Chapter 296 Truth and Happiness
In the royal palace of the king of Luoyang, there is a small pond that irrigates the water of the Luo River, and the water is slow and clear. Before crossing, Chu Tianya's hometown was in the south, and he grew up by the river since he was a child. He has a heartfelt love for water, which is also one of the reasons why he chose this house.
After living in, Chu Tianya asked someone to clean up the small pond, dug out the sludge to attract live water, made the edge of the pool with stones, repaired the pavilion rockery and the stone scenery of Taihu Lake by the pond, and then raised some live fish.
After such a fiddling, the small pond suddenly glowed with a little vitality and aura. When he has nothing to do, Chu Tianya's biggest hobby is to lean on the Taihu stone chair by the pond, put on a bamboo hat to make a bowl of tea, take a southern water bamboo fishing rod, and fish by the pond.
At this moment, Chu Tianya's heart is always quite quiet and can leave all the troubles and trivial things behind. He often recalls the past and even thinks of his previous life while fishing. The two generations add up to about 30 years of life. At more than half of the time, he was an ordinary citizen. He lived a leisurely life. Although there were also troubles, he had never really experienced the test of life and death, let alone the country and the nation.
But in recent years, everything Chu Tianya has done has always been earth-shaking. Less often involves more than ten thousand lives, and more often involves the danger of the country and the nation.
How much power you have means how much pressure you have to bear. The string in Chu Tianya's heart is always tight, and the heavy pressure often makes him breathless. But in front of anyone, he can't show the slightest fatigue and cowardice. He has no choice but to stand up and move forward step by step.
Most of the time, Chu Tianya feels that he can't hold on any longer. He really wants to throw away this burden and live the leisurely life he is used to. For example, if you are a small businessman or a lander who is not too rich or short of money, you may have a good wife and full of worries, but there will never be stormy waves. After taking a full nap every day and then fishing leisurely, how comfortable such a life will be.
"Du..." There was a soft sound of water, and there was a fish bite hook, which directly dragged the buoy into the bottom of the water, and the fishing line was also tightened.
Chu Tianya's mind was not on fishing at all. However, he was pulled by the fish at the bottom of the water before he felt it, so he hurriedly got up and pulled the rod.
"Bah--"
With a crisp sound, the fishing line was broken.
"Fuck! You old man!"
Chu Tianya jumped up angrily, blushed and stared at the half of the fishing line shaking in the breeze, and cursed.
Xiao Linglong, who was resting in the pavilion not far away, saw it and couldn't help giggling, and her eyes narrowed.
Now Chu Tianya is more like an ordinary ordinary citizen, and even a little childish. His current expression and look must be invisible to outsiders. Otherwise, the image of the iron-blooded master Luoyang King will definitely be destroyed.
Xiao Linglong likes to see Chu Tianya like this. Because now he is the real him, an ordinary person, a man who has returned to himself. When he put on a delicate armor or gorgeous official robe, he was no longer him. He was just the king of Luoyang or the young Taishi of the Song Dynasty. He was the commander-in-chief of hundreds of thousands of soldiers and horses, and an incredible legendary horse in the eyes of the world.
"He's too tired." Xiao Ta, who was sitting next to Xiao Linglong, said inadvertently.
Xiao Linglong was slightly stunned and looked back at her sister with astonishment in her eyes.
"Am I wrong?" Xiao Ta smiled and said, "When a person can't be himself most of the time and can only hold a certain identity, he must be very tired. His life and life no longer belong to him. Ordinary is just an extravagant hope for him. He enjoys the most enviable power and wealth in the world, but he has lost the fun that any ordinary person can enjoy. God is actually fair to everyone.
"Why do you have so many emotions today?" Xiao Linglong asked indifferently, "Are you also recalling the road you have traveled?"
"Yes."
"Do you think it's worth it?"
Xiaota smiled slightly, and there was both free and bitterness in his smile. "When a person has no choice, it doesn't matter whether it's worth it or not. I am a useless woman; my fate has been decided since the day I was born. I have no choice but to be at the mercy of fate.
"Excuse." Xiao Linglong turned her face and said, "If I also convince myself with such an excuse, then I have either been buried in the loess, lucky, and have become Wanyan Zonghan's plaything. There is no such thing as 'no choice' in the world. Saying such words is just because of your cowardice and ignorance.
"What do you think I could have done at that time?" Xiao Ta sighed softly, "Dashi proposed to his father and wanted to marry you and me. My father has always been at peace with Dashi, but he can't resist Dashi's face, so he has to agree to marry a daughter. If you don't agree, I have to marry him - at that time, Dashi already held the military power, and our Xiao family could not afford to offend.
Xiao Linglong smiled and said nothing.
Xiaota took a deep breath, "Do you want to say that you actually wanted to marry him at that time, but with your pride, you don't want to share this man with me? Or do you think that you have always been the only one in Dashi's heart, but you didn't expect that he would marry us two sisters, which hurt you?
