Chapter 35 Asking for Pregnancy
The lingering moment is as long as ten thousand years, but as short as a second. In a trance, he has slowly nibbled along my neck. A layer of pimples floated on my body. The strange feeling made my body tremble slightly. His hands tightly grasped the corners of his clothes. His breath was long and hot, like flames. It usually burns my fair skin.
His breathing is different from his people. His lips are so cold and humane. The breathing was warm and hot, spraying on my neck, making me more and more weak. A very strange feeling gushed out of my body. The pores under my body were noisy and wanted more. The moaning was uncontrollably overflowing. I felt his body shaken, and then left my body, and my eyes were wide. He looked at me in confidence, as if he was not looking at me.
I was stunned and thought of a possibility in an instant. With that possibility, an extreme disappointment, extreme anger, and a feeling of being deceived almost made me lose my mind. I raised my hand and waved his stunned face, and with the crisp sound, my heart also cracked.
I raised my head and controlled the tears from coming out of my eyes, but those mottled tears were like the flood of the breach of the dike. No matter how I control it, it still fell drop by drop like broken beads. I have never been so sad and decadent. Even if I was abandoned by my mother, even if I was thrown to Yue as a commodity by Xiuyuan, even if I was captured in an uninhabited valley by Yu Qingshu, and even if I was declared war by Shen Weijun, I have never been so powerless and didn't even have the strength to fight back.
I should not be proud, not a substitute, let alone an endless substitute. Why did you hurt me so much? Why?!
"Not yet!!" He took my arm so hard that it seemed that it could be crushed with a little force. I thought that the place he pinched was definitely blue. Just why, why can't I feel any pain? Am I too sad, or am I subconsciously willing to be hurt by him like this? Would you like to be a substitute for that woman?
Since when will my love be so humble and compromise? Is it just because Junyou is a man who loves him like his father? But he didn't fall in love with me? Why should I love him and be attracted by his back?
I held his hand, raised my hand and gently stroked his back, so straight, as if I would never fall down. Junyu, I'm so tired, but the scene has begun. Can I still quit? I put my hand around him and cried loudly for the first time.
I, Fu Wei, am proud like a princess. I worship in my bones and want a single-minded man, but they are never single-minded people. In front of the gorgeous building, the back quietly imprinted my heart and lived firmly there. No one could take it away, and no one could take it. And it is like a shackle of fate, firmly restraining me without resistance. Maybe I should know how to escape, but I am still willing to immerse myself in this dream and never wake up.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." I muttered this sentence unconsciously. I'm sorry, Junyou, I shouldn't have hit you on impulse. This is more painful than using a knife to delay me. Haven't I seen the result of Shen Weijun? Why haven't I controlled it yet? Is this love? Embezzlement is not allowed, plunder is not allowed, and substitution is not allowed, but it is still willing to be invaded and plundered and replaced...
His hand stopped at my waist, and his breathing was as plain as before I came in, without any ups and downs, as if everything had happened just now. The breath was light in my ear, as if integrated into the cold air without any heat. And my hands have been frozen and stiff, as warm as a stone.
"It's all right." He said lightly, with an invable coldness in his voice, which was three minutes colder than the roaring north wind outside.
I looked up at him in a daze. His pupils were dark, as if they were frozen into an ice field. No matter how much I looked at him, I couldn't find the feeling of indulgence before. I let go of my hand holding him and stood there stunned. When I put my hand on my lips, a warm breath came out of my mouth, which made me more aware of what had just happened.
I lowered my eyelids and whispered, "Didn't the prince say that there was something to discuss with my concubine? Please tell me." I think we can never go back to the past. Although it was cold, it inadvertently revealed our concern for each other in the details. Now, it is the real respect for each other. He is the prince and I am the princess.
But this result is not what I want. I just want a Junyou's heart...
He was silent for a while, turned his head and looked out of the window. The heavy snow fluttered like willow catkins. I hope you can do it for your pregnancy. After a pause, he said, "I have given you a medicine, and you will have pregnancy-like symptoms within two months. When you give birth to you eight months later, you will also produce at the same time. I will bring her child to you, and her child will be dead.
