."

"Didn't you say you went home to do it?"

"I suddenly don't want to do it again."

"Ye Nan!"

"Hmm?"

"I want two steaks!"

"Good!"

I've been playing games with children every day recently.

Gu Yu likes children very much, and he has also asked Ye Nan.

"Ye Nan, shall we adopt a child?"

"No."

"Why? Children are so cute!"

"It's so noisy."

"I won't let him disturb your work. I'll take him."

"But I don't want others to share the time you spend with me."

In this way, Gu Yu was subdued by Ye Nan, and he never mentioned the adoption of the child in front of Ye Nan again. However, if you don't mention it, it doesn't mean that Gu Yu doesn't like it. Every time he sees someone else's lovely child, he can't help looking at it more, and then turns his head to Ye Nan beside him, but Ye Nan doesn't look at it, which makes Gu Yu very frustrated every time.

It has been two months.

There is no discomfort. There is only one month left before the doctor's so-called three-month deadline. Ye Nan's birthday is coming soon. What kind of gift should I buy?

I stroll around the mall, but I can't find a suitable one.

Even so, I still fell in love with rolexdeepsea before passing by the watch cabinet.

It must look good on Ye Nan's hand.

Please ask the waiter to pack it up. When he was about to leave after paying the money, he felt dizzy and fell in front of the counter.

I don't remember how long I slept. I only knew that when I woke up, Ye Nan, who was untidy in front of her, had been holding her hand and her eyes were full of anxiety.

"Xiao Yu? Xiaoyu, are you awake?! Doctor! Doctor!"

"Ye Nan, don't quarrel." Gu Yu pressed Ye Nan's hand.

"Xiao Yu, do you feel uncomfortable? Huh?"

"No, I'm fine, Ye Nan, don't talk, okay?"

"Good! I don't talk. I'm here. Remember to tell me if you need anything.

Gu Yu nodded weakly and looked at the ceiling with empty eyes.

"Ye Nan, I'm so hungry."

"Are you hungry? I'm going to buy something for you. What do you want to eat?

"I can't eat it."

"..."

"Would you like to hug me?" He was interrupted by Gu Yu before he could speak.

Ye Nan got up and sat on the edge of the bed, picked up Gu Yu and fell on his shoulder.

"Ye Nan, I can't bear to part with you. I really can't bear to part with you..."

Ye Nan doesn't know what she should do at this time. His heart is bleeding. No, his heart has been blurred by the knife. Gu Yu, do you know how uncomfortable I am like you?

"Ye Nan, I really can't bear to part with you!"

"Cry, cry hard! I'm here!" Ye Nan's voice was already hoarse. He was more uncomfortable than Gu Yu. God, why did you do this to me? Even if you want me to live for ten years or 20 years, please let go of Gu Yu, okay? He is just a child. He was just brought into this world that is not favored by the world. It's all my fault, but why do you punish Gu Yu? Why! God! Can you open your eyes, please?! Why do you want to let the corrupt officials go unpunished, but refuse to let go of my Gu Yu?! If you still have some conscience, please spare Gu Yu, okay?!

"Ye Nan, I don't want to leave you yet, I really don't want to!" Hold it tight, hold it tight again!

The whole room was full of Gu Yu's sobs and grief. The snow outside the window also seemed to feel Gu Yu's grief and hid back to the sky. The hazy weather is so depressing that people can't breathe.

I don't know how long I cried. When I was tired, I lay on Ye Nan's shoulder and fell asleep.

Gu Yu, why can't I share even a little pain for you?

Put down Gu Yu and cover him with the quilt. When he wanted to pull out the hand held tightly by Gu Yu, he was grabbed more firmly by Gu Yu. He took off his shoes and lay beside Gu Yu and hugged him. He lost weight again.

It's not that Ye Nan doesn't know, but he doesn't want to expose it.

Even if the hospital is dark, how can appendicitis be called stomach cancer?

Returning to the original hospital, he was sure that it was stomach cancer, and then returned to the hospital where Gu Yu was diagnosed with appendicitis and came up with evidence. Dr. Chen told Ye Nan the whole story.

"Doctor, I want to ask you to do me a favor."

"You said."

"Let me have a fake operation."

"Fake surgery?"

"I have stomach cancer and don't want to drag down my lover. I left him, but I found that these days without him, my mind is full of him. I'm worried about whether he eats on time today, whether he works well, and whether he works overtime until two or three o'clock in the morning at night."

"..."

"Doctor, just think of me begging you to do something good. Can you help me?"

"But..."

"Money is not a problem. As long as you are willing to help me, I am willing to pay for any medical equipment."

"This..."

"Doctor, I beg you. He is really very important to me. I really can't live without him. Although I know it's very selfish. When I left him at that time, I wanted him to forget me as soon as possible, but I was wrong. Even if he forgets the use of me, I can't forget him at all."

