The eleventh time the heart stops like water

After Yan Yingchen left, I sent Ziqin and Huaishu to go to bed. Then a man sat down against the edge of the bed, put his head on his knees, and suddenly felt empty.

I don't know why I did this. Who am I angry with? Yan Xiu or Li? In fact, if I don't want to marry, who can force me?

Yan Yingchen said that I can no longer be Yi's side concubine. Why is he so sure? The original purpose of my move today is to disturb this pool of water. But what Nangong Xian finally said in the hall obviously did not intend to let me go so easily. Otherwise, why should Yan Xiu, Yan Wanru and Yan Liang be so angry?

Am I so irrational, is it just because of the sentence "marry Yi" yesterday? Will he say that? Is there something hidden? Suddenly, I remembered Nangong Yi's naughty smile when he passed in front of me, which was obviously a friendly and friendly smile.

At this point, my heart is like a mirror. Then I couldn't help smiling bitterly. I was so confused that I couldn't even figure out such a simple thing. Oh, in this way, it really blocked my life.

leaned his head against the edge of the bed behind him, took a long breath, and suddenly felt extremely tired. Since I came back here, everything has fallen on my head like raindrops without my defense.

I dare not think about the future, but I vaguely feel that the Yan family can't stay any longer, so it's better to make plans early.

Rub the already painful temple, slowly close your sour eyes, and gradually fall asleep in the dark.

When he slept in the middle of the night, he raised his hand and stroked a person's arm. Shocked, I didn't shout, because I smelled the faint fragrance of lilies on the man's body. Once upon a time, Xiang's owner was also in this room, staying with me all night.

My eyes adapted to the darkness and found that I was still sitting in front of the bed. He sat behind me, let me lean comfortably on him, and then circled me with his arms.

"Lion..." I moved and called out.

"I'm sorry." The uncontrollable bitterness in my heart made me only say these three words.

"Are you still blaming me?" Li's voice was slightly hoarse.

I shook my head and said, "I understand. I don't blame you."

"The eldest brother has asked his father to marry." After Li finished speaking, he subconsciously hugged me a little tighter.

"So, what about you?" I suddenly said, and Li's body stiffened when he heard the words, but he didn't answer me.

After a moment of silence, he said slowly, "If you want to marry someone in your life, that person can only be me." The king's domineering can't be concealed.

I didn't say anything more, just rubbed my head against him and quietly enjoyed such a heartless moment.

I don't know how long it took, and Li muttered, "Qier..."

"Hmm?" Answer lazily.

"One day, I will let you stand at the peak with me." Li's tone is firm.

"Lion, are you the man who can stand side by side with me?"

"Hmm?" A confused voice.

"Ha, it's nothing, it's just my own wishful thinking." I always forget that this is a world of male superiority and female inferiority.

"Qier, you don't have to do anything. You just need to stand behind me. No matter how big the storm is, I will block it for you." After all, he understood.

"Qinger, do you believe I will succeed?"

"Believe, of course I believe it, because it's you." This is the truth, because it is him. Li holds heavy troops and has great achievements, coupled with his own extraordinary wisdom and extraordinary demeanor, it is only a matter of time to win the throne.

Oh, the old drama of the court is finally going to be staged again. I won't get involved in it, will I? This is not the life I want, and can the man next to me really give me what I want? I can't help but doubt...

When Li saw that I didn't say anything for a long time, he asked me, "Qier, what are you thinking?"

"Nothing, I'm just wondering if you will also be the three palaces and six courtyards, seventy-two concubines in the future."

"Silly girl, some marriages are just political means. You are always the only one who can put it in my heart."

Although I have thought of the answer, I still "clucked" in my heart, and the desolate meaning gradually came to my mind.

Is he really a man worthy of my entrustment? Although I clearly know that in ancient times, it was normal for a man to have three wives and four concubines, let alone in the imperial family. Thinking of those sad women in the harem, I had a hint of retreating.

"Li, can I lie quietly for a while?" I don't know why, but I feel that Li and I will never have such a comfortable moment from now on.

"Hmm." Li hugged me a little tighter and let me lean back in a comfortable posture.

In fact, I don't feel any sleepy, and I can't calm down all the time. Although I didn't say anything about marrying Nangong Xian, I was still afraid. There was so much uncertainty about things in the world that no one could predict what would happen tomorrow.

I leaned against Li's body like that and nested obediently. Looking at the moonlight outside, I remembered the lyrics of "I sit here and watch time pass by."

After sitting for a long time, my body gradually became tired, so I closed my eyes. After a while, I felt Li get up gently, and then I was lightly hugged by him.

