Huangquan-bloodthirsty

I hate the smell of blood, but I have to pretend to be bloodthirsty, because then others will be afraid of me. I like to see the frightened eyes of the weak when they see me, and the frightened eyes of the weak make me feel my existence. In the emptiness, that sense of existence is the spiritual pillar that I have been pursuing.

When I was a child, I was left in the back mountain by my father. Every day, my heart was full of fear and resentment. The resentment in my heart could only vent on the dead wood in the back mountain and cut down more trees, which was no longer the best way for me to vent. I suddenly want to try to kill people.

The sharp weapon in my hand finally took my life. It was a ruffian. He humiliated a woman. This was a normal thing in Fengdu City, but I killed that person because of this. Some people said that I was a child with a strong sense of justice. In fact, it was not. Only I understood that I just wanted to kill one. People play!

But after killing someone, I was afraid. The blood in my hands could not be washed. The disgusting smell drove me to spit out everything in my stomach.

My father still has that indifferent attitude after knowing it, and I hate it when he treats me like that! He doesn't care about anything about me. Now that I kill someone, he still doesn't care about me!

In the end, I lost. I couldn't compare with him. I asked him, "I killed someone. Don't you want to say a word?"

"If you want others to be afraid of you, you have to be cruel! You have to get used to blood, you have to get used to killing! In the future, there are many people you want to kill. If you have nothing to do, you'd better go to the back mountain to practice swords!" My father is still the cold eyes and the cold words.

"If you have nothing to do, you'd better go to the back mountain to practice sword!" One sentence broke my heart again.

Father is a person who pursues the ultimate in everything. Maybe he can only become stronger in his heart, without family affection and love, otherwise his mother would not die like that.

My mother was killed by my father as a bargaining chip. I was only eight years old that year, but that year's experience gave me a stronger mind than children of the same age. Because I understand that I can only rely on myself. My father is a person who doesn't even care about my mother's death, and he won't care about me.

Fathers always like to bet on people. No, not only fathers, but also people in Fengdu. However, his father didn't seem to win much. Everything in the family was lost, and his father was also covered with injuries, but he did not repent. Finally, he lost his mother as a bargaining chip. His mother was unwilling to be humiliated and committed suicide by others.

Since then, his father has become more indifferent, and he seems to be ruthless and single-minded to pursue the ultimate in swordsmanship.

Since then, his father's swordsmanship has been higher and higher, and no one in Fengdu has been his opponent.

Since then, my father has never been defeated. He killed as many people every day as the trees I cut down every day before I was nine years old, and sometimes even more than the trees I cut down.

In my heart, my father seemed to have become invincible after his mother died, but he finally died in the hands of a man named Li Ao.

That day, I witnessed my father's death, and I saw a crazier look than my father.

Blood! It always seems that I don't have it in my life. I hate blood. From the first person I killed, I felt sick when I saw blood.

But as my father said, "If you want others to be afraid of you, you have to be cruel!" You have to get used to blood, you have to get used to killing! There are many people you want to kill in the future.

I'm famous in Fengdu. Those righteous people who claim to be in the world can't tolerate me. They always come to kill me automatically.

So, I was no longer silent. I chose to avenge my father. I want to let people live in my fear. I want them to be afraid of me. I want them to tremble when they hear my name, so that my life can calm down.

But I seem to be wrong!

I didn't get any pleasure after killing Li Ao. On the contrary, I was really relieved after I was killed by a man named Liu Xinzheng.

At that moment, everything didn't matter. My father didn't care about me, because I was about to die, and my father was already dead.

However, I was resurrected! I want to die, but I am resurrected, and my brother ghost slave has someone waiting for him. I know he doesn't want to die, but he still dies.

And those people in Fengdu City, although they are not afraid of death, I know that they are just scaring others. In fact, they are the most afraid of death.

However, I survived who wanted to die, and they all died if they didn't want to die.

I was extremely angry when I saw the blood and corpses all over the city.

Why did you let me see so much blood? Why is my life always full of blood?

But I have no choice. Unexpectedly, I have life again, so I can't retreat, because my life was bought by them. They all cringe in Fengdu City and were looked down upon, so I will live a wonderful life instead of their lives after their death.

Blood, although disgusting, my life is doomed to be inseparable from blood, so I can only adapt to what I choose. I want to live stronger than others. Even if I don't like or even hate it, I will continue to pretend to be bloodthirsty. I just want others to be afraid of me.

This is even more so in the future. I want blood to surround me all the time, I want everyone to stay away from me, and I want this silence to punish my sins for surviving.