"You get up first." Dr. Chen came forward to help Gu Yu, who was kneeling on the ground.

"Please promise me!"

"Okay, okay, I promise you, I promise you."

Gu Yu, why are you so stupid? Do you want me to forget you? Why don't you just give me a knife?

Even if I die, I don't want to forget you.

Gu Yu is still unwilling to receive treatment.

"Ye Nan, I'm afraid of pain."

"Good boy, I'm here."

"I'm still afraid."

"But..."

"Ye Nan, the weather is fine today. Shall we go out for a walk?"

The weather is very good, and the long-lost sun has come out.

Spring is coming.

"Ye Nan, I want to go to Central Square."

"But you are like this."

"I'm fine."

"Then let's go in and change our clothes."

Looking in the mirror, his face was really pale, and Gu Yu couldn't help smiling bitterly.

"Ye Nan, I think you should be a little whiter, and then you will be more handsome."

"Isn't I white enough now?"

"Uh-huh~" Gu Yu shook his head. "That's not true, but you see, if you walk with me, shouldn't you be whiter?"

It should be whiter. No, the all-white person should be myself. Gu Yu, don't be so happy, okay? I will only feel more uncomfortable if you do this.

"Let's go, let's go."

There are not many people in Central Square.

"Ye Nan, shall we sit there?"

"Three years ago, we sat on this bench after we came out of the Ye family."

Yes, it's this bench. I also sat here and got drunk the night I learned that you had stomach cancer.

"Do you remember? At that time, you held my hand tightly, just like this. Gu Yu stretched out his hand to hold Ye Nan, but his strength was so small. Ye Nan grabbed him, "You seem to be afraid that I will run away."

Yes, I'm afraid. I'm very afraid. I'm afraid in the past, and I'm afraid now.

"I really want to say that you are stupid. How can I run away? It's too late to stay by your side."

Gu Yu looked at the fountain in the square in front of him. The pigeon on the side was bowing its head and pecking, leaning its head against Ye Nan's shoulder.

"But now I'm really going to run away and leave you."

Ye Nan didn't say anything, but held Gu Yu's hand tighter.

"Bear by the way, I bought you a birthday gift."

Gu Yu took out the watch from his pocket.

"I may not be able to wait to tell you happy birthday on your birthday, so let's say it now."

"Happy birthday, Ye Nan."

A tear, quietly falling, hit Gu Yu's face, and the chrome was painful.

"Ye Nan, don't cry. What does the big man look like?"

"Hmm." Ye Nan answered.

"What a good boy." Gu Yu smiled and smiled with all his strength.

"Ye Nan, I'm so sleepy. I'll sleep for a while and remember to wake me up later."

"Don't sleep, talk to me."

"But I'm so sleepy. Is there anything you can't say until I wake up?"

"I can't."

"Then what do you want to say to me?" Gu Yu was really sleepy. He kept trying to keep his eyes open from closing.

"I have bought the land in the suburbs."

"Hmm."

"We will move there in the future."

"Good..."

"We also built a large swimming pool in front of the courtyard as you said."

"..."

"We will take the golden retriever at home for a walk every day in the future."

"..."

"Xiao Yu?"

"..."

"Xiao Yu?"

"Uh-huh..." What a weak voice, so small that it can hardly be heard.

"It's cold here. Shall we go back to sleep?"

"Hmm..."

He picked up Gu Yu horizontally and walked to the parking space.

"Husband, if there is a next life, I still want to love you."

No matter how low the voice was, it still came into Ye Nan's ears. His nose was sore, and his vision began to become blurred. The temperature of Gu Yu lying in his arms became lower and lower, until Gu Yu's hand slipped Ye Nan's shoulder.

The tears in his eyes flowed, biting his lips tightly and looking forward firmly.

"Honey, I'll wait for you in the next life!"

Ye Nan, don't be sad. Even if I leave you, you have to believe that my heart is still with you. Don't be able to accompany me so early. I still have my parents here. I told them our story. They are very gratified and thank you very much for taking care of me in the past three years. If you have a chance, go back to Ye's house. Without me, Ye's father will not be angry with you. Don't be stubborn, okay? Be obedient and go back and admit your mistake to them. If you can, I really hope you can forget me and marry a beautiful girl. It's just that I'm so stupid that I forgot to go through the divorce procedures with you, but I believe Father Ye will handle this matter. If you get married and have children in the future, can you name the child Xu? Mu Yu, take your wood, my feather, it seems that I still take advantage of it, because you only take one side, and I take it all.

Ye Nan, if there is an afterlife, I want to be a girl, so that I can fall in love, get married and have children with you openly. You don't have to get along with the Ye family because of me, and you don't have to be looked at by everyone strangely because of me.

Ye Nan, if there is an afterlife, I will definitely choose to love you without hesitation, whether I am a man or a woman.

Ye Nan, I love you.

Gu Yu