I closed my eyes in pain and smiled bitterly. That's true! Starting from the glass of wine in the Hehuan Hall, the conspiracy between him and Shen Weijun has been staged. He can't control Shen Weijun. He can only use this method. Am I forced to use it? Oh, don't you want to add another rival to that unknown woman? It's ridiculous. I was glad that he would leave the table for me, perhaps because I already had a little difference in his heart. It turned out that what happened last night had already been predicted by him.
It's terrible! This is the enemy of our State of Wu. Xiuyuan, you are so calculating, will you think of what kind of person Junyu is? I sneered in my heart. It's right that the future emperor of Yue is Junxuan. And my value will soon be lost! In the face of such an unknown and powerful enemy, what will be the future of Wu?
I looked at Junyou and nodded without any expression on his face. Everything is not so important. Since no one can replace that woman's position in your heart, let me try to give full play to my final value. Junyou, not only for you, but also for my father and brother in the State of Wu, and Xiaobai on Kunlun Mountain. How are you all?
"Find an experienced person to take care of me from tomorrow..." My face blushed slightly and continued, "After all, I don't have any experience." It's funny. Let me play a pregnant woman without any experience of love between men and women. How can Jun Yu see that I am fully qualified for this role? Is it just because I am his princess? Or is it because of his confidence in my love for him?
After saying that, I turned around and left, leaving him with a straight back. At that moment, I had an illusion that no matter how heavy the burden weighed on me, I would not fall down. Did Junxuan at that time also feel the same way?
After returning from Junyu, there was no drowsiness. Before leaving, I had sent my heart to rest outside, so I didn't disturb them when I came back. After opening the door, a huge and warm breath came, like my father's arms, always so warm, but I don't know if I will have another chance to enjoy it again in my life.
Go to the dressing table, where there was the paper and pen I used before, which were carefully grinded, and the tip of the wolf's pen was stained with thick black ink, which lightly outlined the outline of his father. There is no news from Wu. I'm really worried.
Jun Yu's task seems simple, but in fact, I'm not sure that I am fully competent. Reach out and touch the position of the lower abdomen. Is the child going to be conceived from here, and the previous feeling of vomiting needs to be experienced during pregnancy? It's so painful. I smiled and burst into tears, but there was a faint joy in my heart.
Anyway, I was conceived by my mother. Maybe she didn't like me after birth, but before I was born, would she also stand in front of the dresser and look at herself in the mirror and gently touch her lower abdomen? I must have been very happy at that time, because my mother loved me at that time.
When I think that my mother once loved me, the previous loss was washed away, and there was a faint joy and happiness in my heart. I think the next two months will make me understand that my most important people once loved me. Tears slipped down the corners of the eyes to the ground, as if the crackling sound was heard when falling to the ground.
The second brother said, don't hurt in the name of love, because it will not only not get it, but also destroy it. Junyu, I can't bear to destroy you, so I won't hurt you. I will try my best to help you do what you want, but if you really don't love me in the future, please let me go when you find her.
Maybe at this time, I no longer ask for extravagant, because I already know the future, but I am still willing to help, just because I want to achieve it. In those years, I wanted to fulfill others, but I never thought of fulfilling myself. Is my success self-seeing pain or trampling on other people's heartbreak?
When I woke up the next day, it was almost noon, and no one called me to get up because I was not good. Mu Xin, who heard the sound, came in with a faint smile, and the corners of his eyes and eyebrows showed happiness.
I forced a smile and said, "What's wrong with you two? What good thing happened?" I try my best to make myself happy, because I am really happy to know that Fu is pregnant, and she should be happy at this moment. But why is it so difficult? It's like being forced to walk on the road full of thorns, with blood all over your hands and feet, and the barbs along the way have been submerged in the endless blood, and the retreat is blood red.
I asked vaguely, and my eyes turned red and hugged me and cried, "Princess, you have finally survived." Mu Xin also nodded with red eyes. They know that I like Junyou, and even everyone in this house knows it.
I was stunned and immediately said, "What the hell is going on?"
said vaguely, "The royal doctor invited by the prince just now told the prince that you were pregnant." After a pause, he wiped his tears and said, "But the princess, you came last month! It's really strange." He sobbed faintly and didn't feel that there was anything wrong with it. On the contrary, I seemed to think of something staring at me fiercely.