Chapter 39 Despair and Helplessness

The room is filled with helplessness and despair.

I closed my eyes, restrained all my emotions, and quietly waited for Dumb's decision.

After hearing this, Ah Dumb's expression was shocked, and his face flashed with chagrin and regret. He really didn't expect that the truth of the truth was like this.

If he can do it again, he will definitely suppress his emotions and give me a chance to explain.

It's just that many things can't go back.

It's like sending charcoal in the snow, and it's easy to add flowers on the cake.

Is it useful to publish a penance? Dumb knows that I am not the kind of person who can slap and coax me back with a red date, although at this moment, he extremely hopes that I am the kind of person who can be easily exposed and avoided talking about it.

It's really self-inflicted and can't live.

A Dumb couldn't help smiling bitterly at the corners of his mouth.

However, no matter what, he has to say something. Such a quiet atmosphere has made him uneasy. He is afraid that my heart will be completely closed to him, so he must explain it well before I close my heart.

Just as A Dai made up his mind and opened his mouth to speak, my cold voice sounded in his ear, making his already uneasy heart more tightly.

"There's nothing to say. Just leave my room first. I'm tired."

As soon as the words fell, I raised my hand tiredly and rubbed my eyebrows into a word "chuan", with deep disappointment in my voice.

Shouldn't you be disappointed? It's so clear that he still looks uncertain. In Ah Dai's heart, am I really as unbearable and shameless as he said?

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I smiled. At the beginning, I should not have any hope. I guess no matter which man sees a woman with a man, his first reaction is adultery, but I still hope that A Dai is free from those ordinary people and can calm down and listen to my explanation. It's ridiculous that he listened, but all the explanations were so pale and powerless in front of what he thought was the truth.

It seems that I am too far away from each other. I think that these three years of feelings and these three years of mutual dependence can make him fully understand my habits, but at least, in some general directions, he will not doubt me. For example, the evil man lies in my room.

Even if he doesn't know me, he should give me a chance to explain. Bao Zheng still needs to testify in court. Why did he put on a big hat as soon as he saw me coming? Doesn't he know how important a woman's innocence is?

Thinking like this, there was a mass of anger in my heart, roaring in my body, as if to find an outlet to vent the anger turned into by these kinds of dissatisfaction. However, there is more deep disappointment and sadness.

Yes, I'm disappointed. So much that I don't even want to say anything extra. I just want to be alone in the room, clean up my psychological trauma and stay quietly for a while.

A was frozen, and a trace of sadness flashed in his eyes. With the clenched fists, you can see the blue and white bone joints and the bursting blue veins.

Why is it like this? Is it irreparable?

Suddenly, A Dai remembered the past when he was with me.

Scene by scene swayed in my mind. Funny, warm, happy or sad.

I'm all by his side to spend time with him.

I thought that the dark life would only be surrounded by the cold words "retaliation", but I found that my existence was the happiest three years he has ever lived. Just because there is someone who understands him and someone who will accompany him when he is lonely.

Is it true that even the last glimmer of light in life will be gone?

Adai tightened his fist with a look of unwillingness.

He looked at me with a complicated expression and full of disappointment. With a tired face, his heart was hot. He stretched out his hand and couldn't help pulling me to his chest.

At that moment, I was in a trance.

It is the refreshing and clean taste of Adai's body.

I couldn't help blushing, pushed my strong chest with my hand, and said angrily:

"Dumb, let go!"

It's just that it's all useless work. Ah Dai hugged me tightly and didn't let go according to his words.

Just as I was going to do something hard to solve this embarrassment, I said in a muffled voice:

"I'm sorry."

Suddenly, I stiffened, and a trace of unbelief flashed in my eyes, so I didn't continue to refuse Ah Dumb.

When A Dai saw that I didn't continue to resist, his uneasy mood eased a little and felt that I was quiet and clever in his chest, and I couldn't help but feel a little strange.

If only it could go on like this.

A Dai took a deep breath of the smell of my body and thought contentedly.

But I also know that the most important thing now is to stabilize my emotions, temporarily let go of the strangeness in my heart, and say softly:

"Please forgive me for my impulse. I was really overwhelmed by anger, and I didn't think carefully about the causes and consequences of these things. I even put a hat on you without waiting for your explanation. I'm sorry~"

In his tone, he sincerely apologized to me.

I can't help but feel relieved and satisfied by others. My already sour eyes seem to have found a venting mouth and flowing out.

However, I am still very uncomfortable, subconsciously, and I don't want to be known that I was crying. Therefore, he pounced on A Dumb and let his tears pour down, and there was no sound in his mouth.

However, the dull who has been paying attention to me still found my strangeness, and I can even feel the warm ** infiltration on my chest.

A Dumb looked flustered, and there was a strong pity in his eyes. He wanted to comfort me several times, but he didn't know what to say. After all, these are all his own mistakes.

In a while, a feeling of regret appeared on A Dai's face.

I didn't cry for a long time and stopped my tears. I pushed Dumb away, turned around and wiped the tears on my face with my hand, and said indifferently:

"You'd better go first. I want to stay alone for a while."

When A Dumb heard this, he only looked at me deeply and turned away without hesitation. He knew that it would be bad for both of them to stay longer. It's better to calm down and talk about it after thinking about it.

However, when he walked to the door, A Dumb remembered the evil man lying in **, stopped, hesitated for a while, and said:

"Do you want me to find someone to take care of that man?"

Originally, at such a time, there was also a suspicion of distrust of me, but with such a dangerous person in my room, Dumb was worried. After thinking about it, he still took the evil man away. By the way, he questioned why he came to disturb his plan last night, more importantly. Yes, why are there repeated threats?!

After waiting for a while, he didn't see me reply. A Dai was a little uncertain, so he added:

"I'm afraid that you will take care of him alone. It's too tired, so..."

After saying that, he looked at me uneasily, as if he was afraid that I would think more.

I couldn't help looking at such a dull man, I thought of Chunhong. It's the same. After doing something wrong, he looked at me at a loss, like a child waiting for the adult to be punished.

However, I was a little moved by A Dai's words, and then I remembered the poison that the evil man gave me....

"No, it's better stay here. It's not convenient to move around. Besides, Lin's house is also an eventful time now. Maybe anyone sees a stranger staying in this yard and inform Mrs. Lin that your plan will be in trouble again?"

I rationally analyzed to Dumb and gently rejected Dumb's proposal.

After hearing this, Ah Dai's eyes flashed, but he didn't say much. He turned around and left my room.

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In the room, there are only me and the evil man lying in **.