Eopinth Chapter 22: I'm not born, I'm old 3

Long live immortality, no one does not yearn for it, no one does not look forward to it, or alchemy to find medicine, or to visit immortals and ask questions. For thousands of years, people in the world have been exploring hard, and even abandoning their wives and children for immortality.

Life with heaven and earth? That's just a joke. If it becomes true, everyone around you will die, and you won't be afraid or lonely? After reading all the joys and sorrows of the world and the ups and downs of life, I'm afraid it's not easy to ask for another death.

Won't grow old and won't die.

No, that's by no means happiness. It's not so much that you won't be old and won't die. In the past hundred years and thousands of years, everything has changed, but people seem to have been abandoned. What they are familiar with has become the history of bamboo carving silk, and what they love has turned into tears in the midnight dream, standing alone in the rapid river.

No matter how sad, no matter how painful, no matter how unbearable, you can't die. Don't die. Death is a betrayal of the original wish.

Do you still want to die in the end?

Unfortunately, I can't go back.

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The hot tea was handed over, and Ji Yufu took it with both hands with a smile on her face: "I think the girl is proficient in her movements. I think Tanyi must have been taken care of by you a lot in the capital."

He thought but smiled, and quickly rinsed the tea set neatly.

"Tan Yi is already my third apprentice. Unfortunately, what kind of education is appropriate, but I have been teaching repeatedly." Seeing her without saying anything, Ji Yufu continued on the topic that both of them are familiar with. "I always don't know how to treat people. It's like in those years... I'm sorry, I don't mean to excuse myself when I say this.

Si Si Si sat down with his hands and said indifferently, "I don't know what happened in those years. Whether you excuse yourself or not depends on your conscience."

The man in black looked a little helpless. His slender fingers close his forehead and said, "It's been so many years, and it's meaningless to lie. If you are not polite, even if you are angry, what can you do with me?

There was silence in the hall. Si Si looked down at his hand. Ji Yufu gently blew the heat dissipation and tasted the Poyanzhu, a specialty of Yanzhu Mountain.

"I was sent here when I was about six years old and followed my master to practice martial arts. According to the rules of the Fuqin Palace, each person was allowed to lead two disciples at the same time. I was lucky to be left behind by the master. At that time, I didn't think much about it, and I didn't know what my father wanted to do. I just practiced every day." When the tea was over, he began to talk in a reminiscence.

"When I was thirteen years old, my master received a letter from my father, saying that my mother missed me and asked me to go home for a walk, so I returned to Dingkui. After meeting my parents, I asked Yu Ci, because I knew that he had always been in poor health. I don't know if he has improved over the years and whether he can go to school. My mother's eyes dodged and refused to say it clearly, but my father only ordered me not to go to the West Courtyard. Yuci was two years younger than me. He came from his father's side room. His biological mother actually died a few years after he was born, but at that time, Yuci was sent to the West Courtyard to raise him alone, so he may not know it. He was always very sick and sick. Maybe his father decided so because he was afraid of passing the disease on to others.

"Before I leave home to worship my teacher, I can visit him every once in a while, so I don't take my father's orders seriously. One day, when my parents go to the temple to fulfill their wishes, I want to go in and see him."

Si Si looked up: "In the end, I still haven't been there?"

Ji Yufu nodded slightly and said in a melancholy voice, "Shuer - my little man, he stopped me and said that he was going to tell me about Yuci over the years. He asked me to listen to it and then decide whether to go or not. I thought it would be good to listen to it. I was not in a hurry to see Yuci for a while, so I went back to the room with him. He said something terrible to me. He probably thought I would be scared, but he didn't expect me to sneak out of the room in the dark that night. However, my son Mo Ruo's father, my father was waiting for me at the gate of the West Courtyard. I was scolded, but I still couldn't get in.

A horrible thing? Si Si was curious, but he didn't intend to ask. Listen to him continue.

"At that time, I deliberately pretended to be regretful and promised that I would never go again. I just wanted to wait for my father to relax his vigilance and come back another day. Unexpectedly, Yu Ci was sent out of the house the next morning. I chased out without wearing my shoes. The porter kindly told me that the second young master was carried into the carriage and sent away before dawn. As for where he went, he didn't know.

He pressed his eyebrows and said, "Since then, I have never seen him again. I have been locked up for three days because of running barefoot. When I can go out, the whole family has been banned. Whoever dares to tell me about Yuci will be kicked out of Xuanzhou. The book was also driven somewhere because he said something he shouldn't have said.

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There is a thick blanket in the carriage, and there is a stove heating in the corner. If it hadn't been for the bumps, I wouldn't have thought it was an exile.

The length of the five fingers of the hand is different, and the nine sons of the dragon are different. Even if they are brothers, the situation can be very different.

The air in the carriage was very turbid. I wanted to ask Mouran to open the window, but I couldn't help coughing a few times. Mourning squatted by the fire and almost rolled out of the car when she heard me coughing.

Why is he lively and I can't help but be weak? Why did he leave home to practice martial arts, and I leave home to give others peace?

I heard it all. Dear father, if possible, I really want to ask you in person whether I am your son or not. I have been with my sick bed all year round. Have you ever really cared about me? I'm a sick man, a demon who can kill people, a monster who should be locked in the dark, and a useless person who can't heal at all. Is this all you say to your own son?

In order to cut off the idea of my eldest brother coming to see me, you cruelly sent me out of the house and exiled me to a distant place with an unknown destination.

Is that cruelty? Maybe for you, it's just a trade-off. It has nothing to do with father-son filial piety. Giving up on me is as easy as giving up a grain of rice and a piece of grass.

And you, the big brother I miss, Ji Yufu, your departure during the day made me angry. At night, I swore in front of my father that I would never come to see me again, and I would never care about my life or death. Why do you hate me so much, just because of my sick body, humiliating the good reputation of the Ji family's good medicine merchant for hundreds of years?

My father has always been ruthless to me. I don't think I need to beg for his mercy. Only you, the eldest brother who is better than me, the eldest brother who is better than me, and tramples on my eldest brother fiercely. I will never forgive you!

It turns out that you used to be good to me, but it's just pity for me. The joy you bring to me is just to set off the difference between you and me. You are really my father's good son and my good brother. For the future of the Ji family, you can kill your own brother.

I, Ji Yuci, swear to the sky that as long as there is a mouthful of water and a grain of rice, I will live. As long as I live in this world, I will hate you and turn my resentment into the thunder of spring, the scorching sun in summer, the rainstorm in autumn, and the cold wind in winter, I will torture you endlessly!

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Today is Dad's birthday... May he always be young!