heart language

Fang Jun: There are many things I want to pursue in my life, so much that I feel heavy. I have few friends because I feel that the people around me do not meet the standard of being my friends. I like Yi Xueer. I had this idea when I saw her for the first time. That feeling, I understand that it will not change. I am a persistent person. Even if I think it is wrong, I will persistently pursue it. I know that there is no result, and I know that it will only hurt myself, but I still persistently pursue it. Because of my persistent personality, I have also done wrong and have been criticized by my relatives and friends. I have been wrong. I have said to myself that maybe I will regret as people say, but I will not complain about anything, because it is my own decision.

I once thought that I might be a person who would bring misfortune to others, because since I remembered, my relatives around me have left me one by one.

When I was five years old, my aunt passed away. She had a strange disease. I heard that she had been infected since I was born. That disease has been tormenting her for five years, and finally dragged her to another world.

At the age of six, my grandfather left me. His death has nothing to do with me, because he is old and will always die when he is old. I think so. But the villagers didn't say so. They said, "Look, Fang Jun's grandfather was fine yesterday. He washed clothes and cooked, and hugged Fang Jun. I didn't think about it, so I went to report today."

When I was seven years old, my grandmother left, and I didn't know the real sadness until that year. When my grandfather died, I didn't shed a tear, because I didn't have much affection for him, even if he loved me very much. However, when I was seven years old, I understood feelings and love, so when my grandmother left, I was particularly sad and cried to death. I remember that there seemed to be a strangely dressed witch in our village at that time, and then she was arrested, saying that she was superstitious about feudalism or something. At that time, she said something that I can't forget in my life, "If you cry again, your grandfather will cry to death. You little thing, I didn't see that you are quite good at it!" Her words suddenly made the whole village realize that it was me!

As the witch said, my grandfather also went there. I was eight years old that year.

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My life was mixed with death, and my relatives kept leaving me. Until I was 19 years old, my father also died in a car accident. At that time, I suddenly had an idea that it would be better if it was me who died. Yes, from the age of five, if only I had died.

There is a saying in the book that I remember clearly, "Existence is truth!"

I don't understand what my existence is for, but since I'm still alive, I have to do my duty. My father has passed away, and I can't leave my mother alone, so I exist to make my mother a better life.

I gave up college and chose Shenzhen, all for my mother, so that she can live a better life.

Until I met her - Yi Xueer.

She attracted me deeply. I don't deny that I like her. If she asks, "Do you like me?" Then I will say without hesitation, "I like you!" But I understand that she won't ask like this, so I haven't said these words.

Yi Xueer: I like white, pure white, white like a sign of purity. This color makes me feel very warm without any stains. But white things are fragile. A small flying insect and a small drop of water can stain it, so I think the more pure the thing is, the more it needs protection.

I want to find someone who can protect me, and I want to find someone who likes me, loves me, and can give me happiness. But in the vast sea of people, I don't know where to go. Where should I look for it? So I can only wait for the arrival of Prince Charming in my mind.

Until his appearance, his appearance did not bring me anything. At first, he didn't even make me care too much. But after getting along with each other for a long time, I found that he had a very charming charm, which had made me unable to get into it. At that moment, I understood what love was, and I realized that I fell in love with him.

Fang Jun is a boy worth liking. Unlike other boys, he is caring and considerate. He is a good man in the 21st century.

Although I like it, I'm a girl, and I should always keep the girl's reserved, so if he doesn't say he likes me, I will never say it first.