"That matter is meaningless to me. Please don't mention it again." Xiao Linglong replied easily and indifferently, leaned against the chair, squinted and looked at Chu Tianya by the pool with a smile, and said, "Now I have him. I'm very happy and satisfied."
"As for my father's death..." Xiaota took a deep breath. "At that time, I was also very hurt and angry. I tried to kill him for revenge, and I also tried to kill myself, but failed. In the end, I had to make a compromise, because I already had his flesh and blood in my stomach... Have you ever thought that it was not the other party's fault for who died in that coup under such circumstances at that time? In fact, Dashi was also very guilty and self-blaming at that time..."
"Have you said enough?" Xiao Linglong still didn't look at Xiao Ta, and there was a trace of coldness in her voice. "I have never seen anyone defend my father's enemies. No matter what the reason and reason, the father's hatred is sworn. It's okay if you don't want revenge. You're still here to open your eyes... Xiaota is not smoking. I'm really ashamed of you!!"
Xiaota was stunned and immediately shut up.
In her impression, this was almost the first time that Xiao Linglong called her name in person. It can be seen that Xiao Linglong is really a little angry.
Xiao Linglong glanced at Xiao Tower with a slanting eye, took a deep breath and said, "Please don't mention these things in the past. It has no other meaning except to add sadness and anger to our hearts. Now that I have a new life, I will try my best to cherish it. I will never forget the hatred of killing my father and the hatred of my family and country. If there is a chance, I will report it!"
Xiaota nodded silently and stopped talking.
"Are you wronged?" Xiao Linglong suddenly said, "Living with her own sister, there is a kind of depression and anger that can't be stretched under the shelter of others? You can continue to be your mother in Liaoning. Why do you have to volunteer to stay in Luoyang as a hostage?
"..." Xiao Ta didn't say anything and didn't dare to answer.
"Why don't you go back to Liaoning!" Xiao Linglong said.
Xiaota's body trembled slightly, "I can't go back!"
"Dashi doesn't want you?" Xiao Linglong sneered.
"No..." Xiaota bit his lip and didn't know what to say. She didn't dare to tell Xiao Linglong that she was afraid that Chu Tianya would be unhappy when she woke up one day, so she was going to destroy the State of Liao. She stayed here, at least she had a chance to plead for mercy.
"Don't think I don't know if you don't say it." Xiao Linglong said indifferently, "Until now, you still have that damn man in your heart. You are willing to give everything for him. You can do anything.
Xiaota was speechless and lowered his head slightly.
Xiao Linglong doesn't need to look at her expression and expression to know that what she said is right. She really knows this sister who grew up together.
"I hope you can wake up early and don't be too obsessed." Xiao Linglong lowered her voice a little to avoid Chu Tianya's hearing, "I don't want to see your body on the battlefield one day, or kill you with my own hands!"
Xiaota's body trembled gently, "Fly...Flying Fox, will you kill your only relative in the world with your own hands?"
"If you have a bad intention to hurt him, I promise, I will!" Xiao Linglong suddenly turned her head and looked at Xiaota with her eyebrows up like electricity. "Liao, the Xiao family and relatives, for me, it was yesterday's cloud. Like you, now my man, my home, is everything to me - unlike you, Chu Tianya is worth doing this for him; and Dashi is not worth it! Because in his eyes, you are not even as good as a war horse!!"
Xiaota was almost choked to death by her words, and she could only take a deep breath to calm down her mood.
"Maybe you're right. In the eyes of men, we women are really not as good as a war horse..." Xiaota said, "But this is our fate, isn't it? I admit my weakness and incompetence. I'm not like you. I've been more rebellious than men since I was a child, and I dared to fight against everything. I don't have the power to tie the chicken, so I can only accept my fate.
"If someone in the world believes that you really have no power to tie a chicken, he must be the number one fool in the world!" Xiao Linglong said, "Your mind and city government are the most profound women I have ever seen. Otherwise, Dashi would not be so relieved to send you for this mission.
"It's a pity..." Xiaota sighed deeply, "Compared with him, I'm still far away. Da Shi and I seem to underestimate Chu Tianya and the people around him.
"You two are indeed a good match. You are both equally pretentious." Xiao Linglong mocked nakedly, "Do you think that Chu Tianya can have today's status by luck? The people around him are also a group of mountain thieves. Let me tell you this. It's just a vain wisdom and strategy, and he can't compare with Yelu Dashi after ten years of practice.
"It doesn't mean this layer." Xiao Tabuyan took a deep breath again and stared at Xiao Linglong, "We... underestimated you."
Xiao Linglong looked back at her slightly, "What do you mean?"
Xiaota smiled bitterly, "We thought that you were still the green girl who was dedicated to the big stone in those years; we thought that we could move you through family affection and let you stand on our side. It turned out that we were wrong, very wrong. Today's flying fox is no longer the princess of Liao in those years.