Li gently put me in **, sat next to me, and his slender fingers slipped across my cheek. Then I felt his breath pressing, and my soft lips imprinted a kiss on my forehead.

After about a cup of tea, I felt that Li left the bed and walked out, and then I opened my eyes slightly.

Looking at his slender back, I feel so familiar. It seems that a long time ago, Tang Yu had tears on his face and kissed my forehead, which was wet and cool.

Then he left resolutely. Before going out, Tang Yu said, "Xinyi, I love you." So we broke up. What a pretentious plot, like a tacky TV series at eight o'clock. But I remembered it at this time.

When he looked at Li again, he had already opened the door. When he crossed the threshold, he paused slightly, but then walked out without hesitation, as if he had never stopped.

Li and I will eventually embark on a fork in the road, right? He wants the whole world, but I want a husband who is the only one. If there is really a day of parting, when will it be?

The next day, the Holy Decree unexpectedly arrived at the Yan family, and I was also expected to be awarded the title of prince's side concubine. Unexpectedly, Yan Wanru was canonized as Princess Li. We got married together six months later.

In my heart is infinitely sad, Li, is this what you mean by political marriage? Indeed, no matter from what perspective, marrying Yan Wanru is better than marrying Wei Ziyin. After all, the power and foundation of the Yan family in the dynasty are stronger than the Wei family.

But where did you put me? You married Yan Wanru as the imperial concubine, and I am the prince's side concubine. Even if you ascend the throne, I will be just an old man.

I received the order to thank the emperor's kindness, and I saw that Yan Wanru couldn't hide her complacency in her eyes. Nangong Li and Yan Nianqing, have she heard of it before? If so, I am indeed a big joke now.

Ziqin picked me up from the ground. I shook my body and almost fell into Ziqin's arms. Fortunately, Yan Yingchen came over with an arrow and held my weak body.

"Dad, Nianqing was too tired yesterday. Can I send her back to rest first?" Yan Yingchen's warm voice sounded in his ear.

Yan Xiu still looked at us seriously, waved his hand and said nothing. But why did I see heartache and unbearance in his eyes? Did I read it wrong?

Yan Yingchen's powerful arm supported me and finally returned to the backyard. Instead of going straight back to my house, I went to Yan Yingchen's place. Because I don't want Huai Shu to see me so embarrassed for fear that he will worry,

"Brother... tell me, no matter who I marry, Li will marry Yan Wanru?" Yan Yingchen and I sat in the yard, and I tried my best to ask him calmly.

"Nian'er, it's better not to know some things." Yan Yingchen's face was solemn, looking at a green sound in the distance.

"A friend once said that it's not good for women to be too smart, but I'm not a smart woman."

"But why are Tang Yu and Li like this? I don't even have any room for fantasy. They directly turned my guess into reality and put it in front of me.

"In the face of this, do I still have to say 'thank you' gratefully?"

"Nian'er, you know, some things are not what you think."

"Brother, I know that Li wants me to marry Yi to protect me, right? But what's the use of these? No matter who my wife is, it's not his.

"In this chaotic world, why do you have to live so clearly and suffer for nothing? You have to believe that Li promised you, and he will do it.

"I don't want to be one of his many concubines, I don't want to wait for him every day, and I don't want to share a husband with other women. I don't want to become a bargaining chip that others threaten him one day. Brother, don't you understand this? This is the only reason why I and him can do it. Saying this, I suddenly felt relaxed, no longer wanted to cry, no longer wronged, and my heart was as calm as water.

"I really don't know you. Seeing you like this, it hurts to be a brother. Yan Yingchen sighed for a long time. I knew that he really loved me and felt very secure.

"Nian'er, even if people all over the world don't care about you, you still have a brother. You are my beloved sister forever."

"Yingchen, this sentence is enough with you." The first time I called him Yingchen, because I felt that he was more like a confidant and a friend to me.

Yan Yingchen was stunned when he heard the words, and then smiled and rubbed my long hair tied with silk ribbons.

Yan Yingchen has been accompanying me, reading and practicing calligraphy, listening to books and reading poems, and accompanying me to be busy in the kitchen.

I also kept looking at him and smiling. He smiled comfortably and looked good. However, Yan Yingchen's eyes still couldn't hide his worries and distress.

I rubbed against him and said with a smile, "Brother, you are so melancholy, like an old uncle. Be careful that you become ugly in the future and can't get a wife."

After hearing this, Yan Yingchen pretended to be angry and chased me all over the yard, threatening to discipline his disobedient sister. But my heart is warm. If only I could do this in the future, it would be great.