"Oh? Thank you very much for the compliment." Xiao Linglong couldn't help laughing, "Are you talking about the difference between me and before?"
"Too many places are different." Xiao Ta said, "In the past, you were naive, straightforward, lively and cute; now you are not only shrewd and old-fashioned, but also calm. You are still affectionate and righteous, but you are no longer emotional in the face of right and wrong. In contrast, you are more focused on your demeanor as the 'mother of the nation' than me. It can be seen that the wandering experience in the world in the past few years has really made you mature.
"I'm about to be a mother. Can I still be like a child?" After saying that, Xiao Linglong gently touched her stomach, with a woman's unique satisfaction and warm smile on her face. "When I was a child, my greatest wish was to be a general who led the army and become the only female general in Liao Dynasty like my father and brother. Later, when Liao was destroyed, I fled south and became a mountain thief leader by chance. Since then, I have felt that I have become another person. Until today, I can't figure out which one is the real me, the Flying Fox in Liao Dynasty and the current Xiao Linglong. However, there is one thing I'm sure of. Xiao Linglong is living a good and happy life now. That's enough, isn't it?"
"Yes..." Xiaota sighed softly, "Now I'll tell you the truth. When I married Dashi, I was a little complacent. Because your father and brother have liked you more since you were a child. I was once very proud that I was nothing like you, but in the end I could marry the man we both love. It was not until later that I realized how ignorant and shallow I was at that time. Because I found that Dashi said he wanted to marry me just out of courtesy; the person he really loves is you.
"Haha, I'm laughing to death!" Xiao Linglong suddenly laughed, "Out of courtesy?"
"Yes, it's just out of courtesy..." Xiao Ta sighed and said, "Because I met Dashi earlier than you and had a relationship with him earlier, we even had a private life. But when he met you, he fell in love with you without hesitation... Flying Fox, do you know? If you fall in love with two people at the same time, please choose the second one. Because if you really love the first one, your heart is all about him, and you won't fall in love with anyone else. After all, the world belongs to men, and women also belong to men. There must be more than one woman around a man like Dashi and Chu Tianya. But there must be only one thing they love the most!"
"Then I'm really happier than you." Xiao Linglong smiled and narrowed her eyes with a smile. "At least now, my heart is all about him, and his heart is also all me. I know he had other women. Although I was a little annoyed, I didn't really care. Because I know that Chu Tianya, a powerful man, will only be himself when he is with me. He will lose his temper with me like a child, play a scoundrel or even act coquettishly. He once desperately fought for me and shed real tears for me; when I disappear, he will look for me all over the world; only when I am by his side will he feel at home. We really belong to each other... These things won't happen to other women!"
Xiaota listened quietly. Gradually, his eyes turned red, his eyes were wet, and finally shed tears.
"Why do you cry?"
"Because of what you said, I haven't experienced all of them..."
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"Haha! I finally caught it! Yes, yes, there is fish soup to drink in the evening!" While the two sisters were chatting, Chu Tianya over there suddenly danced and shouted.
Xiao Linglong stood up in surprise and walked to Chu Tianya, but saw Chu Tianya holding a small fish less than three inches long in his hand. She couldn't help laughing on the spot, "How to cook soup with such a small fish? You know how to brag!"
"I'll catch ten of them!" Chu Tianya grinned, "Come on, put away the fish!"
"Good!" Regardless of her pregnancy, Xiao Linglong picked up the small bucket in person, carefully took over the fish caught by Chu Tianya, and then took the small fish bucket back to the gazebo.
Xiaota looked at this scene quietly, and tears flowed more fiercely.
Xiao Linglong took the wet and hot towel handed over by the maidservant and wiped her hands and said, "When you sincerely share everything with a man, whether it is joy or sorrow, whether it is rich or poor, or power and obscurity - it is a kind of happiness. I am willing to share everything on the horizon. Whether it is changing my life to fight in the four directions or fishing in my parents' short pond, I feel very happy, very happy and satisfied. Sister, your tears today are sincere; because I know clearly that Dashi really doesn't love you.
"You're right... I really don't deserve to do this for him!" Xiao Ta took a deep breath, and his eyes suddenly aered. He looked at Xiao Linglong, "Flying Foxer, will you still believe me?"
"You are my only relative in the world. Although you once hurt me, if I didn't believe you, you wouldn't stand here today. Xiao Linglong said, "What do you want to say to me?"
"I want to tell you a...shocking secret!" Xiao Tabu summoned up his courage and stared at Xiao Linglong with wide eyes. There is a thrilling color on his face.
Xiao Linglong's heart tightened, hurriedly pulled Xiao Ta and walked towards the pond, and ordered the female guards around her to be strictly vigilent and not to let any idle eyes approach.
"Now you can say it." Xiao Linglong stopped and said.
Chu Tianya still leaned one leg against the Taihu stone, and the fishing rod was on his knees, with a leisurely and complacent look. "What do you want to say, so grand and formal?"